posted May 30, 2007 11:33 PM         

Let me introduce me. Hi, I'm new to Lindaland but not to Linda's Books.

My life is rather different than most (well,at least i tend to think so). I'm from Newcastle, New South Wales, Australia. My First name was the same as Australia's richest man until he died Boxing day 2005, but i can say now my first name is the same as Australia's 4th richest man (worth AUD$4billion). My surname is the same as a leading international conglomerate bank worth US$19billion & handles over a trillion of the world's money. That bank,interestingly, was the first bank in the world to introduce a cash machine (or atm) & that was in the year i was born.

I have 8 siblings(6 sisters & 2 brothers). I am a twin. My twin brother was still-born. According to research, psychologists say the bond between mother & surviving baby is closer than other siblings because of the mourning the mother goes through she treats the surviving baby as special. Psychologists say there is more eye-to-eye contact, more hugging, more kissing, more talking etc between mother & baby.

My mother is what u could say 'different'. Looking back on my family's childhood, when a brother or sister got to the stage where they were interested in the opposite sex, my mother got physically abusive with them but we didn't know y. It was like there was something in the air & she just went bezerk. Well there was something in the air, it was love. Mum never knew what was going on in our lives at that stage. Doctors had tried alot of times to put her in a psych ward but she refused to go bcos of the stigma attached to it, especially in that generation.

What i'm getting at is that my brothers & sisters got over it easily, but for me it was different bcos of my "extra attention". It took me, at the age of 22, studying psychology to find out y.

I found Linda's book "Sun signs" at the age of 18 in 1986 on a flatmates bookcase. Found that it described me perfectly as a Leo & a girl that i was interested in High school as well(an Aquarian). About 2 weeks l8r, at a bus stop, bookshop nearby, popped in & bought "Love Signs".

I was hooked, especially the front of the book about twin souls. Now at this time, i didn't know till studying psych that psychologists say that twins who survive birth but their twin dies, will always feel incomplete , half of a whole, until they find their twin reincarnated & then they can live together forever. So that explains my obsession with twin souls.

That obsession with twin souls led me into a psych ward at the end of my 1st year of Uni study. I had made an agreement a few months earlier with that aquarian girl i liked in high school. I actually had felt a "soul oneness" with her just b4 that agreement.

That leads me to my father. in the first few days in the psych ward a man was brought in & he had a huge arguement with the psychiatrist " saying ur not going to electrocute me again". The psychiatrist asked him if his dad was dead to which the man replied he was. One of the 1st things the psychiatrist asked me was if my father was alive, to which he is... With a name like maxWELL, dad is always going to be fine.

Since those early stages, on my search for my twin soul, i've noticed alot of changes in my dad, & brothers & sisters, but not my mum. From the simple things, like for eg, colours of shoes. My family went from wearing white shoes to grey, to black & some r wearing brown. But my mum has always stayed with the white shoes. The changes have lead to other bigger, more significant things. This change went through my father's brothers & sisters as well.

One time in the town i grew up in, i was in the Catholic Cathedral sitting under one of the stations of the cross & saw that it read "Simon carries Jesus cross". As a catholic as a kid, i chose the confirmation name as "Simon-Peter" (typical Leo - i had to have the best) but my dad said u can't choose 2 names so i shortened it to "Simon". Now also in Mel Gibson's Movie "Passions of the Christ" when the Romans ask Simon to help carry Jesus' cross he refuses but they insist so he says 2 everyone "Let it be known that i, Simon, an innocent man am forced to carry the burden of a condemned man". I believe there is some relevance to my dad there. I believe this because in 1991, 2 years after my initial breakdown, my uncle Bob, Dad's brother was diagnosed with cancer all through him. He died within a month. He was 41yo, never married, had no kids & worked since the age of 14. The developing changes going through my family, my dad's family of brothers & sisters killed Bob bcos he had no partner.

So far, my life has been not easy. I'm the only one in my family like me. They are & so are all of my friends, at the moment, not in "the know". They r not smart or whatever similar name there is for it. They pass off coincidences just as coincidences. Whereas i know there is a meaning for everything & i look for answers.

My life has been unusual, so far, & i've had to pass a lot of testing times, for eg, the nite of thurs 26th April 2007 with that helicopter flying above making me feel safe. That was a tough nite. I had to go deep within me to get through that nite. The girl i was connected to, at that time, refused to dance from 2am & changed the channel of the TV. I saw her with my TELEvision, she was just sitting down. She thought i was evil & told me so by telepathic communication at 6am when she changed the channel back.

i've gotten through this life bcos of Linda. I found out in 1998 by a friend Linda died. When my friend told me i was heartbroken. Through her books i felt she was the only one who truly knew me. No-one else has so far. At times i used to think Linda wrote the front of "LOVE SIGNS" & the whole of "STAR SIGNS" for me & for people in the same situation as me, bcos there are others.

When did Linda die & how?

Now Dafreman (is that how u spell that?) i saw on another thread u let people ask u 5 questions. The last question on that thread was dated in Sept2006 , i think. do u still answer people's questions?

Can i ask u a question?

Why am i the way i am & why have i had to lead the life i have had to lead so far? (woops, sorry that's 2 questions).

Besides my parents, could it be bcos of my Nanna ( on my mum's side) as well? She had a child at 14yo, adopted it out, but the main thing i'm wondering about is that, she was married to 2 men at the same time for a while & had children to both husbands. Now she always told my older brother he was going to be a policeman but it looks like it is going to be me. So she knew. She died b4 i had my initial breakdown so she didn't know it would be me. ( my older brother worked for the police force 4 a while - on the radio. There's that Pink song - "if God is a dj", when i first got my TELEvision). So if my Nanna knew, she was smart, was more enlightened, more developed, how could she give birth to someone like my mum? Is it bcos of the 2 husbands at the same time? I've wondered this for years.

And Randall, i never stop trying, except with the occasional break here & there to keep my sanity. One of my mottos is "never give up".
& Your right Randall, there is no such thing as impossible because everything is possible. You have just got to have faith & believe. Afterall, Linda taught all of us that didn't she?

P.S. Bought Gooberz on weekend from ebay (Aust). There was only one on ebay (Aust). Can't buy Off half ebay. Cost me US$31.95 + US$41.60 postage from California.US. Hardcover & suppossed to be in excellent condition. Should be here by 8th June 2007. Fantastic!!

I initially enquired about Gooberz at book stores in OZ in 1991. None had it on their computer's index & had never had heard of it.
A few years ago i enquired about it, got it ordered in but didn't have finances when it arrived. I almost bought one October 2006 but again finances were short at that time (hey i'm a uni student - yes, still!). Checked on ebay last weekend & there it was, bought it str8 away & it is definetely worth the $92.23AUD. Finances for me are not a problem now.

This post was more than i initally wanted to say, but hey u all know me now.

Thanks

posted May 31, 2007 04:47 AM         

I need to do my uniwork to support my twin. when i'm melancholy i just can't do it. it's a sad & lonely time. The other nite i tried to attempt doing it & it ended up raining. My heart was broken i felt like i have let him down. it can be very disheartning. Gotta make sure i do my best to stop it from raining, until i meet him again. then it would be glorious for it to rain.

posted May 31, 2007 07:36 AM         

Welcome to Lindaland! I am sorry you are feeling melancholy right now. We are all
here for you!

About your twin, Linda mentions that twins,
are born twins, because in past lives there
times were cut short, and they get to live
this life more closely, but in your case it
is different because he was still born, so
this was a karmic loss, form previous lives,
something to learn and grow from.
When Linda talked about twin souls, she is referring to your twin that is the opposite
sex from you, so your feminine twin, your
first mate, other half. This may or may not
be the Soul that was your twin from birth.
Does what I have written make sense to you?
I believe your brother twin, is already here back on Earth, you would need to meditate on
this, asking God questions and waiting for the answers, he will not be far away, or she,
as the case may be.
I know it's important, because of how you feel about all this, and everything you have
had to suffer through.
I'll try to help in any way I can, it helps me, if only one question is asked at a time, so that I can meditate on it.
Smile, you are LOved!

posted May 31, 2007 06:18 PM         

thanks for ur reply. yes i do understand what u've written.

i hav no other questions at this time, except for the ones about Linda's passing & the questions i asked dafreman.

posted May 31, 2007 08:59 PM         

Linda's Life forum, moderated by Thorshammer, has all the information about Linda, and her passing, just scroll down, and go through the pages and you will find everything you need to know about Linda.

Dafremen has not been here in a while, so I do not know if he will respond, hopefully, someone who knows him, can let him know.

posted June 01, 2007 05:03 PM         

I know Dafremen, he's the only member of LL, I have met in person, but I have no way of contacting him, when I was conversing with him, it was an email, that has now crashed, and no longer exists.

Here's to Hoping some messengers let him know, someOne is in need of him!

posted June 04, 2007 01:04 AM         

U mentioned i could ask u questions.

I have one reguarding twins.

My Nanna (on my mum's side) had twins born by her. My mother had twins born by her (my twin brother,me, & i have a brother & sister, 2 years younger than me who r twins). My sister 3 years older than me has twins as well (a boy & a girl).

Y is it that twins seem to be born in the same family generations & (i heard) always on the female side?

posted June 04, 2007 07:49 AM         

Ggod Day! Hmmmm, you know, I always thought that twins being born would skip a generation, in your case, you have your grandmother, then your mom, and then your sister.
3 generations in a row. I am going to have to research twins, hehe.
And it sounds like they're identical and fraternal?
What comes to my Mind, is that your family, soul group, has been through time and space since the beginning of this last creation, through upheavels, and separations, through many hardships. In this time, in trying to have all of you Heal, the twins have been many, I think there must be alot of Mercury in your astrological charts, too!
I do think it is unusual! I also feel it is very significant, like an acceleration in your family tree, to get all together and repair past life disturbances, funny, King, is in your user name, not a coincidence, these upheavals happened in a royal line. Life altering decisions were made, that had great effects, on your family ties.
I will have to research the scientific side, but I will say, that from where I can see, this is all about the family, through life incarnations, and for your accelerated Healing, Learning and Growing, there are great things for you to do this Time, And I believe you feel that within you, know it, and want to face your Fate, and get on with your great work, and since you have such a strong desire, you shall achieve and know what you set out to do.
I will give this some more thought, and will post as things come to me.
Please don't let negative thoughts come between you and knowledge, I know it's hard sometimes, but we must overcome those dark feelings, that is the test, to go within and connect with God, and LOve and Light, creating Magic, transforming our darkness, maintaining a balance in Peace and Harmony.

posted June 08, 2007 08:52 AM         

It helped me get through Tues nite & then getting through the rest of the week was easy.

I read it during the day on tues & then got back online to read it again at about 2am when i was struggling. It motivated me, Thanks!

Right Now it is Fri nite 10.45pm & the week just gone hasn't gone according to plan. U mentiond in ur last reply that i should be able to do great work. I didnt get much 'great work' done the week just gone, but i saw an ad 4 a show starting on the 18th June 2007 called "torchwood" & they mentioned it is about a man who cannot die. So there should be no problem from then on with getting 'great work' done to help me find my twin-soul.

Unfortunately, i was a bit confused with the telepathy with the person i was connected to on Thurs (& still now) & i did something that i may regret for a while. I went to the toilet & now i think i may have to wear all-blue for the rest of my life- i hope not though. Which will make my life tougher but i'll have to get used to it. & already i've lost the respect of people, that, thought highly of me 4 the past 3 weeks.

posted June 08, 2007 09:03 AM         

your message...

you must be willing to make a conscious sacrifice, be willing to give something up, for what you will get in return, will be so much greater.
it is time to swallow false pride, stop banging your head against the wall, and move into a new direction.
if you do not, you will will lose this connection, this person

if you do, you have have something that you will start, that will have foundations for generations to come, a secure place in the Universe. ...

I say this with all the LOve in My Heart, and the LOve of MOther and Father who art in Heaven, it is time...to change...

time to do great work for a new beginning...

LOve, Light, and Magic to YOU!

posted June 09, 2007 03:15 AM         

if, when u say i hav to willing to "make a conscious sacrifice, b willing to giv something up"...i think i know what ur talking about.

I have noticed that i can 'do great work' when i am full with food & ready to go to the toilet & this is relieved when i drink alot, but then i can't do great work, when ive drank too much, so i hav to eat again,with the feeling i may hav to go to the toilet & then i can do 'great work' again.

When i mentioned that ad for that show, about the man that cannot die, i thought i knew what that meant. That is, on that date of the show, i can eat & go to the toilet as many times as i like a day & not hav to worry about it & then i'll be able to get great work done all day/night. The conscious sacrifice i hav to make is that i will lose my slim figure & put on a pot-belly that will be huge & embarrassing to me bcos some people won't understand y, especially my broz,sist,broz-in-laws,sist-in-laws & i will get a huge amount of ego bashing from them. This will b hard for me bcos i'm a Leo & my pride is big. But i understand, it is the only way i will do the work to b able to meet the girl i'm connected to. So it has to be done. My psychiatrist has the same pot-belly figure & i knew for a while it had to b bcos of something & that i would most-likely end up like him.

So if that's what ur talking about i understand & i will do it. But then i saw the ad for "torchwood" again this morning they mentiond again the guy cannot die & that his partner ( a female) would b willing to die for him - didn't c that b4. That confused me & now i'm not so sure. I was willing to die for my twin & i don't think my twin can die, but i may b able to, so is the gender roles reversed in the show? makes me wonder & makes me wonder about the food,toilet, great work, & meeting twin.

posted June 09, 2007 03:23 AM         

If that is my situation, i'm going to find it very difficult & i had hoped i wouldn't have to lead that life.

posted June 09, 2007 03:41 PM         

Torchwood, Fayte did a wonderful lexigram on this in the lexigram forum, it lexi's to Doctor Who!
Yes, we can achieve immortality, but your doctor will think you crazy for saying so, even if it's 2007, in some area's we are certainly still in the dark ages.

If you can ask me just one question at a time, I will meditate and get an answer for you!

posted June 10, 2007 01:53 PM         

The medication i take is "solian", 400mg a day. It's classified as an anti-psychotic.

Connecting alot of things together is part of my nature, my inquisitive mind wanting to understand everything. A lot of it is sort of what u could call code-breaking. I am a Mathematics-teaching student, so it i part of who i am.

It's funny u mention Doctor Who. I saw an ad showing that a new series of that show is about to start up again. There's that connecting things together, woops - sorry, that's me.

I know it's 'crazy' to talk about immortality & to talk about things that some people wouldnt understand. My doctor, i believe, is immortal but as u say it sounds crazy to talk about it & so i believe he doesn't.

posted June 10, 2007 02:06 PM         

I have no Fear, I am connected to God, 24/7, therefore I am protected. If you feel the need to connect, do so. If it's not right, God will not allow it.

Connecting Torchwood with Doctor Who, is a correct connection! There is something to be learned from both.

Numbers are wonderful!

LOve and Reverence to ALL. ...

posted June 10, 2007 03:33 PM         

I was pulled by MOther and Father to connect to your post. Notice, no One else has jumped in, hehe, isn't that odd?

So, this leads me to believe we have been connected in other lifetimes.
Here's my email address, if you would like to talk more privately..lotusheart10@yahoo.ca

posted June 11, 2007 01:23 AM         

Annnnnyway, I too have been placed on medication for bi-polar disorder, at first the doctors thought it was depression but a week ago I'd gotten into such a state (It'd been building up over about a month) my doctor realised there was so much more going on in my brain other than depression.
I wonder if that chemical imbalance has something to do with missing something in my life, ie my twin? I never think about it unless someone mentions twins, but your post has made me wonder.

posted June 11, 2007 01:43 PM         

Thanks for sharing, it really makes me wonder about the loss of a twin-sibling!
My sister takes, abilify for bi-polar, clonapin, ativan, and strattera. I moved back to New Hampshire, April of 2006, because my sister was committed to the mental institution. My mother had to quit her job, to get her out!

I just don't like the thought of medication, I feel it masks the problems, covers them up.
God made us the way we are for a reason, for our learning and growing, counseling therapy, and reaching the root of the matter would be better.

I dealt with my sister when I got back, she was dealing with entities, negative netities talking to her, they verbally attacked me, told me things, she did not even know. To me this is not a chemical inbalance, these are dark energies, that eventually must be dealt with.
Taking medication is a quick fix, veils the real issues. I don't know, I don't want to offend anyone, it just seems like alot of people are medicated, I really feel that, that is not the answer.
Earthway, by Mary Summer Rain, has herbal-natural remedies, that I have found work, for one of my daughters that gets depressed, I refuse to medicate her, we work through the issues as they come.
I should also say, I don't even take aspirin or advil, anything, I am completely against pills and liguid store rememdies!

Do you feel you carry guilt from the loss of your twin, my sister is not a twin, but she is a gemini, like two different people, hehe
and when she was not medicated, like many more.

I'm crying, I don't know how to help my sister, she insists on all this medicine,
and that is her free will choice!

posted June 27, 2007 11:28 PM         

OzMeg222, i hope u don't feel guilty for that u may b the reason for ur twin's death. I was told, growing up, that my twin died in the womb & BECAUSE he died i recieved all his nutrients, NOT that i killed him BY taking all his nutrients. I was a huge baby (9 pounds 7) & they said this was bcos i recieved my twins nutrients when he died. I am a skinny bloke now & always have been all of my life, so this makes sense to me otherwise i would have always been a fat bloke.

OzMeg222, r u from Australia? Most international people don't know that us 'Aussies' abbreviate Australia to 'Oz'. Is it a coincidence that u replied to this post with similar twin birth details as me & that we r both from OZ? I think not.

Lotusheartone, in my life's endeavour of trying to understand everything, i wonder about u. During ur reply to my posts, i thought u were one type of person & then later i 'd think otherwise. I'm still trying to figure it out...but in reply to ur reply, i am happy with who i'm connected to, at the moment, thanks. Sorry for the delay in my response. I've been trying to work you out.

I know, now, i don't HAVE TO wear all-blue - i hope i pass that stage when i get to it.

posted June 28, 2007 01:50 PM         

I am glad to hear you are Happy with who you are connected to!
My intentions are simple, I want all to Learn and Grow, for all to help one another, to realize we are all connected, all children of god, all equal. ...

posted June 29, 2007 08:16 AM         

I know, now, I DON'T HAVE TO wear all-blue clothing.