posted October 12, 2006 07:12 PM         

Its hard though because I REALLY don't like ultimatums and I'm guessing he won't either, so I've got to approach this in a rational manner and stay away from the threats and ultimatums.

Its our 9 month 'anniversary' tomorrow. Thats a long time to be messing each other around. He almost lost me a few weeks ago, I think it may've scared him a bit. I need to talk to him about what happened too, not looking forward to that!

He says and does things sometimes that lead me to believe he thinks I'm only with him when I can't find anyone else. Thats not true and recent events should prove that to him once and for all. He needs the confidence boost, I just hope he doesn't get annoyed and angry about it. I'm still annoyed with myself although I did nothing wrong.

I'll see him tonight. We need to talk. I haven't slept with him in over 2 months so he can wait a while longer. Thats the other thing that gets me- if he was only interested in sex why the hell would he ring me nearly every weekend for the past 9 weeks, knowing I wasn't in town and knowing he wouldn't get any 'action'. He's never been comfortable with the whole 'friends with benefits' thing. I need to know whats going on in his pretty little head.

posted October 15, 2006 07:22 PM         

Watched a movie w my best friend who lives next door to him and stayed there the night. My car was out the front so he would've known I was there, kinda thought he'd call me.

Late in the evening we hear his Mum and sister come home. They'd run into people and were quite 'merry'. Lol. We laughed at them cos they were so funny mucking around out in the street like little kids.

Thought I heard pisces-boy and his mates come home but I wasn't gonna text him with his mum right there, I'm kinda scared of her actually. All of a sudden the music blares, just the line "I just wanna say, that I miss you" then it was turned down again. Thats one of my favourite songs, its been in my head ever since. Didn't think about it at the time but its an interesting coincidence that one line in the middle of the song was blasted out.

Saw his sister the next day, she apologised to my best friend about the noise and we laughed with her about it cos we were awake anyway. She said we shoulda just come over for a drink. Now that would've been interesting.