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Topic: RANT: WARNING...LEO MOON ON FIRE
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ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 1223
From: MAINE! :)
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted April 18, 2005 02:49 PM
 
FFS... Sometimes I really want to smack boys... MEN... What do they think they are accomplishing by moping around all miserable and NOT TELLING YOU WHAT'S WRONG??? Okay, I think I am so insane over this right now as he and I have always been able to talk about everything. Everything. Which is unusual for me, as I am the one who always had a hard time getting my feelings into thoughts, then into words, that made any sense. So as he was able to open me up, and never let me get away with anything (Mercury in Libra, 12th house, topped with an Aries moon, 6th), this sudden withdrawal into angry-''the world owes me something''-additude of the past few days has left me dazed... and come to think of it... FUMING. It's just so odd... he's never been like this. He's never had a problem telling it like it is, just being honest and up-front about everything to be 'fair'... (Libra sun 12th). It's just... okay, you know when men have all this stuff on their minds (okay, like, 2 THINGS at once... but that's really hard, I've heard) and so they are all silent and pent up, and then you let your mind wander to all possible reasons for them being in such a state, especially thinking maybe YOU did something to **** them off? Or they are maybe thinking it's time to end things? Or any number of the things that swirl through your head when you are not being given straight answers? WELL... that's pretty much been the past few days. And I have these ideas of what is wrong, but I am afraid to bring up some of them, for fear that I'm right, but also because I don't want to push him into talking about it if he's not ready. All he said is ''Don't worry, it's just me... I'll have to deal with it and get over it...'' but then he acts like he would rather be a million miles away from me... GAH!! I want to punch him! I know there is a lot of stuff he must be thinking about right now, but most of it is stuff WE need to be talking about, so it's really annoying when he shuts me out like this. I feel kinda bad for him, what with a 12th house Sun position (as well as 12th house Merc), I know that this aspect can be really difficult if you don't try to find ways of making it work to your advantage.. He gets down a lot, like feeling the world caving on him, and I have always been the light he hung onto... now he's not reaching for me and it's killing me.... I just hope this is just his 'period'... Any advice as to how to breach this silence without driving him away would be appreciated... Thanks for reading my bs..  Ghani IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
Moderator Posts: 7843
From: Ontario, Canada
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted April 18, 2005 02:58 PM
What do men do with each other that is sanctimonious, and buddy like?
The ability to shut it off, take in a beer or twelve, and watch football, and possibly look at chicks.
They don't talk about their feelings, yet, if they started the night heavy, they end the night joyous.
Men have different release mechanisms.. I think women feel the need to vocalize things, whereas men assess them internally, and process them until they get solutions.
To me it seems this shutting off doesn't really heal anything, but who am I to judge....
If he says to let him do it and go through it himself, let him.
Let him know you are there if he needs you, but give him what he asks for.... And try not to fill the interim with doubts.
Maybe he internalized something like.."I watched that newsanchorwoman, who normally gives me wood when I watch her mouth, and this time, I didn't get wood, am I losing my libido?"
Maybe He is saying to himself
"I really love this woman, I really love this woman.. what if I **** this up?"Maybe he is internalizing demons that he has had since childhood...
The only thing you can do , if you want to care, is stand by asnd wait for a cue.
He should do the same for you.. you adapt to the circumstancs you are dealt..... and the people who deal them.
At least he left a clue out in the open, that was very caring of him.
You can do it, my Aqua friend...
Feel free to talk about it here...
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ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 1223
From: MAINE! :)
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted April 18, 2005 03:07 PM
Thanks, hunny...I know I have to just let him come to whatever conclusion/whatever you call it on his own. I know that. But it's one of those really hard things for me to do... damn 11th house Aqua sun, mer, and mars... they just want to help! They think everything should be done as a 'group effort'.. Trying to let that go and just be okay with (and have faith in) his wonderful self. Off to see how he's doing today... See you later. Ghani IP: Logged |
ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 1223
From: MAINE! :)
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted April 19, 2005 10:34 AM
You are not even going to believe what his damage was....Okay, so there's this bartender at work. He's one of those college frat-boy-body-builder types. Taurean. Very funny and nice, but not my type AT ALL. He's all into rap music, and sports, and is basically one of those dudes that you pal around with, not try to have a deep discussion with, ya know? He and his Leo girlfriend have hung out with us a few times, and Jase just has this thing about him... he has it in his head that I want a piece. HA!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Anyways, we had that discussion once before, something really small that he blew out of proportion in his head before ever talking to me about it. Something like, I looked at him for a second too long or something like that... (I'm like, ''Hello!! I'm always off in the feaking stars, doofus!!'') So... we are all hanging out the other night after work, watching SNL muted listening to some old Rolling Stones albums. So I think I recognize the guest host, and I go ''Hey, Brian, is that Tom Brady? (QB for the Patriots)'' That is all I said. Jase does not watch sports, he's an artsy, musical, story writing guy... Brian is a Red Sox, Pats fanatic, so naturally, I asked him... THIS IS WHAT ALL THE HOOPLAH WAS ABOUT.  So I finally drag it out of him last night at dinner... and I go:
''Well, do you know who Tom Brady is?''
''Yes!''
''What does he do?''
''He plays.... football.''
''What team?''
''(long pause) The Patriots, obviously. ''
''Um... yeah... okay. ''
So we're over it now.. but can I just say how freaking PARANOID a Libra with a 10th house Virgo Venus and 11th house Virgo Mars can be??? Not to mention the posessive Scorpio rising... Bless him... Gotta love the game of miscommunication!  Kinda funny, really... IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
Moderator Posts: 7843
From: Ontario, Canada
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted April 20, 2005 12:03 AM
*hugs to the silly head so much in love with you he is right in the middle of the sticky stupid stuff*
But it is heartwarming stupid stuff. IP: Logged |
maya-v
Knowflake Posts: 992
From: New York
Registered: Dec 2004
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posted April 20, 2005 11:21 AM
Hey ghan ghan - you know I am always here in case you change your mind ....  IP: Logged |
ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 1223
From: MAINE! :)
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted April 20, 2005 11:44 AM
Ooooo baby, a ride on the bull!!  That is a silly little cute story... gives me little giggles and shivers just thinking about him.... *le sigh* Yeah, if he would have just let me know that it's because he feels so strongly for me, and not made it seem like he was done with me, we never would have had that problem... And now he's all freaked out about being an *8*... he's got a bit of a complex, I'm trying to help him harness a bit more of his inner energy to overcome his fears and insecurities. Frigin' first house Saturn/Asc conjunction... IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
Moderator Posts: 7843
From: Ontario, Canada
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted April 20, 2005 01:08 PM
I have that too... and I understand.
But who better than someone who understands.. REALLY understands his nature, in his corner, rooting for him and urging him to bring his wonderful bits out.
Truly, even if the two of you aren't a foever thing, he will emerge a better human being for having known you.
Isn't that a great power to possess? It isn't power OVER others, it is the power to OVERcome other's insecurities, and catapault them into the people they should be.IP: Logged |
ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 1223
From: MAINE! :)
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted April 20, 2005 01:53 PM
... yes, Pixie... that is my calling in life. Jupiter conj Saturn in Libra, square Venus... but then I get the beautiful 8th house Uranus in Scorpio. I'm coming to grips with my 10th house Cappy Venus, I realize that I am at my best and happiest when I am working hard on a relationship. Not forcing anything, just, when I am there for a person and seeing them at least reaching out to find their higher S-elves. A pattern in my love life... was to try and be 'the one' that made them better, now I see it is all within themselves, and if they see me as a helping hand or guiding force to their happiness/realization of their dreams, then it leaves me at peace... ... and he lets me know that I do that for him. He said last night, when we were talking about my past for a minute: "I wish I could have been there. Wow. I've never thought that way before, but I wish I could have known you then. Seen you, talked to you... I wish I knew you when you were a kid. I bet I would have loved you even then..." He turns me into mush, I swear... IP: Logged |
marcia
Knowflake Posts: 610
From: NYC
Registered: Oct 2004
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posted April 20, 2005 06:46 PM
Awwwww  IP: Logged | |
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