posted August 11, 2008 09:53 PM              

This is beautiful.

And you are as charming as ever.

I enjoyed reading your story a lot.

I really hope this works out for you.

He sounds like a beautiful man.

And if anyone deserves it, you do!

posted August 14, 2008 06:25 AM            

I don't have my chart posted anywhere. My Pisces paranoia and all...

My Gem moon is a loner in the 8th. I think it may be considered a singleton since it's only aspects are a 7 degree square to my Mercury and an 8 degree square to my Pluto.

My family connections to my moon are VERY prominent.

posted August 14, 2008 10:52 AM            

Oh Mel, for the love of God go with it, he sounds amaaaaazing!! You're a splendid specimen of humanity and why on earth shouldn't he want you? *jumps for joy*

posted August 15, 2008 03:00 PM            

********** WARNING *************
******** All Men Stop Reading Right Now*********

I use an IUD for birth control (don't say I didn't warn you if you are still reading, Guys, and it is going to continue...) which is great, had it put in right after I had Rose and my periods basically stopped which was excellent because mine were always incredibly painful... and it lasted 5 years and then I had trouble with the re-insertion a couple months ago but finally I have a new one and the literature says something about a burst of hormones etc the first week so I am really whacked out.

Remember the pipe story manifestation? Well, geez, what caused the problem with my emotions and the flow of emotions..? Past men, dear ol' dad... yeah. So, get this... my DAD, poor Dad, an oldish grandpa now (though he has held up rather nicely) has been helping me with all of these pipe problems. We are both talking turns contorted upside down with shelves digging into our backs using hammers, wrenches etc to get these pipes loosened so they can be taken out and replaced. Both of us taking turns with our faces contorted with effort and pain and exertion and it occurs to me... my FATHER is HELPING me fix this pipe/water problem. He may not be an astrologer, a mystic, or a psychotherapist, but he is reaping the Karma of this pipe thing (he has worried to my mother before about mistakes he made raising me and my past choices in men and where it has led me... for example: no husband to repair my pipes) and he is making the effort to help me with the traumatic break down of my entire plumbing system. (Even with all of the repairs and work, there is still some damn thing leaking today so my cabinets are all open, contents spilled all over the kitchen floor and Dad is stopping by after work today to see what's next, but I'm thinking of calling him and telling him to let it leak, I just want to crawl under the covers and die.)
So, what am I talking about..?

Oh, that I felt my heart forgive Dad some the other day when we were "in it together" with the water issues.

So, this guy... this water guy... this Scorpio/Cancer guy...

I don't know.

I don't know if I want to FEEL this much when intellectually I know we haven't gotten to know each other enough and intellectually the age difference is not good. I don't want to be pregnant again. I don't want to raise a small child again. He will want to at some point more than likely. And even if he says he doesn't care... I will know that from time to time he will wonder and I don't want to be the person who takes something like that away from him. Being a parent is this magical thing that can never be replaced.
And he has been at work all this week... and we haven't talked much and I would assume that he is having all of these second thoughts too... (First Stage: Attraction, Second Stage: Uncertainty...) and I'm just not in the emotional state to bring any of this up without offending a sensitive water sign.

so, I'm telling you guys... because if I don't let a little of it out... (LEEEEAK! omg) it's going to build up to some bursting point (*sigh*) and well, we all know what happens then. Gallons of water bursting forth that no amount of duct tape can contain... with the only solution being spiders and darkness and the turning off of the water completely before the entire house is ruined.

oh boo hoo

I think the water pressure from a Scorp/Cancer might be too much for my original pipes. And this renovation takes time.

Sorry about the mess, Everyone.

~~~~~~~~~~UNDER CONSTRUCTION~~~~~~~~~~~~

posted August 15, 2008 08:51 PM            

I don't understand all the astrology info you wrote, the vertex, stellium, conjuncts, houses...whew, I just couldn't process it, it's like a foreign language. I wish I knew more about it.

But I will say this, go with the flow and see where it takes you. Be open, be yourself, have fun -- as your wise words advised me. Sometimes we use the wisdom we have to try to be perfect when really that is what can cause so much anxiety.

Earth to MM:
He LIKED you BEFORE he knew you were a Libra, and you LIKED him BEFORE you knew he was a scorpio, cancer guy with houses, conjuncts, vertexes, stelliums--all that jazz--all lined up in a row.

So relax, take it easy on yourself, MysticMelody. Your username sounds so easy-going, yet deep and healing. Be that. He sees what you don't, and it's attractive. That fact is so liberating once you truly understand it.

posted August 15, 2008 10:23 PM            

Of course I need to chill and enjoy myself. I wrote him an only slightly crazy email and he texted back with this awww what's wrong baby, sry you feel bad, working overtime, I know we haven't talked much lately but we'll talk soon, I promise type of message complete with extra apologizing. I feel like a total psycho ass now, but at the moment it was as if it could not be controlled. I said something about it maybe being a good thing to let the whole thing just fade away... maybe it would be for the best...
I was totally weirded out by the full court press followed almost by silence the last few days, though I know the whole 'be intimate then pull away and be independent' male cycle. It's just so hard to see when you are in it... and when it is almost full moon and you are an overwhelmed hormonal wreck. What is the He Puts Up With You Even Though You Are Crazy asteroid? Ours must be conjunct. :^)

More aspect stuff to confuse you, eh? hehe Well, that was just made up silly rambling for my own entertainment mostly.
Thanks again, LetsDance. You have lifted me up with your Light.

Do me a favor and stick around because much of the time, I still can't believe any lasting good will come of anything LOL in my Saturn ruled life, and I'll need you again soon I'm sure...

posted August 16, 2008 09:27 AM            

Just a little something I've learned from my Scorpio experiences...they do kinda do that back up a little to see how you'll react thing sometimes. I'm guessing he secretly loves that you're missing him. Shhhh...our little secret!

Also, this evening is that lunar eclipse in Leo (I think at 25 degrees). Don't get freaked out. May just be that it's causing you to doubt. Hang in there kiddo!

posted August 17, 2008 10:36 PM            

I guess that answers the question of the "the inner direction of his heart and soul".
After saying "We're still going to out tomorrow, aren't we? You still wanna do that, right?" and then saying, "Call me as soon as you get done with your family thing."

Sometimes I think that finding God, faith, and Linda Goodman's Love Signs in the early 90's was actually a curse meant to destroy me by making me believe in the inner goodness of humanity.

Angles in synastry...
The Universe's way of saying, "Ohhh, you like that don't you?"

posted August 18, 2008 12:01 AM            

yes, his cell phone was obviously lost or stolen and my number was IN it so he couldn't use another phone to call, and his friend's cell phone which also has my number in it was lost or stolen TOO, and during the theft he was klunked over the head and can't remember where I live and might even be trussed up in the emergency room... so really I should be feeling sorry for HIM, poor baby.

posted August 18, 2008 01:02 AM            

Honestly, the problem is that I'm not so much a delicate flower anymore... more of a Venus fly trap.

Actually, an extremely delicate flower (slightly chewed) guarded by the fiercest of dragons and most unsurmountable obstacles.

My daughter is at her grandparents so I could go on this date that did not happen.
I'm glad because I cried loudly and for a long time a couple hours ago.

I will burn more incense. It will be my third stick so far. Rose petals... now that would be nice. I actually do have rose incense, maybe I will open it.

posted August 18, 2008 01:06 AM              

That's more than not cool. I wish I was there to take you out right now. I'd love to tell you a little story about my old Scorpio boss who was after me for quite awhile too....and then.....well, we will have to save that for the next time we talk. It's an eerie thing, after hearing this story... I'm right here if you need an ear. You have my number. I know you are like me and prefer to assimilate it all within yourself first..yadda, yadda...but I'm here...if you need. You know that.

posted August 18, 2008 01:16 AM            

This by 4 degrees:

Saturn opposition Saturn:

What does it mean to your relationship when your Saturn is in opposition to your partner’s Saturn? This is considered to be a very difficult relationship aspect. Each individual is living out a different life path. Two old souls meet upon a dusty road. “I am going to climb the mountains of the West.” “I am going to cross the desert in the East.” Whether they pass in moments, or share stories through the night, neither will make further progress along their chosen path until they separate and move on.

posted August 18, 2008 01:21 AM            

Arrgggh.

Nothing personal though, I am sure.