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shop22much
Knowflake Posts: 22
From: cali
Registered: Apr 2005
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posted May 21, 2005 04:42 AM
 
I don't know what to think,
I am in love with an amazing Aquarius with an Scorpio rising,gemini moon, and capi venus(oh boy i know),
it seems to me all I ever am left is with feeling confused where we are..
he recently told me he loved me over the phone, and i didnt know what to say because i was so taken aback by it cause he's never utter anything close to that, then he there was a semi silence, and i said what? because i wanted to him to say it again, cause i was ready to say it back, and then he said...i was kidding, blah blah,HE SOUNDED SO SERIOUS, AND SINCERE, it made my heart melt for those few seconds i thought he meant it, and i was hurt, and i said youre a jerk in a jokingling way, and i said you know i will be thinking about this for awhile, and he said dont, and i said he was beautiful, and he said i was beauty, and we got off the phone, i was so confused, and sad and happy at the same time...i call him 2 days later, to say youre not alone with your thoughts, and he just made me feel like **** , like i was being a fool for thinking he was being serious, this coming from the guy who said 2 weeks ago "i dont feel as strongly as you", then saying he wants me to wait around, pretty much condricting everything he was saying every freakin few mins, and confusing me, if he thought i was so involved with my emotions with him, why would he say he loved me? ive gotten to the point where im sick of this, and him....and im ending all contact with him, well at least for an extended amount of time, he opened me up, and now wants to shut me down, i cant handle this, im always upset, always thinking about him, school, work, and working out doesnt seem to do the trick....i feel (and i know this sounds semi foolish on my part) that we're soulmates, and ive always felt a deep connection with him, like i know what hes feeling without saying anything....
i feel like we could have a lovely romantic out of this world relationship if only he would let me in, lets put it this way, I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM, BUT KNOW NOTHING...does that make sense? this guy is a walking mystery box, ...I feel like a fool. Please, anyone with knowledge on astrology, give me insight on our composite chart, please give me advice, are we meant to be? etc etc.... harsh, not harsh, im already harsh on myself, forgetting isnt easy when you feel this much...
im a virgo/aquarius rising/aries moon/leo venus
Composite Horoscope midpoint method
PLANETARY POSITIONS
planet sign degree house
Sun Scorpio 27°15'51 11
Moon Taurus 13°33'06 05
Mercury Scorpio 16°39'01 11
Venus Scorpio 00°47'52 10
Mars Virgo 21°29'19 09
Jupiter Sagittarius 24°06'26 12
Saturn Scorpio 07°27'47 11
Uranus Sagittarius 09°03'08 12
Neptune Sagittarius 28°33'28 01
Pluto Libra 29°48'27 10
True Node Gemini 16°33'59 06
HOUSE POSITIONS (Placidus)
Ascendant Sagittarius 27°19'10
2nd House Aquarius 03°43'57
3rd House Pisces 07°12'42
Imum Coeli Aries 07°39'46
5th House Taurus 05°20'19
6th House Gemini 00°54'47
Descendant Gemini 27°19'10
8th House Leo 03°43'57
9th House Virgo 07°12'42
Medium Coeli Libra 07°39'46
11th House Scorpio 05°20'19
12th House Sagittarius 00°54'47
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Isis
Knowflake Posts: 1114
From: CA
Registered: Jan 2004
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posted May 21, 2005 05:16 AM
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ive gotten to the point where im sick of this, and him....and im ending all contact with him
Good idea. I don't have to look at a chart to know that anyone who will joke about loving you like that isn't worth your time. Maybe I'm just a hard-ass about such things, but toying with your emotions, playing games, isn't worth your love or your time. If he is so conflicted that he flip flops about how he feels about you so abruptly and often (and in a hurtful manner), then IMHO he's emotionally immature, unable to handle a mature relationship, and not worth your time. View your love as a special gift, and when you view it that way, perhaps it might seem that he's not worthy of such a special thing as you? IP: Logged |
AcousticGod
Knowflake Posts: 136
From: Pleasanton, CA, USA
Registered: May 2005
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posted May 21, 2005 06:59 AM
Aquarius are supposedly notorious for not being able to handle relationships. They are much better as friends. I'm afraid I don't know enough about Astrology to read a composite chart for you two. www.astro.com and astrology3D.com will both give you interpretations of your composite charts. Neither will give you an absolute yes/no answer about whether or not you should be together.  IP: Logged |
sue g
Knowflake Posts: 869
From: ireland
Registered: Sep 2004
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posted May 21, 2005 01:18 PM
I was married to an Aqua sun, moon in Scorp and gemini ascend...........he completely f***** my head up I am telling you. He said to me towards the end of our relationship that he had a "death wish" on me, as in he would push me as far as he could go and then snatch me back when he could feel me leaving. When I managed to get away from him I had to go into "hiding" as I was scared he would harm me and my new man. The stress nearly killed me...............I was quite infatuated with him throughout the relationship............that Scorpio moon, together with the Aqua soon, such mixed messages, very powerful and at times very very dark, thanks God I escaped!! Love and Irish luck to you xxxxIP: Logged |
Tarutaru
Knowflake Posts: 3
From: Singapore
Registered: May 2005
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posted May 23, 2005 02:16 AM
shop22much, this is my view,Sun signs: used for judgement if the relationship is smooth during courtship.
Rising signs: for estimation if the couple are suitable for each other when getting together? Even if the Sun signs are very compatible, high possibilities for break up when Rising signs are incompatible.
Moon signs: important marriage factor. IP: Logged |
Gooberzlostlovefound
Knowflake Posts: 559
From: and the embers never fade in your city by the lake
Registered: Jan 2002
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posted May 23, 2005 03:35 AM
shop22much~ Hi there, well, this is just my opinion and I could very well be wrong, but, as Isis said, he does sound pretty emotionally immature. I know firsthand how hard it is to have strong feelings for a guy like that -- the conflicted, aloof, hard-to-read, "mysterious" type. But just try to keep in mind that you deserve better than someone who toys with your emotions. (If that indeed really is what's going on or if that's what ends up taking place).From the placements that you mentioned...Aqua Sun, Scorp Rising, Gem Moon, Cap Venus -- it does sounds kind of, well....scary, lol. In terms of relationships, yeah, doesn't come off as ideal. BUT...I will try not to be such an "astrological bigot."  Anyhow I'm not trying to make you feel bad about him, things may indeed work out. All I'm saying is, value yourself and don't let him toy with you too much, you know? I know you have deep feelings for him, but just keep that in mind. Please let us know what happens. I wish you all the best and I really don't mean to sound so negative about him. I just hate to see other girls get hurt by these hot-and-cold, "mysterious" types. I hope he proves to be worthy of you and, if not, better things will come your way.  IP: Logged |
shop22much
Knowflake Posts: 22
From: cali
Registered: Apr 2005
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posted May 23, 2005 04:04 AM
It's so hard to go through these emotions when I don't really have a solid friend to speak to them about it, I guess I've always been the one people go to for advice...so here I am with so many questions, and no real answers...In all honesty, I HAVE ATTEMPTED to let go, and forget him, really...but I always end up coming back to these deep audacious emotions! eh I even hate saying this old favorite manta, but he really isnt like anyone I've ever encountered at all!
He hasn't had a girlfriend in almost 4 years, so I guess maybe that's apart of it, I showed him his Venus in Capicorn desciption once and it said how he was afraid to love, etc and I said THATS YOU! and he said maybe... I've read our charts on probably ever site possible, I even forked out some money on one site which didnt help me at all, I mean it was pretty insightful to a certain degree, but it's not the answers I was looking for.. Maybe my questions are along the lines, should I wait for him? should I move on? are we meant to be? does he love me? and I know astrology can't pinpoint love like that especially a massive question like that, but something close enough..... We have a lot of scorpio in our composite chart, so that can explain our intense obessesive relationship with each other...sometimes I feel like Im more obessessed than he is, but maybe he can play it more cool with that damn Aquarius sun and Cap Venus.... I can't let him go, even when I'm not thinking of him, I AM THINKING OF HIM...does that make sense? i mean today was the most EEEK day worst headache in 2 years, and i was still thinking about through studying for my midterms, I mean, it's so constant, I am consumed with the thoughts of US together, I feel like we have something so original, so beautiful, so poetic, something out of this world, if only he would let me in, i know we could have an amazing relationship.... now I feel like Im just mumbling, this topic is so depressing to me, Ive never cried in front of him ever, till like a few weeks ago, when I was discussing about US, and I felt that day, I lost my pride in some way, some way I just felt so foolish, I wish I never showed that part of me, and i know it makes me truly human, but makes me feel like I scared him in some way, that he thinks Im getting in too deep... It seems to me the moment I do forget him, he shows up very affectionate and flirty and talkative and downright adorable! thats why im scared to go through the trouble of moving on, cause I know somehow we'll end up adoring each again... Please anyone give me some insight on our chart, im choking on hope. blah IP: Logged | |
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