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Topic: case file: ancient love affair
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whiterabbit
Knowflake Posts: 875
From: Never, Never, Never Land
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted September 24, 2005 09:21 PM
 
I just wrote a post which disappeared so I will take it as a sign to try a different approach to the question. I don't mind an astrological or personal answer.. I would appreciate both, in fact. So, I think Soul Unions is a good place for such a question.I will start with the statistics... astrological information:
HIM
Sun Aquarius
Moon Aquarius
Mercury Pisces
Venus Aquarius
Mars Aquarius ME
Sun Aquarius
Moon Leo
Mercury Aquarius
Venus Aquarius
Mars Scorpio There is this lovely conjunction of his Venus and my Venus/Sun/Mercury which also trines my Ascendant. His Venus opposes my moon.
He was my *first* love, and devestated my heart many moons ago, though there is no residual bitterness or love.
I was invited by his best friend to a party at HIS apartment. Which is strange in itself. Why now, after all this time? I didn't even know he was living in the city again. I have not seen him in a long time and a lot of water has gone under the bridge. I'm fresh out of a relationship that left my soul pretty black and blue. But, I am excited and curious about this situation. No expectations, really.. (well, there are always expectations..) I'm still friends with all of my old loves and lovers (Aquarians are famous for this, aren't we?) with the exception of this man and the one I just ended things with.
The Aqua and I didn't remain friends because it hurt too much to talk to him and then after a while we lost touch, I didn't talk to him or his friends anymore, and he wasn't living in the city. Now..
after YEARS
I can see him on Saturday if I want to. What to do? I feel like I want to see him but that may be that bit in all of us that wants our old lovers to see us looking sexy and happy, just for ego satisfaction.
Or, I may be looking to "get some"  as I have been feeling somewhat in need of that lately. And then there's just the thrill of it. But didn't the cat die for wanting just the thrill of the adventure? Any thoughts about these kinds of reunions? Should I just wear something hot, get tipsy beforehad and take my hot gay friend as a "date"?  Ha, ha.. I don't know.. what is DONE in these situations? Thank you so much for your patience and insights.. 
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Though the flesh be bugged, the circumstances of existence are pretty glorious.
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AcousticGod
Knowflake Posts: 2648
From: Pleasanton, CA, USA
Registered: May 2005
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posted September 24, 2005 10:40 PM
I like your last ideas. Taking a hot gay friend is great on a couple levels. I'd go just for the curiosity of it.Are you prepared to see him happy, and possibly with someone? IP: Logged |
let ther b light
Knowflake Posts: 63
From: bombay, india
Registered: Aug 2005
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posted September 25, 2005 03:19 AM
if by saturday u meant the 24th then my answer maybe late but hot gay friend sounds reaaallllllly good........ur hot gay friends presence may bring out unexpected reactions from him............especially if u act lik u are normal and not hung up on him..............so i dont think u shud get tipsy........at least not tooooo tipsy......and i wud go.....but i wud not approach him first or better still i wud jus say a normal hi....lik he wer just an aquaintance.........but then to each their own..........all the best
love
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let ther b light
Knowflake Posts: 63
From: bombay, india
Registered: Aug 2005
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posted September 25, 2005 03:23 AM
i really wanna no wat happens  .............please keep us posted
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Valkie
Knowflake Posts: 28
From: Mass
Registered: Sep 2005
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posted September 25, 2005 09:20 AM
Personally, I'd go without a date... but that's me (I blame it on my Aries Venus). You're single and there's no hurt in testing the waters  .But definately be prepared to see him happy with someone else. Without knowing what you're chart looks like, I can't give too much astrological insight aside from the fact that Jupiter is in Libra IP: Logged |
whiterabbit
Knowflake Posts: 875
From: Never, Never, Never Land
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted September 25, 2005 12:22 PM
Hey, thanks everyone.
It's actually next Saturday, October 1st, so I still have some time to think about it.
More and more I'm leaning on the side of going alone, in a way I will feel most comfortable that way.
I'm excited! Luckily, I'm totally prepared for him to be with someone and all that. Really, this was such a long time ago.. and, oddly enough other people were never an issue with us. Soon after he left me, I heard he was dating another girl and it didn't bother me even though I was still in love with him. Maybe it's because this relationship was never *consumated*, does sex in the mix bring the jealousy? Because I've definitely felt jealousy with other people.
Anyways, thanks again. IP: Logged |
Aphrodite
Knowflake Posts: 4273
From:
Registered: Feb 2002
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posted September 25, 2005 02:22 PM
Aww, cute. I would go get a fresh new haircut, some color highlights if you can afford it, and wear something that shows off your best asset, but doesn't look trampy. I wouldn't get tipsy, only because I would want to be alert and check him out and soak up as much as I can . . . Relax with some good music before hand, and chat with a friend on the phone for a little bit to get you laughing and in a friendly mood . . .Then go, being open and friendly, alluring and attractive . . . Good luck I love reading old romance stories. P.S. Stash some protection in your purse too!  Just be careful, because you never know . . . IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
Moderator Posts: 1808
From: Ontario Canada
Registered: Jun 2005
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posted September 25, 2005 08:49 PM
Smart!
Oh, GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You know you want to.. even just for curiosity's sake.
Go have fun at a party with an old friend and try not to build it up in your head too much beforehand. And if you do, play it cool.
But yeah, bring protection. 
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Mystic Gemini
Knowflake Posts: 926
From: New York City
Registered: Jul 2005
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posted September 27, 2005 04:12 PM
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Gemini sun, Cancer rising, mercury in Gemini, moon in Taurus *29, venus in Taurus, mars in Libra *´¨)
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(¸.·´ (¸.·´ * Lost in the peace of serenity
Blind my eyes I cannot see
Lost my soul but found my heart
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LeoStrength
Knowflake Posts: 17
From: United Kingdom
Registered: Aug 2005
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posted October 04, 2005 06:20 AM
I hope you had a great time whiterabbit??
Please come and let us know xx
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whiterabbit
Knowflake Posts: 875
From: Never, Never, Never Land
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted October 04, 2005 09:16 PM
baah.. it wasn't so good.
I don't know.. I dragged along my best friend, wore some great jeans and a silky top..
When I first saw him I was so shocked because I wasn't expecting him (his apartment is large and I was wandering around looking for people) that I introduced myself to him..  and then pointed out "and you are so-and-so".. Oh boy. But he's an Aquarius like me.. guess he just went along with it and thought "yup, still crazy after all these years" (like the Paul Simon song). He tried to talk to me later on but I gave him one word answers, and watched him talk while smoking and just nodding. There was a girl there that I assume he is seeing, I still don't know. I ended up running away to the roof with his roomate (get your mind out of the gutter, we just talked). His roomate was pretty keen on "seeing" me again but I am not interested in him at all.
And then I ran away from him too and went home. (without saying goodbye to any of them). So- what do you call that- "aloof" or "immature"? Or both?
Oh, he happens to live right next door to a bar I frequent. And this is a big city.
P.S. the "baaah" at the beginning is not meant to be the sound a sheep makes but more like an exasperated noise.
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BlueTopaz124
Knowflake Posts: 382
From: Portland, OR
Registered: Jan 2004
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posted October 05, 2005 12:47 AM
I too was wondering how this went. I would have left the same way, feeling not sure about what to do about any of them...kind of twilight zone-ykisses!
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