posted November 12, 2006 06:11 PM            

Saw cancer-guy sat night at a friends place and we talked heaps, he is seriously the best person I've ever met. Pisces-boy kept texting me but I was kinda giving him the brush off I was having too good a time with my friends. Thought it was such a pity cancer-guy wasn't interested cos I still haven't heard from him but I think he'd make a fantastic friend anyway.

Cancer-guy and his mate left and pisces-boy was still texting me so I went next door to have a drink with him and talk. Knew he'd just keep annoying me if I didn't tell him to stop. Made it clear he shouldn't expect anything before I went tho. We sat and watched tv, talked heaps and had a bit of a cuddle on the couch. He was doing and saying everything I'd ever wanted him to but it seemed hollow somehow although I know he was sincere. He even said he really wanted to start seeing me more often. He kept getting texts from another girl and I felt a bit strange about that but when I said I'd had another friend too he got really upset and angry (not at me just in general).
I went to leave after a while and he asked me to call him. I told him it'd been going on too long and I'd had enough. Asked him not to call me again and left. The spark has truly gone there its sad really.

Got back to my friends place and my best mates husband said cancer-guy had came back to drop something off and the first thing he asked was where I was. He told cancer-guy I'd gone to bed, couldn't believe he lied. Told him about what happened with pisces-boy. He says that cancer-guy asks about me all the time, wonders what I'm doing. Also said he's shy with girls and hes only seen him like he is about me with one other girl and that was his ex (in the beginning). Reckons he's a complete gentleman, I agreed totally with that. I said I was kinda cut I hadn't heard from him and apparently he's been so busy. He's had funerals to go to and aswell as his job he's been working on other stuff. He reckons cancer-guy will get up at 5 to work at home before he has to go to his regular job then comes home and works again. Not all the time, just when he has stuff to do. No reason he couldn't have called really, but he also has issues from his ex. She was such psycho he's still getting over it. I mean that she even physically attacked his old boss and used to hit him all the time.

Glad I got closure with pisces-boy I truly needed it. I believe its the mercury retro that made me revisit my feelings there, only for me to think about it and shut the book properly after talking to him.

Don't know if cancer-guy and I will get anywhere. We kinda have a date in february though, lol. I was talking about going to a concert with a girlfriend and he seemed keen so I said he should come and he wants to, got me to check my phone calander to make sure it was a saturday.

posted November 12, 2006 07:31 PM            

As for the cancer, its up to him actually. I don't wanna push to see or talk to him if he's not ready. If its gonna happen it will.

posted November 13, 2006 10:35 AM              

However, Oz, I`m glad you had that closure. I think it`s a good thing, so now you can really move on.
I will look at your midpoints, when I have a bit more time.

DD

posted November 14, 2006 10:22 AM            

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Jan_A is clearly actively following the thread(s)storyline... as am I... I think because alot of us have dealt with this type of guy- shy, off/on, reappearing, (i.e. a Piscean type!), so many can relate.

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posted November 14, 2006 11:17 AM              

The positivity and the negativity are as important as each other.

Especially in matters of the heart.

You should be respectful but indifferent to them both if you are to glean all possible wisdom from a situation.

Being rude however is another matter entirely and can damage one's message.

posted November 14, 2006 12:35 PM              

Its not what you say its the way that you say it

Eloquence at all times hey?

posted November 14, 2006 01:41 PM            

Peace out every one....stay up Ozzy (can I call you that, BTW?:d)

posted November 16, 2006 03:15 AM            

General gist was- thanks all for your input, nobody offended me and everyone is right about my dramas in there own way (of course I didn't know pisces-boy was texting anotehr girl until just before I walked outta there Jan_A and we weren't kissing we were just sitting on the couch cuddled up watching tv)

I know I sound whiny and childish and as if I stress about it far too much, but thats why I vent every thought here and get it off my chest cos I know my friends would tell me to get a life if I talked such crap to them. I write and its out of my head!

Closure on pisces-boy feels great! Its finally over. Cancer-guy and I are friends and I'm happy for it to stay that way, but who knows what will happen?