posted October 06, 2005 08:14 PM         

Anyways........I have been married now for 3 years to a man 15 years older than I, and it's deffinently not working out. Strange that i'm a gem and he's an aqua. He just refuses to open up to me, he refuses to let go and just sound sappy Oh dear........ Anyways, Lately (last couple of months) I have been feeling like there is something els out there for me.....like the one meant for me is coming, but I have been just putting off the divorce like crazy....I don't make that much money, I have a daughter with my hus, I got hit by a car....anything and everything.

What do you do? Deal with the pain of breakup when nothing could be out there, or do you stay where you are cause you know you are loved even if the guy can't open up? It's hard being in the situation.

posted October 06, 2005 09:38 PM         

then you know, you must follow your heart.
you are being guided

I stayed married for 10 horrible years
out of Fear

Realize
when you decide
and are faithful

You'll be about
TO COME ALIVE

Love and Light to ALL

posted October 07, 2005 06:21 AM         

The question is; Do YOU love HIM ?

If the answer is yes, then stop thinking about yourself.

posted October 07, 2005 08:44 AM         

I agree....love is of the essence......living a lie isnt gonna help anyone.....find courage and if love isnt there be honest with yourself and him. It is very liberating to be truthful.

I walked away twice....and now I am thrice time lucky!!!

posted October 07, 2005 12:29 PM         

There will always be apart of me that loves him no matter what, but it has changed from LOVE to freindship love. He's a good guy, but after we got married he changed to be very controling, and I don't deal with that very well. We have done nothing but fight for the last year.

So, lastnight I asked for a divorce, but we have decided to be freinds So it will be good for our daughter too

Thank you again, lol, I needed that.