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Topic: How Rude!!!
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OzMeg222
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Registered: Jul 2006
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posted October 26, 2006 11:54 PM
 
That certain pisces-boy I've finally decided to cut from my life has hit an all time low.
Not only has he deleted my number from his phone for the 6millionth time (not surprised), but all week he's been texting my best friend's sister at one am to get my number.The incredibly ignorant bit is the fact that she is in hospital with an infection after giving birth saturday to her baby 7 weeks early. He probably doesn't know that though. I kinda thought he'd just forgotten all about me and was a bit annoyed because I wanted closure but now I don't even care about closure. I was so annoyed when I heard that and my friend in hospital is seriously ****** off with him, luckily my friends have closed ranks and nobody's giving him my number. I did wonder how I'd feel if he did contact me again and now I know. I've put him in the past and if he does contact me I'll tell him simply he wouldn't give me what I wanted so I've moved on with my life. He doesn't need to know about cancer-guy, just that I've had enough.
What did he expect anyway?
Did he think I was gonna keep sitting around waiting for him to bless me with his presence? Heck I was the one blessing HIM with my time and affection. Is everyone proud of me??? IP: Logged |
InLoveWithLife
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Registered: Aug 2006
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posted October 27, 2006 12:03 AM
yes we are ! tht was incredibly spunky of u !!  ILWL
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OzMeg222
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posted October 27, 2006 12:21 AM
And you have no idea how good it feels to be free! It was only me holding myself back but now I've firmly made the decision to never go there again, and the decisions been kinda tested I feel a weight has been lifted.IP: Logged |
darkdreamer
Knowflake Posts: 158
From: Germany
Registered: Aug 2006
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posted October 27, 2006 09:42 AM
I am proud of you, yes.I think it`s good you moved on, especially with this behaviour of him; just confirms you did the right thing.
DD
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OzMeg222
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posted November 07, 2006 03:24 AM
It sucks though cos I can't get him out of my head. I tried, kinda half moved on but then I saw him and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
I'm still in love with him.
It kills me cos I know I have to stay away cos we simply aren't good for one another. We treat each other badly (I'm worse if truth be told) but I've never felt for anyone how I feel for him.
And now I'm realising he probably feels the same, possibly always has. Its too late though we've been too awful to one another and I need to stay away although its killing me.IP: Logged |
sue g
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From: former land of the leprechaun
Registered: Sep 2004
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posted November 07, 2006 08:26 AM
Oh poor you Oz!!!I can feel you girl....sending big (((((((hugs))))))) Just keep talking about it...very helpful to share isnt it...?  xxxx IP: Logged |
OzMeg222
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posted November 07, 2006 05:27 PM
Thanks Sue! Yeah it helps just to talk about it all, even if most of the time I seem to change my mind every two minutes. Its not that I do, its just the internal struggle I'm experiencing trying to get pisces-boy out of my head and my heart.
Just when I think I'm over him I see him out of the blue and I'm gone all over again, even when we don't talk.
Stupid thing is I know he feels it too but we're just not good for each other, we're way too similar and both need stronger partners.
I miss him so much. Sucks.IP: Logged |
darkdreamer
Knowflake Posts: 158
From: Germany
Registered: Aug 2006
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posted November 08, 2006 02:51 AM
Oh, Oz, you have my sympathy!
I know where you`re coming from. There has been one guy in my life, I have been madly in love with. It didn`t work out; but even though it`s been 16 years ago, everytine I saw him or heard about him, it feels as if it`s all gonna start again. *sighs*
It`s just now, 16 years and 6 months later that I can say: "I`m over him." (and ignoring that little voice inside my mind: You`ll never be over him. lol)
It`s not easy to understand for other people I think; but in my case I`m not so s ure, it`s really love.
Maybe it was just an addiction, an unhealthy obsession, and I got fixated on the idea that we are supposed to be together.
No, I don`t think it`s love.
But if you say, it`s really love, you feel for Pisces - boy, well, I`m sorry for you.
BTW what is with the cancer guy?There`s a Meatloaf-song that reminds me a lot of those feelings I had for that guy: "I still dream of you wakin' up openin' your eyes
Like a little girl I once knew walkin' to the window
Lookin' down on the street
You walk with me and I walk with you Well I thought it all over it doesn't make any sense
Why did it fall apart when it seemed so innocent?
You and I were like a light from a fallen star
You can't go back you can't run away from your heart Don't you look at me like that
`Cause I fall all over again
And I just can't hold on to your love anymore
Don't you look at me like that
`Cause I start all over again
And it just can't be like it was once before Don't stand there in the rain
Lookin' like some long lost angel?
You and I were like a light from a fallen star
You can't go back you can't run away from your heart
Don't stand there in the rain
Lookin' like some long lost angel Don't you look at me like that
`Cause I fall all over again
And I just can't hold on to your love anymore
Don't you look at me like that
`Cause I start all over again
And it just can't be like it was once before" DD IP: Logged |
OzMeg222
Knowflake Posts: 308
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Registered: Jul 2006
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posted November 08, 2006 10:29 PM
Well things would have to change if pisces-boy and I ever got it together. Theres no way I'd ever go back to how it was, we were so not nice to one another. Its mostly my fault though, I made the rules then changed them then changed them again. No wonder the only time he was brave enough to call me was when he was drunk. Poor guy probably didn't know what I was gonna do next.So I'm staying away. As for cancer-guy I haven't seen or heard from him. Doesn't really bother me surprisingly, I'm over forcing this kind of stuff. It wouldn't really be fair of me to start something with him anyway when I'm not over pisces-boy. So I'm staying away from him too! IP: Logged |
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