posted January 10, 2006 03:25 AM         

NOW PLAYING

If you say you love him, then you’ve got to accept him the way he is. And not try to change him or manipulate him or check on his comings and goings.

You have to accept him just the way he is.
And, of course, make him as miserable as possible in the process.

That’s what love is.
If you think you love her, then you have to know that at the bottom of it all, she doesn’t want you running around with anyone else on any level.

So you can either make her think you are happy and not run around

or run around and risk getting caught.

Think you’re not into it? Too evolved or too old or too married?

Well look at it objectively.

If there is someone you feel totally lousy and wonderful about at the same time,

are furious with and worship at the same time,

are hoping will call and praying won’t at the same time,

and if you answer yes to any of those questions,

you may be dangerously close to a horrible condition we call
being in love.
We recommend against it.
We view it with disdain.
But somehow we understand.
This is the story of any couple.

It’s my story.

Your story.

Everybody’s story.

Married, single, widowed, or acquitted, straight or gay

or if you’ve just gone ahead and had the operation–it doesn’t matter.

This is your story.
It’s a tale of Saturn in Leo and Chiron in Aquarius,

but it’s not just about Leos and Aquarians.

Everyone is going through it on one level or another.

Maybe be in business or with your kids or a commitment to a career.
But if we were to ask for volunteers from the audience right now,

we’d get a run on the stage.
Both parties are playing a game.

They both want their cake and eat it, too.

Two control freaks falling in love.
But is it fair to say they are control freaks?

Just because they have been hurt or dumped or dissed or shat on enough times

not to want to let it happen again?
It’s kind of a sad story, though.

Neither one willing or able to compromise.

Neither one willing or able to give in.
So much rationalization and defense.

Underneath it all, you want your way.
But you don’t you insist.
You just want him to admit that he loves you.
But he does love you.
You already know that.
You don’t want him merely to admit he loves you.

You want his saying that to make him want to change

and to conform to what you want him to be.
That is not going to happen.
You want her to allow you to run around

and do as you please and not say a word.

That is not going to happen.
Who wants to play the man this time?
Who wants to be the woman?
Not as easy to define as you’d think.

Sperm meets egg. Two become one.

The power of two in union.

In theory, great.

In practice, difficult.
Giving somebody what they want and need

when it is inconvenient or even painful to you–

that’s when it’s difficult.

Or if it threatens you and makes you insecure

to accept their point of view.

That’s another tough one.

Leaning to listen, really listen

and not just hear what you want to hear.
Maybe you’re too intense.

And obsessed even.

But that’s not true.

It’s just that when you recognize a soul mate

you don’t have to be psychic.

Whatever it is, when that mist comes over you,

and it is a mist,

you have to give into it.

When two people fall in love,

a spiritual mist, a protective, heavenly something wraps around them.

When one sees it and the other one doesn’t,

the other one gets scared and runs away.

Thinks you’re stalking/ Or nuts.
So you try to be patient.

After a while, however,

if the other person doesn’t return your feelings the way you think he or she should,

you go into your cave and sulk.

Once you let go,

by the time it dawns on that other person

that he or she loves you,

you’ve already scraped the plates and washed the dishes.

So when they come sniffing around like a dog,

you can say, “Ok Pal, you couldn’t take the pleasure I wanted to give you.

So then, how about
SOME PAIN????"

That’s when the fun begins.

That’s the dark side of Saturn in Leo.

Is that vindictive?

Is that cruel?
Lucky are you if someone is just as in love with you

as you are with them, so don’t blow it.

Don’t blow it by being so compulsive you eat them up.

And don’t be afraid of the hurt that may follow.

Running away and pretending it’s not happening at all

doesn't work either .

Eventually there will be hurt, and rejection.
Deep love comes after only a long, long time.

There are spats, disagreements,

clawing and scratching,

wounds, battles, retaliations, and rejection.

At times you will feel as rejected as a transplanted kidney.
The trick, if there is one,

is to appreciate people when they are there,

and not just when they are absent.

But to appreciate them even when they ARE absent.

To be able to feel close to them

even when there is no romance,

but when you can truly share

a heart connection,

that sometimes has nothing to do with passion or sex.
A heart connection transcends ego.

When Saturn is in Leo, however, a heart connection is tested severely,

mainly because EGO is involved.

Both people are proud and sensitive and extremely vulnerable to hurt,

no matter how much bravado

or how many courageous defenses they put up.

Heart connections survive these games of egotism and defense,

but often only in the long term.

So if you’re able to be there for the long haul

and quell your own ego needs

for validation, admiration and stroking,

you’ll develop that heart connection

that will never betray or hurt you,

even if the people involved do.

On the contrary it’s what makes real love eternal.

That doesn’t mean you don’t need to protect yourself

and be aware of the games some people play

with other people’s feelings,

because you do.

That, of course, is the enigma of Saturn in Leo.
Not WHEN to love,

because the Universe decides that

by throwing people into your path,

but HOW to love without fear.

posted January 10, 2006 10:17 AM         

I FOUND ME!
Then I FOUND HIM!

But I had to find me first

posted January 11, 2006 09:29 AM         

Fayte, you lucky Lady you.
Yeah, that's exactly how it should be.