posted May 21, 2007 02:25 PM         

Also fun: this was when Saturn was in my 7th house, and this fellow has Saturn conjunct my Sun/Chiron/descendant. Plus my moon is conjunct his Neptune, my Venus trines his Pluto, and the Venus/Mars are sextile on one end and opposite on the other.

In short, I was a total sucker for him. But I was a clingy Taurus and he was an Aquarius with depression issues, and in the end he dumped me and I acted awful about it and in the end he stopped speaking to me.

8 years later, during MY SR, and a few days ago... we both turned up in the same restaurant, one neither of us had been at before, in a town neither of us lives in. He spotted me in there and sought me out.

I thought he hated my guts (I gave him reason to, believe me). Apparently...he doesn't. As in, still thinks about me, Googled me and found the LJ, etc. Also, he thought I was married (dunno where he got that one). Surprise, I'm not.

So, I'm really shocked.

I suppose the timing is appropriate, in a way.

But this ex just loves being friends with exes and looking up old friends. Back when I was with him I heard all kinds of stories about how he'll show up out of the blue. But given how I acted like an ass, I never thought this would be something he'd want to do with ME. *boggle*

Now I am wondering if I'm going to hear from him again (he could contact me, or at least he now knows how to find my e-mail). He hasn't (so far? yet?), but I am freaking out anyway at the possibility.

Part of me wants to- the heart part. The head part, however, thinks that's a really bad idea because what if I get suckered in and fall for him again? I kind of doubt he's drastically changed in 8 years, even if I have (thank god I'm less clingy and more detached and feel less in general). I am also wanting to have a boyfriend again, so having an ex around on some level uh, might mean I get stupid and fall for him again if I get to know him again. Even though I know better, haven't been in love with him for years, and he seems to be seeing someone anyway.