posted October 20, 2006 07:27 PM         

XO,

posted October 20, 2006 09:33 PM         

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"WHATEVER the soul longs for, WILL be attained by the spirit"

"Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation"

posted October 20, 2006 11:37 PM         

I had a strange encounter last night with the cancer-guy I thought was out of the picture. He rang me up at about 9.30 and we had a chat, said he'd tried calling at about 6 but I didn't pick up (dial-up internet, lol I think I was here).
Anyway, he wanted to know what I was doing and wondered if he could come over and have a drink and watch a movie or something. I was kinda in shock and said sure, not really know what to expect.
Didn't know if he'd even show up cos he had to borrow his mum's car to come over (its 50kms) but he did.
I sent a text to my best mate saying he was coming over cos I was so surprised and she said he probably just wanted to get laid. I told her that definately wasn't gonna happen.
He came over and we talked for a while, watched a dvd, talked some more (mainly him complaining about his family) and watched really bad late night tv. The whole time he sat on the other side of the room. We had maybe 2 drinks each this whole time. I checked my watch and saw it was 3am and nearly died, sure enough we both fell asleep where we were sitting.
I woke up and woke him up and we climbed into my bed clothed and fell asleep straight away not even touching. It seemed kinda weird behaviour for someone who was supposedly looking for action.
Just before dawn he cuddled up to me in a non sexual way and we cuddled for ages and kissed too, nothing more. He didn't try anything else thankfully cos I woulda had to put the brakes on if he did. We dozed off and on and cuddled pretty much contantly until my phone rang and I realised I was running late.
We didn't really say anything to one another, just seeya when he left. My friend came over just as he was leaving so she got to check him out, lol.

posted October 20, 2006 11:58 PM         

Fortunately although he is frugal, he really appreciates the things that I do. He buy all his clothes at thrifts, but spends gobbs on good food, books and music. My kind of fella.
We had a really great time. He did the funniest thing and I don't really know what it means, but I feel it was significant. As you all know, we decided to to the kitsch thing and go bowling. I love to bowl but I am really bad at it. I mean really bad. He isn;t great, but better than I. We bowled two games and all the while he cheered me on even though I was terrible and then he said "Maybe it would help if you had a pink ball." I'm a girly girl and he knows this. We bowled more and than he said the same thing again. Finally just before our third game he said to me in a very serious and authoritative tone " I think we need to find you a pink ball." It wasn't bossy or crabby, just authoritative. Like in that fatherly save the day "dear, let's got get you an ice cream cone" way. He walked up and down the alley and looked at avery pink ball to try and find one that would suite me. It was precious, but I can;t understand why. It was a bowling ball, but it seemed very important to him. ??? I really liked it though. I felt very looked after.

OzMeg222,
I think you are wise to wait it out and see where everyone is in the situation. You seem to be on the right track.

posted October 21, 2006 09:50 AM         

that was really nice of your cancerian guy...to insist on finding u a pick ball i think he wanted to say something more lovey-dovey but got a little tongue-tied and just kept talking abt the pink ball

well my cancerian is a little hard to fathom sometimes....with his scorp asc. and then there is his mask thing....tho it falls off quite often these days...

yeah, lets see how it goes today....i dont knw if he gets it tht this is a 'date' cancerian style...coz i am cooking stuff tht he likes altho i might call over some friends later

posted October 22, 2006 06:16 AM         

Aaaahhhh that is sweet.....

Good luck with this.....

posted October 22, 2006 03:31 PM         

"I am reverting to the third grade. If it were February, this would be a valentine.
I appreciate your being candid about your feelings for me. It was brave and very sweet. Thank you.
You said you were not very good at these things. If it is any comfort to you, neither am I. I’m stellar in relationships but it seems that in the getting there I have two left feet. I also know better than to talk about serious or important matters when I am tired. I tend to ramble and I fear that is exactly what I did last night.
In certain circumstances I have found that if I write it all down I can make the point I had intended all along. What I wanted to convey is that I can understand your reservation about our being neighbors. I have given this situation some careful consideration as well. Despite possibly giving you the impression last night that I jump into matters of the heart headfirst, I’ve never been one to play fast and loose with my emotions or anyone else’s for that matter. However, I don’t often meet a man like you and I decided you were worth the risk. Your friendship is very important to me and I think that regardless of whether you can take that risk as well, we will be just fine. I hope that among the things you have learned about me in recent months, not the least of them is that I would never be spiteful or unkind, I am sensible, sincere and reasonably refined, with the possible exception of my bowling alley behavior, incurable curiosity and frequent giggling. In short, my perspective is that I would rather risk a few awkward moments in the unlikely eventuality that “things didn’t work out” than deny something that intuitively seems appropriate and right.
I suppose that is all I really needed to say. You let me know your thoughts and if it helps to write it down go right ahead. Have a lovely day."

I will keep you all posted.

posted October 22, 2006 05:59 PM         

I wish I could be that open and candid. I'm exactly the same, I'm good at relationships but I have no idea how I end up in them because the getting it together stage is so way beyond me!
I guess thats why I've ended up with pushy, dominating men in the past becasue they didn't mind doing all the chasing and were so arrogant it probably never occured to them I was interested. Lol

posted October 22, 2006 09:01 PM         

i wish i was as brave as u...

to update, today we talked for 2 hours on the phone....somehow i started to tell him stories from my past. he really wanted to know more. in return he told me a few stories of his own, but still just funny ones.

but i think tht today we were not talking as friends. we were talking abt relationships. he was not verryyy open....just got some hints as to how he feels. i am not sure whr it is heading, towards heartbreak or towards a relnship, but we r getting somewhere.

I think i need a lot of more talking like this before we can get to the heart of things. i am very scared, at the same time i want to go on and see whr it leads us.

i dont think thr r going to be any 'dates' for us....either we decide to get involved, or we part ways.

right now feeling very scared,

posted October 23, 2006 12:18 AM         

Don't be scared. Just trust. No matter what happens it is the right thing. If you two don't get together, jsut imagine the wonderful new love that will be waiting for you jsut around the corner. My mother always told me that everything happens exactly how it is intended, when it is intended. The older I get the more I recognize that she is right. Just remember what a womderful woman you are and he should be honored to have you. If he doesn't see that, perhaps he is a fool.

posted October 23, 2006 12:35 AM         

Well, he is a complex person. A person with layers. After a lot of thinking, I realized tht i did penetrate to a deeper level today. So not feeling as scared right now. Rest is in God's hands.

Don't know why I find myself telling him all abt my beliefs, my experiences, my ideas, how i became the way I am.

posted October 25, 2006 10:35 PM         

I'm climbing out from under my rock momentarily. I am glad to see someone is at least having some luck with their Cancer Male. I wish you the best with yours

going back under for a bit more...