posted April 13, 2007 08:55 AM
The pisces-boy met his girfriend on an internet dating site. She drives 3 hours each way to see him every weekend, yet lately he's been leaving her at home to go out with his mates.How do I know this?
Cos soon after after our 'dramas' (like 2 weeks) he was coming home from the pub and saw my best friend (his neighbour) sitting on the verandah waiting for her husband. He came to talk to her although he only has once before and that was with me.
He told her he didn't want to go home to his 'missus' and sat at her house with her husband til 4.30am. He did go home for a moment to get beer for them though.
I knew he had a 'checklist' about what he wanted in a girlfriend and he finally got it but it STILL doesn't make him happy. She is his first ever girlfriend, I didn't realise that. He knows he did wrong by me and feels bad, I'm glad to know he is the beautiful person I thought he was, he just did something VERY wrong by me but I guess everyone does that at some stage. At least he knows that and feels bad, he didn't even realise I felt so deeply for him.
It hurts me he's STILL not happy.
Its helped me get over a lot of the anger I had towards him, now I just feel sad for him cos even after everything I still care about him. I feel sorry for his girlfriend too, I was surprised she stayed with him after what we talked about but she obviously has self-esteem issues like me (and him).
I feel like a bigger, more mature soul now.
It did take my best friend 2 weeks to tell me about it though cos she knows as much as I claimed not to care I would. She gave him a huge serve about me and he wore it with grace.