posted May 11, 2007 03:34 AM         

"Z" and I had a platonic relationship. We were very close and we spent every waking moment with each other. I could tell him anything and he could tell me anything. It was kind of peculiar how he never wanted to take that step into forging a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship with me, but I let it go because we were such amazing friends. It's not like I wanted him sexually or anything, it's just that over time I and all our friends viewed us as "a couple". It was very nice to finally have someone to share my world with. This week would of been the week that we moved in with each other. Needless to say that didn't happened.

So, what changed?

He's replaced me with a new best-friend. A 15 year old boy named "D" (sorry, I don't have his birth-time). Now, I know Z like the back of my hand. He cant hide anything from me (my moon is in his 8th house in Taurus). I began to notice that a majorty of his friends are younger-- they're all 15, 16, 17 year old guys. It's a open fact between Z and I that he is "confused" about his sexual orientation (though, the rest of us know that he is gay, he just wishes to hold on to his virginty for whatever reason). I remember at one point I was checking out pictures on his computer and noticed that a lot of the pictures on it were pics of guys........and a lot of them looked like they weren't even 18.

I put two and two together. New 15 year old "best-bud", half naked teenage boy pics, etc. That was when I realized that I had to end our relationship. In a common sense frame of mind I did it to save myself any hurt. That's just the way life works, I suppose. I've got too many amazing, great things going on in my life right now and I saw this friendship as something that had to end. I broke off the relationship on April 28th, 2007 officially. Since then our little fiasco has been a very brutal smear campaign by both people involved.

I finally got a chance to talk with him two nights ago. He confirmed that he now has a "bond" with this 15 year old. They've made out, cuddled on his waterbed, etc. Our mutual friends and I are telling him to get therapy. He refuses to listen to anybody. Since Z and I departed he's also cut out all the other friends in his life. It's crazy what could happen at just a short period of time.

Fyi, on an unspoken level I knew that this was going to happen as soon as I saw this 15 year old walk into the picture. I don't know if that justifies me cutting off our friendship, but I sure fell hell of a lot better not having him in my life anymore. Any comments or questions would be appreciated and answered. Thanks for reading this. I'm usually not someone that gets caught up in drama so this is something that definitely surprised me. I bounced back rather quickly, though and am doing just fine.

me (f):
October 1, 1985
Jacksonville, NC
5:10 AM

posted May 11, 2007 12:36 PM         

I'm working through my feelings and I've come to realize that there are just some things that are not meant to be. And, that's fine--I've got my whole life ahead of me. I'm very surprised at how well I've bounced back from such a blow. I've just thrown myself into my work, my friends, and thw wonderful way of life I left behind when I became friends with this guy.