posted October 04, 2007 05:30 PM
i have had a gigantic crush on a cancer sun, mercury and venus guy (gemini moon on ascendant) for over a year, since the moment we met. he was working in a very busy store and i would only go in there every few months or so (cuz i lived a bit out of town at the time). EVERY time we would see eachother, INSTANTLY his eyes would light up and we would stare and smile at eachother (sometimes for several loong seconds). we also talked a couple of times briefly, and this other time he jumped in line behind me at a grocery store and kept smiling at me and seemed like he was trying to hold eyecontact (but i freaked out and ignored him.. oops! dang aquarius weirdoness). but we had several instances where we seemed to click and it just felt SO amazing and right, but during the last year i was really overwhelmed with stuff in my life and did not persue anything with him but he is the only guy i have had a real interest in for all this time.well.. we have been chatting for a few weeks now (long story how that started) and he tells me that he doesn't remember me! but he is also very evasive in a way and says things like, "maybe i did remember, but like because i had a girlfriend i would have just thought, oh there's a pretty girl and just sort of forgotten you". granted he says he has a crappy memory with faces, but i swear there was HUGE recognition in his eyes when he would see me and he would really like jump up and his eyes would suddenly come so alive and he would smile like mad!!
so what i am wondering is.. he was with his girlfriend for three years and they just broke up a few months ago. do you think he could be saying he doesn't remember me because he feels like to admit having a crush on me would have been cheating? we had just had a conversation in which i told him that i am a 100% loyal person, so maybe that was part of it too? or would a cancer just not bother lying about something like this? he is very evasive about feelings (understandable since we haven't hung out in this new context of maybe starting a relationship yet! he is coming to town and we are meeting tomorrow though!!) but he has expressed a couple of times that he finds me VERY attractive and he seems to be REALLY into me.
so.. i guess it doesn't matter too much, but i'm just wondering if a cancer would maybe lie for those reasons? i have never dated one and he is hard to figure out! oh also i'm wondering if it could have been just his moon conjunct ascendant in the first house that would mirror back to me how i was feeling about him? or something??
any insight would help!! cancers are interesting and adorable but.. confusing! my moon is in the 4th so i can relate but i'm sure it's different than a highly saturated cancer man..
the thing that is bugging me so much is that it REALLY feels like he does remember me.. i mean our eye contact was SO hugely potent and feeling and amazing.. any idea on what's really going on with that?
thanks!
Lindaland
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posted October 04, 2007 05:30 PM