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Topic: Love and White Light Needed
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maya-v Knowflake Posts: 688 From: New York Registered: Dec 2004
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posted March 08, 2005 05:23 PM
I have just pushed the last nail into the demise of a very turbulent, very intense and very close relationship - friendship. He was so precious to me, both as my guy and as a friend. We were debating the dynamics of being friends in waiting, till we figured out who we were or wanted to be. I learnt a lot from him and hope helped him in some ways too. Now he is gone, for good and I feel a kinda loss. I am not heartbroken, I am not sad or anything - I just feel weird.I do miss him, I will over the years, but I guess he did what was best for him. I wish him the best in life, happiness and peace, but I need some hugs and love from my favorite people - so dont be stingy. Maya IP: Logged |
Mama Mia Knowflake Posts: 451 From: chicago Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 08, 2005 05:32 PM
BIG OLE, BIG OLE hug to you Maya and a nice big wet grandma kiss on the forehead.:-) IP: Logged |
geminstone Knowflake Posts: 176 From: Golden, CO Registered: Nov 2004
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posted March 08, 2005 09:43 PM
Aww, Maya-v... Much Love to you and big, Bear hugs too....~ geminstone IP: Logged |
Secret Garden Knowflake Posts: 302 From: Registered: Dec 2004
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posted March 08, 2005 10:25 PM
Maya you're a precious jewel and we all love you... sometimes a lot of things happen that we wish just didn't...and although you're so generous and lovely to wish him happiness, that is truly so selfless of you to put it in perspective that way, yet there is always that bitter-sweetness. Undoubtedly, it is a learning experience...and you had some good memories I am thinking, and by focusing on that positive hopefully it will give you strength to move on. We are your supplemental strength always, (always!). The reason I say supplemental is that, I know you have the strength inside you as a person, and that strength is absolutely imperative for an independent person like yourself. But we all need someone to lean on, and LL is ur support group! this reminds me of swerve... I wonder how he is doing and hope he feels awesome. *hugs and lots of positive energy everyones way* IP: Logged |
pidaua Knowflake Posts: 3117 From: Sierra Vista, Arizona Registered: May 2002
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posted March 09, 2005 01:37 AM
I'm sorry Maya...I know it is hard. You have to be feeling similar to how I did when I broke things off with my ex-leo..I called it "Same Deep Waters" the title is actually a song from the Cure. The Same Deep Water as You Kiss me goodbye Pushing out before I sleep Can't you see I try Swimming the same deep water as you is hard "The shallow drowned lose less than we" You breathe The strangest twist upon your lips "And we shall be together... " "Kiss me goodbye Bow your head and join with me" And face pushed deep Reflections meet The strangest twist upon your lips And disappear The ripples clear And laughing Break against your feet And laughing Break the mirror sweet "So we shall be together... " "Kiss me goodbye" Pushing out before I sleep It's lower now and slower now The strangest twist upon your lips But I don't see And I don't feel But tightly hold up silently My hands before my fading eyes And in my eyes Your smile The very last thing before I go... Iwill kiss you I will kiss you I will kiss you forever on nights like this I will kiss you I will kiss you And we shall be together... If you have ever heard it..it is haunting and reminds of being in love with someone that pulls me deeper into a place I don't belong. Mr ex had too many problems and one of them was alcohol. I just couldn't rely on him..so I let him go, much like you did...
But, when we let go and we mourn- something always happens that makes us stronger, make us love more and changes us. For me, I felt a burden lifted, even through the heartache. When my heart was healed - I met Mr. Taurus, or should I say, he found me. I then had to place that call to the ex-leo, because we were still friends and I felt he needed to know what was up. He and I didn't talk much for about 3 months. Then he started to call again, but more just as friends. He tells me he still loves me, but his words always ring hollow. He once told me he couldn't give me the love I needed- but what he didn't realize was that it was IMPOSSIBLE to love as he needed to- I know that now, because now I know real love, warts and all. My heart it with you..and you will be in my prayers..I know you will become stronger and stronger as each day passes. You have a fighting spirit.. HUGS!!! ~Pidaua
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sunshine9 Knowflake Posts: 53 From: NC, USA Registered: Feb 2005
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posted March 09, 2005 02:04 AM
Hi Maya-v, I'm new here *waving*, and just stopped by to send you some . It's very hard to have a close friendship like that end; I cried for days, maybe even weeks, when a dear friend of mine & I parted ways, and still do on occasion, when I remember the wonderful times we had, and how much i miss her... but you will heal over time. Hang in there! Sunshine IP: Logged |
running_bull Knowflake Posts: 167 From: the desert, usa Registered: Nov 2004
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posted March 09, 2005 03:57 AM
I hope you feel better Maya and I am wishing you the best. Its snowing in New York, so maybe you can take solace in the quiet and slower pace of this week. Maybe think and write tabout how you have evolved and changed in good ways because of this relationship.Hopefully by the spring you're heart will be open to receiving and receive a new love. The best of love to you. IP: Logged |
maya-v Knowflake Posts: 688 From: New York Registered: Dec 2004
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posted March 09, 2005 10:02 AM
I never realised just how much I will miss the stupid je#k. Guess I will have to change all my passwords from his name to something else ...Still not over it ... dont know when I will be Thanks, all you lovely Knowflakes, it helps a lot to know I am not alone. IP: Logged |
pixelpixie Moderator Posts: 7017 From: Ontario, Canada Registered: Aug 2003
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posted March 09, 2005 10:16 AM
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sthenri Moderator Posts: 3068 From: Montreal, Canada Registered: May 2003
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posted March 09, 2005 10:39 AM
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