posted December 13, 2006 07:40 AM
i feel so lost lately like i don't even know who i am.well the cancer i've been trying so hard to figure out ...i guess it makes sense know why i never could. he's dating someone new.
does anyone want to explain this to me? i've know him for five months. the first three months i basically lived with him we saw eachother so much. and in this time he's felt heart broken because of his ex[ which made me scared and coy to tell him what was on my mind]. it looked like things were progressing and then the stopped. and it was as if we had taken four steps back. and then something happened that it shouldn't have. and i haven't heard from him or seen him in the past couple weeks. i found out that he ment an aquientence of my of mine a couple weeks ago. at that time he didn't even have her number. and now they're together[indirectly]!
i just don't understand how someone could be hurt so much and then get over it and move on with someone they hardly know. and all that time i spent trying to help him..........
i dunno. i always thought that if these two people meet they'd be very compatiable i guess i was right. basically i always imagined his ex and her having a lot in common, so i guess thats what stood out.
and i hate myself for never having done anything about these feelings. and i know this is soppose to be one of those moments you learn from ...but i've already learned that time and agian andi just thing there has to be something wrong with me that makes me a faliure at a certain type of communication.