posted November 20, 2005 12:52 PM         

we met in hs. our junior year. lots of flirting, LOTS...but we'd just end up going out with other people. it's like there was something we were afraid of in each other--maybe intuitively we are aware of the fire/water thing.

after hs, we didn't see eachother. even though we moved to the same place! BUT he showed up when i was 25, and basically said he wanted me with him. i turned him down because i was dating my current husband and felt that i should stick with him. he's an earth sign and very stable. the fish was about to embark on getting his boat captain's liscence and wanted me to come with hiim to the Florida Keys. i just couldnt see leaving a stable thing. after all, fish man had been sort of wishy washy in the past...

then, i got fish man in my head one day while folding laundry in august--a full ten years after i saw him or spoke to him last. and...he isnt getting out of my head. i contacted him and found out he lived closeby (for now), but that he travels with the yacht he is the mate on.

there's lots of flirting. no sex. lots of chemistry, but neither wants to cross that line while i am married. ya know? its not THAT important to the way things are rightnow.

it's just so funny that we can be so completely comfortable with others, but not with each other. there is a lot of attraction and mutual respect and we have great conversations and when we see each other, we both light up...

but, when things get a little 'closer'. he swims away. for instance, he swam to ecuador a few weeks ago to hang out with a sort-of girlfriend (also married). and next week, he's headed off to canada to meet up with a girl he dated last summer in florida--even though he says there is no chemistry there. obviously, that is very hard on my ego, but it's his perogative...

posted November 20, 2005 03:37 PM         

Thanks for posting this.....I love the way you write, so open and sincere. I found your story intriguing..........

Do you think you will ever get it together with him and what does your hubbie think of all this? Did you ever seek the help of a medium or tarot reader....there are very good people here who offer readings......sorry girl am I egging you on...I am quite a myself at times, in my head I mean.....I am a Scorpio married to a Virgo man too...much younger.....

Speak later

love

posted November 20, 2005 05:14 PM         

i think he's just insecure. he's more secure chasing women he can't have than finding one he can. it's easier for him. besides, what do i have to offer him? what would he be in it for?

there's something in us/between us that is powerful, but maybe its scary powerful for him. we keep joking that this is the longest unfulfilled crush in history. 3 kisses in 20 years! lol!!

yeah, i'd love a reading from someone. I didnt know anyone here did that! I have my theories. I sort of think we were together in a past life, or will be in the future. maybe now we are just learning different lessons that will help our union later.

the husband doesnt really know. i have told him in the past that if he couldnt fulfill the emotional needs i have, that i will get a boyfriend for that. the sex is still really super good with hubby after 9 years of marriage...it's just that i need words, i need passion, and someone who understands me for me. my daughter has met the fish man on one occasion and LOVED him. and he loved her. he said she was just like me- specifically that he can read her face just like mine. He said he can tell what is going on inside. that was cool, but lead me to realize how transparent I am. i forget too, that these fish are psychic. He probably knows all the answers to this mystery already.

posted November 20, 2005 05:51 PM         

I've been studying tarot for over 2 years and am a collector of decks--both tarot and angel. My friends tell me I'm very, very good...but then again, I KNOW my friends's lives inside and out so it's hard to know if I'm really intuiting the situations or THEM. That said, the teachers I've had have all told me right off the bat that I've got "the gift" and one well respected medium here where I live told me that I was "steppinging into the master teacher role" and would be doing this kind of work for a living one day. I've always been intuitive--even as a child--but as this medium said herself, I never really knew what to do with it, and as it's been developing/evolving/strengthing over the past few years I've been alternately nervous about sharing it ("won't people think I'm nuts" syndrome :smile and really excited about embracing it.

But...although I opened a "virtual office" on one of the psychic websites last summer, I never once made myself available for clients--I just never felt ready--and so I just closed that "office" yesterday. That said, it's really funny I'm reading this thread today because even as I was closing the office, the thought occurred to me to offer to do some readings for some folks here--free of charge of course--just to see if I can get my 'psychic legs', if you will, under me and gain a little more confidence.

I can't make any promises, and again, I admit, though I've been intuitive all my life, and have lots of actual tools (decks/pendulums etc) at the ready...I'd be completely arrogant to view myself as anything other than a beginner at most.

Still, if you're interested, I'm happy to give it a go for you.

In fact, I think I'll recopy this portion of this reply into a new thread, making the offer to others as well.

Love and Light-
2phish

PS. For whatever it's worth, I know a thing or two about Pisces as well. The "2phish" in my screen name stands for 2 fish...as in Pisces! I've got my sun, mercury, venus, saturn and chiron all in the sign of the fishes and was even born unto a (terribly complicated!) fish mother to boot. What's more, I not only married (and am in the process of divorcing) a Leo, my sister, an ex and at least very close friend are all lions as well. Sooo...I've got a pretty strong pisces/leo connection in my own life. Hey, who knows...maybe you and I were destined to meet here and help each other figure out that interesting fish/lion dynamic!!