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Topic: deeper friendship with an aqua guy
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GrlyGirl20
Knowflake Posts: 4
From: Birmingham, Al, USA
Registered: Aug 2006
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posted September 03, 2006 11:33 AM
 
Hey how are you guys? I would love some info on aqua guys. He and I have been friends for about a year but in that year there have been alot of ups and downs. I am in love with him but for some reason I have never been able to show him, I push him away (I blame my venus in the 11th house). We had become better friends and had been talking over school break but when we got back I had started to feel unappriected because he never tries to iniciate anything with me as far as hanging out. I sent him an email saying that I felt that I was being needy and that I did in fact still have feelings for him and that it sucks he won't hang out with me or that I feel like something is wrong with me. I basically said that I care about him unconditionally and that I am trying to get to know him but each time I try I get rebuffed. He then replied with that there is nothing wrong with me, and that he did not return my feelings (which I wonder if he actually does...I told him so many times that I did not like him when I did). And that he is sorry that he kept me at arms length and that the reason he doesn't express emotions is because he had a tough freshmen year that changed him. He said that he values our friendship and that the reason he kept me distant was because he did not want me to think he was playing games when he had no interest. The email never once said he was sorry or anything. I replied in another email saying I felt bad for what he went through freshmen year, but that is no excuse to keep anyone far away. I also said that I was done with contacting him that if he wanted us to be friends then the ball is in his court. We have since hung out but I find that his just friends stance is hard...the way he talks at least online is as if there is more...It kinda seems that he uses the whole concept of friendship to pretend that there is nothing more. We recently talked online and I had said that he was great for being patient with me...and he had said that he would be that way for as long as I want him to be. Also his emails have a tendency to be flirty. I just am not confused I want to take what he says at face value but I don't know...please help? I just don't know why he is so hesitant to get closer even as friends. Thanks.
My placements
Cancer Asc
Sun Can 1st house
Moon Cap 7th house
Mer Leo 2nd house
Ven Tau 11th house
Mars Can 1st house
Jup Aqua 8th house
Sat Sco 5th house
Pluto Sco 5th house
Nep Cap 6th house
Uran Sag 6th house His Placements
Pisces asc
Sun Aqua 12th house
Moon Sag 10th house
Mer Aqua 12 house
Ven Aries 1st house
Mars Aries 1st house
Jup Aqua 11th house
Uran Sag 9th house
Nep Cap 10th house
Sat Sco 8th house
Plu Scor 8th house
I should tell you his venus and mars in Aries in 1st house are intercepted in his 3rd and 9th house of Gemini.
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GrlyGirl20
Knowflake Posts: 4
From: Birmingham, Al, USA
Registered: Aug 2006
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posted September 03, 2006 11:35 AM
I had to add this because I want to be honest. I want to keep the friendship but it is hard just because I happen to care, but it seems he won't open up to me...and I can't figure out why. I have to admit that I have not really been an innoncent player in this as well. I told him last year that I did like him and he said he wasn't interested, however I told him while I had a boyfriend. And aqua guy saw that I did not treat the boyfriend the best. Not to mention he see's that I have a tendency to like a new guy all the time or be interested in a new guy, I say around him that other guys are attractive, and I in fact have even gone as far as to say he has to meet someone and that I'll fix him up with people I know. I have also ignored him, blocked him on aim and I have been pretty mean to him. In short I have played major games. And I admit this...I don't want to get hurt or anything. I have been in love with him for a while but I don't want him to think I am so I treat him the opposite of how I feel and tell him I feel nothing. In fact this past email where I said how I feel when I see him I act as if nothing happned. I know he is sensitive but I don't get why he takes my crap. Or why he again is so hard to get to emotionally as friends. He does say that he holds me high in regard because of my intellect...but I just don't get him and I want to.
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