posted October 16, 2007 06:32 AM
I haven't been here for ages either, and for some reason, your post caught my eye.
I am not expert enough to give you a natal interpretation, and I don't know you at all - but as I said, this post caught my eye. I did pull an Tao Oracle (I-Ching) card asking what you needed to do about the situation with your friends.
I drew 28 - Excess. The keywords for this card are: stress, overload, exhaustion, obsessiveness, gluttony, burdens, worries, the breaking point.
The artwork on the card depicts a person who is on their knees, literally crawling with a very-pained look on their face. They are carrying a pile of rocks (with some bricks in between the cracks - thrown in for good measure).
But there is hope, for floating just above the topmost rock is a white feather!
Obviously, you are the person with the boulders on your shoulders! What does the feather represent???? I think in this case, your spirit (inner guide) but are you listening to it?
Let me quote some text from the accompanying book: "Undoubtedly, somewhere along the way you have chosen to ignore your own limitations. Waking up to the reality now can be disturbing. Up to this point you might have adopted a grin-and-bear-it attitude. But now, like it or not, the situation needs to be changed."
Isn't the Universe great - it places the necessary events in our path so that we can deal with deap-seated issues.
The message of the card is to reground and take responsibility for how you think and how you act.
Again from the text......"The key to learning the lessons that lie within a situation of Excess is to look in the mirror with unwavering honesty. There is no need for confessions, blame, or shame - and by not attempting to save face, the artificial facade crumbles and all that is extraneous falls away."
What is your friend's behaviour here to teach you? Is it projecting something of yoursElf that you perhaps don't admire?
I see that this is a friendship(s) that you should consider cutting for it causes you nothing but burden.
I think that your doubt has been brewing for some time, and this latest incident was perhaps just a timely event that brought the situation to the forefront.
Think back.....I'm sure there have been other situations that you've not been too pleased with but have overlooked them.
Well, this time, you are at the breaking point. Nothing can be the same from here.
White feathers to me, always indicate a sign from the other side. Is it possible you have someone around you (a spirit) that is giving you guidance but you are not listening?
Perhaps take a moment to meditate (or just take some quiet time, alone). Listen to your heart. Write a list of pros and cons of the friendship if you have to.
We each have the answers we need, inside of us.
If you choose to continue to carry those rocks, you need a strategy to help, or your back will certainly break.
Sorry, this post has gone around in circles a bit. I hope that some small part of it resonates for you.