posted May 04, 2006 08:02 PM
Thanks for replying bop.It's interesting, as he's not the type I'm usually attracted to.
Usually the guys are younger than me, but lately, I've notice that the older guys aren't so hard to look at, any more, actually, they were kinda scary (some still are). lol
We talked for a few minutes, and he asked for my number, he called the next day (yesterday), while he was talking, he made a comment of, 'if I were right there, he'd give me a peck on the lips'.
Well, at that point, I get this very distinct impression, that if I got close enough, for him to get his hands of me, he'd be kissed, hugged, run his hands all over me, while snatching off my clothes, and had his way with me, before i could even catch a breath.
Almost like watching it, and being caught up in it.
Like Whoa!
Feeling as though, i'd already been ravished.
I think I even took a step back, like being hit by a wave of water.
the impression, brought an, 'Oh no!'{as it did embarrass me at that moment} to my lips, and he wanted to know if i'd not hug him.
{it wasn't that I wouldn't consider it, just the reaction to the powerful vision/impression, that had brought the 'Oh no', to be voiced.}
I told him I didn't know, he wanted to know why.
My answer, "I guess I'm a little gun shy".
As, I really don't know this man, and trying to explain picking up on vibrations, would take more than just a phone call.
He was cranking his big truck, to go back to work, and me, not being much of a phone person anyway, i figured he needed to go (I was nervous as all get out, like I could jump right out of my skin, but not in a yucky feeling type of way, or that i had just jumped back in it...), so I hurry off the phone, as i'm one of those who'd never consider talking on the phone while driving a car (unless I had a head set, but since i don't care for a phone, I haven't got one).
Twice, right after we talked, I picked the phone up, and considered ringing him, and have him call me back, but changed my mind both times.
{I do worry that I've hurt his feelings, and seemed almost discouraging, but I didn't mean to come off that way, it was the overwhelming vibration, and my being totally nervous}
Then, today, my sister mentioned returning his call, and the third time I looked at the phone, someone had erased all the numbers [which is not a common occurance around this house, that phone might hold 30/40 numbers, before anyone thinks to start deleting them] 
He hasn't called back, and i wonder if I've hurt his feelings, as he wanted me to come to the store to meet him (for what, I'm not sure, but as for the impression I got, I'm not ready for that, even though it may be tempting), and I told him the price of gas was to expensive to drive back down to the store (well, it is!).
So, I didn't go, and he hasn't called back, I hope I haven't hurt his feelings, and I feel like a silly little girl. 
I figure, if he comes back, he comes back, but if not, oh well...
i wouldn't mind if he shows back up, I'm just not sure if I can handle such a rush, without some type of 'getting to know each other kinda foundation'.
*<And after reading this, I sound like a pisces female talking about an aries male, don't I?>*
