posted May 03, 2007 03:40 AM         

I'll find some of it- extracts from books sent by a friend.

We all need to look beyond the surfaces of things. Go beyond the ego. Ask ourselves what TRUE LOVE really is. True love is God's love. It is unconditional. It is love for another person's soul. We express ourselves through physical love- being sex when in a romantic relationship with someone. But true love goes deeper than that. Sexual relationships, being 'in love' as opposed to TRUE PROFOUND LOVE- that kind of love I just mentioned- just create what is known as 'chemistry'.

We all need to work on letting go some of our ego and selfishness
We need to stop feeling the desire to control others or to be admired (vanity isn't real; this world is merely an illusion. Life will teach us. It will show us what is real).

All those other things- demons, vanity, our egos, the desire to have power- are all parasites that will take our life-force energy away from us.....if we ALLOW it too.

Wow, things are beginning to make sense- I am finding some of the answers my soul had been longing for and yearning to find.

posted May 03, 2007 03:48 AM         

Ask yourself honestly: are you looking for a steady, predictable life? Is this what you want? If so, you must realize that the world cannot offer you this. Nothing is steady. Nothing is predictable. Nothing will give you anything other than temporary security. Thoughts come and go. Relationships begin and end. Bodies are born and pass away. This is all the world can offer you: impermanence, growth, change.

Permanence cannot be found at the level of form. All form is in essence a distortion of the original formlessness of the universe. What is all inclusive, all accepting, all loving cannot be limited to form. Love does not choose its beloved or the moment of its expression. Love extends to all at all times. Love is without conditions; that it to say it is "without form".

Does this mean you cannot experience love in the world? Of course not! However, your experience of love will be diminished in direct proportion to your need to interpret or control it. Interpretation places conditions upon that which must be without conditions. When you establish conditions on love, you experience the condtions, not the love. You encounter the form, not the content.

Love expresses only through an open heart. Open heartedness is not a technique, but an emotional willingness that moves beyond the limits of conceptual definition. As each form changes, the heart opens without fear to its changing content.

To understand anything in the world, you must learn to look beyond the form to the creative intention. Tune into the intention behind someone's expression and you will see more clearly what that expression means for him. But look at the naked form alone. you will see only what it means to you.

"Looking beyond the form" is another way of saying "look beyond your own preconceptions." To see your brother as he really is, you must look beyond your own judgements of him. If you would know him you must come close to him, open your heart, and ask him what he intends. That is the only gesture that will bring you knowledge of him.

When one's intentions change, the form carries those intentions changes. If you are sensitive to your own intentions and those of others, you will be better prepared for changes in form.

Detachment from form comes from familiarity with others, not from estrangement. Distancing others does not bring detachment, but the opposite. Only when you let others into your heart do you become capable of releasing them.

Compassion and detachment go hand in hand. You cannot love someone and seek to control him. Only by wanting what is best for him do you offer your brother freedom. And id you do not offer him freedom, you do not offer him love.

~Paul Ferrini

posted May 03, 2007 05:23 PM         

(((HUGS)))

posted May 04, 2007 12:13 AM         

i remember when i saw your first post about this guy....how you felt that you would meet some day, and now you did.

if i were in your place, i think i would want to know FOR SURE. and i am not just saying it, i have done something like that. it was a very big decision. i took a huge risk. and it didn't work out. it hurt me a lot. (i moved across continents to be with the guy i loved....and he broke up with me)

BUT, it was also the best decision i ever took. my life took a turn for the better. some very unexpected things came out of it. met some wonderful people. i healed. i have changed. now i feel tht it was destined.

do what your heart tells you to. dont play mind games. tell him how you feel. tht's what i'd do.

posted May 05, 2007 01:39 AM         

it turned out to be the most rewarding thing i ever did. to tell u the truth, i knew in my heart of hearts tht it wudn't work out. but i also knew, that if i didn't do it, i would keep wondering for the rest of my life. which i was not ok with. (my sun/moon midpoint is in aries, and i can sometimes identify with arians like you, and some others. and hey, u have a cappy moon, don't you? i am a cappy sun ). I am thankful everyday that i took that step.

i am amazed at how much intuition you have. and glad to know that you are following your heart. i have a feeling things will work out in their own time for you both.