posted June 12, 2008 06:29 PM         

Long story short....he and I had been commuincating all along, just hadn't seen him in months. One day he wanted to work on his website again and it was supposed to snow and I said i wasn't coming. he told me i could stay over. Well, it didn't snow, so I didn't stay over. He emails me the next day becuase I left when we were done with the website and says - I guess u didn't stay over cuz it didn't snow. My response was yes. I guess he was assuming we would pick up where we left off, so I said to him....I haven't seen you in months, I just assumed there was someone else or you weren't interested anymore. He said that wasn't true and he talks to me more than any other. So I said fine, if you want to go down this road again we need to go slower.he said that was ok.
Fast forward - we had been getting together almost every week to work on his website or have lunch or dinner. (no intimacy)So I had to go to Vermont for work and he has a house there.So we make plans to go up and I sense something but can't put my finger on it. We drive all the way up there and start drinking and he falls asleep so I kiss him to wake him up and he tells me he's seeing someone new.It's only been about 10 days.

needless to say drama ensues.We go home the following night but he can't understand why i want to leave.He wanted to stay until sunday. This girl calls while we're just sitting out in the sun and he tells her he doesn't know when we're coming home - she hangs up on him...I would have done the same thing.

I was having some minor surgery that I thought was not going to turn out well, so I send him this really heart felt email ( cuz I think I may die soon) and he writes me back and tells me I made him cry. meanwhile all he keeps saying is that we can be freinds and he doesn't want to lose me etc.
It takes him 3 weeks to return some of my stuff. he kept stalling thinking I would see him.

I keep telling him I feel like this is all about his website. He was paying me but...

So a few days of drama ensues and finally I just stop answering his calls and emails but they keep coming.

Any way - now I hear from him about once a week. Still trying to get me to see him or talk to him or finish his site, wanting to start a business together.
I highly doubt his new gf would appreciate us starting a business together.

so anyway - someone on here was nice enuff to do charts for me and him and for him and his new gf

apparently we have much better chemistry and connection and she says he will never be out of my life. Here I am for the last 3 weeks trying to figure out how to get him out but he is just so persistant. I went so far as to say i have moved and hour and a half away and may be transferring across the country in the fall - he's still not giving up.

So this person who was so nice to me to do the charts says I should finish the website.
She says it will keep us connected and make out bond stronger.

I have to say - I've never felt such a deep connection to someone before him. He has brought out things in me I thought I buried long ago. I feel a very heavy connection or maybe even a karmic one.

So I guess my question is- if I finish the website , will my karma be completed with this person and I can move on with my life, or should I just shut him out completely?

Any thoughts are appreciated.
I am the leo he is pisces

posted June 12, 2008 09:22 PM         

Unfortunately I think about him ALL day LONG.

You would think by now it would subside a little.

I just read your story about your cancer man - hope that works out for you.

posted June 13, 2008 04:28 AM         

i feel that if you leave him for a bit(i know u r already doing this), he might realise who he likes/ loves and who he does not...

at the end of it...if its meant to be it will...

in the mean time maybe you shud do things that make you really happy...whatever it is..whether its dancing, singing, going out with friends etc..

posted June 13, 2008 06:34 AM         

This reminded me of the "Scotty's gotta go" song from the movie Eurotrip. Just the chorus lyrics, not the situation, mind you.