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Topic: just a gift to my aqua...
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breakfast on pluto unregistered
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posted April 28, 2008 03:39 PM
i am not good..i am in love with him.he is in love with me..we can not say each other.he is my manager..we work all tha day..he is the most romantic person i have ever known..i have in depression for last 6 months..he knows that..yes..yes..you can say;aquas like these problems etc..but i feel..i see his eyes every single day,i see his behaviour and jealousy that is incredible he can not give me free time in office lonely times..he always want to talk me...he is not happy in his private life..he is unhappy..he is 9 years older than me..now bad news come my friends:he is married...i know;i should far away him..yes i am making this fot 1 months..but he dont want that..he is much curious about me..i can see the diffrence...today ;he has gone holiday for one week..he always says to me'you are so cold'..yes ;i am..but you know i not that..i am scorpio girl..really i dont know how can i balance ...i am the first girl he has ever work..he always says:'you are so different,you have high quality..'etc...it seems that aqua holds me and you know aquas make us bad..just confusion...i only share with you..IP: Logged |
MysticMelody Moderator Posts: 905 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 28, 2008 06:17 PM
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26taurus unregistered
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posted April 28, 2008 07:01 PM
Try to see the learning experience in it for you and move on. For your own health and heart. IP: Logged |
breakfast on pluto unregistered
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posted April 29, 2008 12:38 PM
yesterday; when he was leaving the office;he gave some notes about work..and at the end of his note:bold and big words:'dont hesitate to contact to me'..i hesitate..i will not call.because i want to my work good when he was not there and one side of my heart just want to miss him..at the end of day(today)i had to call him for the one of the our employees..my plans were out..one side of my heart was happy for hearing his voice..he will be happy..we only talked work..anyway..this seems diary.. mystic melody & taurus26 thank you fr your courage..but i am scare so much..so much.. IP: Logged |
GemGemGem Knowflake Posts: 158 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 29, 2008 09:24 PM
When you feel love this strong, don't fight it, feel it all throughout your body and soul. Be aware of how the love makes you feel..excited? scared? anxious? panicky? pained? Acknowledge all the feelings...but don't let your feelings take over you, don't become them. Tell yourself these are just "feelings" nothing more. Feelings are not who you are, every feeling is fleeting, what you feel now may not be what you feel 10 minutes from now, or 10 years from now. Especially in this situation, with him being married, it's good that you realize that just because you feel something does not mean you have to act on it. Feel every emotion you have to...but then try let it go. I know it's hard but try to separate your feelings and to look at them objectively. He is married, it cannot go anywhere. If you find you cannot be around him everyday without driving yourself nuts, then you must remove yourself from this situation. Breathe, be strong, and center yourself, and let the feelings come through you, but then pass. I know this is a very difficult situation and you seem to be in a lot of pain. Feel every emotion, but then try to let it go. I hope everything works out. Good luck. IP: Logged |
hippichick Knowflake Posts: 503 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted April 29, 2008 09:41 PM
PlutoI will ponder your words, more, but what this Water lady has gained from Aqua, for now, hopefully only temporary...is a cold bitterness, that has left me, drained.... And he is married, too... So far, my only regret in life. Delve into your feelings, feel them, experience them, but beware...O, so beware.... IP: Logged |
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posted April 30, 2008 06:36 AM
I loved your response to this GemGemGem. IP: Logged |
breakfast on pluto unregistered
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posted April 30, 2008 01:39 PM
GemGemGem;you are great at analysing..my feelings just exiting and scaring..and sometimes painfull..i love his eyes,words,odour..but i also logical where i should to stop..that makes me 'cold' his eyes..so when i behave warm he confused;then when i behave cold he confused better;and you know an aqua love that..but i dont like this..because the last time i am scared to lose the balance..he lost his balance;he told me and nothing else he said he gone to holiday for one week...my feelings are confuse;you are right firstly i cleare to my feelings..actually this holiday is good chance for both of us..i missed him but it may be only for the loving by a man you know..and i like to draw attention..my depression drugs made me non-reacting..and he also like that..if i can not balance this situation and he;may be i should give up the work..i should love someone else..my mind i hope show me a way...hippichick;you are rigth;believe me i make great effort to far away him..but in this work;one to one it is so hard.. wish me good luck.. IP: Logged |
hippichick Knowflake Posts: 503 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted April 30, 2008 02:32 PM
Of course, blessings and love on your journey....Learn, feel and, heal.... Terri IP: Logged |
hippichick Knowflake Posts: 503 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted April 30, 2008 02:32 PM
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hippichick Knowflake Posts: 503 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted April 30, 2008 05:16 PM
Pluto...I just can not get this off of my mind... Gosh...I am sending you all the love and blessings I can muster at this time of my life. A long road you have chosen, a rough, rocky path you be-gin to walk upon.. Blessings to us all.... T~~~ IP: Logged |
hippichick Knowflake Posts: 503 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted April 30, 2008 05:42 PM
Kind of funny, I was watching a program about Hitler/Auschwitz the other evening and, something that was said by one of the writers/interviewees, about Auschwitz struck me as quite profound..And quite Aquarian... Regarding Auschwitz...now... (be-ing) in the "Presence of Absence...." t~~~ IP: Logged |
breakfast on pluto unregistered
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posted May 03, 2008 09:39 AM
Hippichick, We did not talk for 3 days i am so good actually..i am very busy ,this effects me also..1 months ago,a good company wants to transfer me,and my aqua knows that..he became crazy like..he told me that;he could not sleep..he said'i dont want your going'..he said to me..you must stay,you are good..then he lost his balance..i konw that..then sunddenly he want to one week holiday ,i know this is a typical behaviour ;for listening himself lonely and make a attack.. i feel my emotions,logic also..i realized that,i am cooling slowly..i think this is good for me..but i know that,this aqua sao stubborn and if we dont become lover eachother he want to me near for him..that is so selfish..they can love someone else from far or not legal(he is married)...any way,thanks so much your courage..you understand me,i know that,this adds me good power.. IP: Logged |
Lavlee Knowflake Posts: 2 From: Yes Registered: Jun 2009
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posted May 03, 2008 12:06 PM
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breakfast on pluto unregistered
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posted May 04, 2008 03:10 PM
Lavlee, it would not hurt.we did not talk for 4 days..and i am fine..but i miss him..if i go somewhere else it might be good.but also i can live here;i want to fight this situation;i want exactly that;i want to beat my feelings;i want to love someone else..my feelings are these now...i will write here..he will be back in 3 days..let s see how is aqua far away me..but yes;i will be carefull.thanks..thanks.. IP: Logged |
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posted May 11, 2008 04:09 PM
he came back...for all magnetism..first day;we are so busy;we could not talk;second day,he create lonely times for talking the main question 'why are you so cold?what is your problem?i dont know your these situations'that is you know typical aqua curiousity..but;i like attention like many woman..but i did not be solved,he tried to force me to talk,but i did not..then i went a work travel for one day;we send each other too many messages;but i tried to be cold and so i am... he said that his holiday was fine.he pick up himself;i know when an auqa feels emotions he run;just like he made..but now;he find himself a better emotional type..may be so i am..but i dont let these emotions to make me wrong ways..i want you sould see our behaviours;we really share special things especially in intellectual level;that is the best thing for an auqa..he likes cold and intellectual woman;also if that woman rarely show a hotness he is shocked.. i am awared i am in dangerous position;but i will fight..i find my emotions and i solve this situation..but i dont let to hurt me.. that is me;typical scorpio girl..with an aries moon and saggy ascending... be with me... IP: Logged |
hippichick Knowflake Posts: 503 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted May 11, 2008 05:35 PM
...and I raised MY Scorpionic asc tail that turned in a moment of disgust from the fins of a beautiful fish to a devil....and stung him, long and hard.And he liked it. They like witches and bitches. The good witch has become a hardened b*5ch , frozen by his icy air, shivered by his icy stare. IP: Logged |
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posted May 12, 2008 12:12 PM
dear hippichick; that is hot war..today again he forced me;he said 'you changed;we should talk;may be you have some problems'..and i said 'no;actually i dont have ant problems and is this change good or bad?'..and he could not reply my question..it is really hard..i dont know why i am doing such a thing;one side of my heart is says to me:GO!;one side of my heart says to me :STAY and FİGHT..sometimes i really want hurt him;sometimes i dont know..he is so protective about me..he tried not hurt me;he is so kind..but the real is he is married ;he is my manager;we can be only friends..but that is love;i am sure how my name is...be with me..i need you..this aqua will learn love.. IP: Logged |
hippichick Knowflake Posts: 503 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted May 12, 2008 09:27 PM
I always had the "devil/angel" thing going on too..."look at the red flags, Terri, they are SO bright....but I feel he loves me...." etc. etc. etc. Run or stay? You are in this for a reason, and what will not kill you WILL make you stronger. Teach him to love? Maybe, I am pretty sure mine learned a whole lot of lessons in love from me, and he is an Aqua sun with a hell of a lot of Pisces and I a Pisces sun with a hell of a lot of Aqua...and still he ran... from love. IP: Logged |
breakfast on pluto unregistered
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posted May 25, 2008 01:47 PM
Hippichick; that game is right for aqua..you are true..i try to away from him,last week;we had a conversation,and i said i can not sleep;he sais 'i also can not sleep;i wake up at 5 in the morning;i dont know'.i asked the reason;of course he did not tell,you know aquas dont tell himself or they are so shy..i said 'you have some problems;if you want you can tell me;i can listen to you'...nearly;he tell me;but of course he forced himself;he has responsbilities s much,he has a wife,and also public..so ;now what he will do?i really care that..i will find his weak sides,one of that when i am not in the middle;he panics,last week;i went to my home and i did not tell him;he said 'i am so much curious;please tell me when you are gone elsewhere;and that time nearly only 2 hours'..it is unbeliveble. i know i am in dangerous situation and if dont care myself i will be beaten.. sometimes;i think;this is not equal;if we meet eachother in different conditions;if he is not married;today we have eachother..this is not equal;but love you know brings pain..IP: Logged |
hippichick Knowflake Posts: 503 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted June 01, 2008 08:34 PM
Games are of the mind as are they...IP: Logged |