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Topic: I Have never found love....why?
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flowerpower
Knowflake Posts: 3
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Registered: May 2007
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posted June 02, 2007 11:34 AM
 
Hello. I'm new to post but have been reading this site trying to gain any information that could possibly shed light on my situation.
You see I was born on Monday, Feb. 11th at 2:28am, 1957. My daily concern is that I am FIFTY years old and have never married, never co-habited with a man. Yet I do have a 20yr old wonderful daughter from a relationship I really thought would lead to marriage. Only later did I find out this man who appeared too good to be true was really that. come to find out he hadn't divorced yet and bedsides seeing me for 2 years he was seeing someone else and now she has a son from him. Boy can I pick them!
Anyway, my reason for posting is to get some feedback about what is it in my background that keeps men from being attracted to me. I realize I am overweight but people always say I'm cute and look mid 30's instead of 50. I scraped my way through LVN then RN school and have been in nursing now for 33 years (started in junior year of high school--awarded scholarship for good grades--) and make a good living.
My choices of men has always seemed to be the worst in that they were either emotionally unavailable, drank too much, didn't want to work, or had women attached. Looking back I guess the "bad boys" were exciting to me but even so, why didn't any of them want to marry me? Back in my 20's to 30's I was quite a looker who liked to go out and party and there was no lack of men following me around. It just seems these werent' the men I wanted long term/ day to day and intellectually I knew it wouldn't continue. but now look at me, 50 years old, overweight, and my daughter is soon to leave the nest and I have no one, no companion to share time with.
To be truthful, it's now been 10 years since I last had a boyfriend and I feel ashamed. Ashamed because I know it's not about how fat I am because I have too many positives about me...so why not me? I see other women who are less attractive they have no lack of male companionship.
so I wonder, is it something is my "chart" that tells my story or some words of wisdom that someone can share to give me peace about this. Maybe I'm one of those women just meant to be alone till death.
Thanks for any insight.IP: Logged |
Azalaksh
Knowflake Posts: 4434
From: New Brighton, MN, USA
Registered: Nov 2004
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posted June 02, 2007 12:59 PM
flower ~You might post in the Astrology forum at this website for thoughts on your chart. I would take a look, if you would post your birthplace (City, State)..... Zala IP: Logged |
flowerpower
Knowflake Posts: 3
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Registered: May 2007
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posted June 02, 2007 10:26 PM
Thanks Zala, I have posted it to Astrology board.IP: Logged | |
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