posted November 06, 2008 11:10 PM         

I feel so so strongly and surely that I have found my soul mate (or maybe my Twin Self), but... it's so incredibly strange... I decided to write about it here to hopefully gain some insight from all of you enlightened people.
About five years ago I watched a movie. I fell head over heels, heart over soul, madly in love and obsessed with a character in that movie! And not even the actor... just the character. I felt like I had been awakened from a kind of death of my soul as I was constantly feeling depressed, unchallenged, stagnant and unsatisfied around that time. It was as though he opened me up in every way and I could see all of my potential and everything I was capable of doing and knowing, and at the same time I felt so humble and submissive to him and I would do anything -- absolutely anything for him and never feel victimized or like a tool. He inspired me and I felt as though he was teaching me my life's lessons. I felt him all around me all the time.. I never felt like he was 'away' from me. I felt like wherever he was in the world, he was always near me. He made me feel perfect peace, calmness, and security (which is like heaven to a Cancerian like me!) I was like.."What the heck is going on here? He's just a character from a book/movie!! How can I possibly be feeling so much for him??"
I have had dreams of him. One dream in particular stood out to me. I was in a room with several other people. We were all sitting in a semi-circle and HE was there, going to each person in turn and making them carry this large, heavy block of ice that was shaped like a diamond cut to fit in a ring or necklace. They had to hold it for awhile, then sort of toss it back up to him. When it came my turn I could barely take the weight, but I was able to toss it back up and so I passed the 'test'. But after that he just stood before me and didn't move on, so I prayed that if he had any feelings for me at all that he would do something. And then he did something that was quite shocking to me.. something sexual in a way, and he said "Midnight is the sex hour", then kissed me. I could never figure out what that sentence meant. I've tried lexigramming it, but I can't be sure...
Later on, I was reading the poem in Love Signs "we've fought a long and bitter war, my twin soul and I". One part of that poem stood out to me: "crushed beneath Saturn's icy weight". I knew by then that the character's sun sign (in the book) was Capricorn, but what I did not know then, but found out later, was that at the time Saturn was passing through my sun sign, Cancer, and that is a sort of test, isn't it? So I figured that the heavy block of diamond-shaped ice represented a test that I had to go through in real life, and when the test was over, something shocking would happen, perhaps, but even though Saturn is not in Cancer anymore, I still feel his presence and influence in my life so strongly and it is helping me grow so much. I feel so much more enlightened and strengthened in Love and confidence. So I don't feel that the test is over yet... and maybe it won't be until I meet my twin. But how in the world could I meet a character from a book? Unless he just really reminds me of my twin from a past life...
Anyway, the whole experience was a huge soul shock for me, I would say, but I feel so good about it. Very few uncertainties... and usually only while I'm PMSing.. ha.. I've had the most wonderful senses of euphoria while meditating on him.
I was also curious as to the difference between a Soul Mate, Twin Self, and an Astral Twin. Could someone possibly shed some light onto this? I feel crazy sometimes because it is such a strange phenomenon to me. I mean, I can accept it quite easily, but when I see it from the average person's perspective, I see .. a crazy person. Lol.
But I have learned so much about true love and all the gifts it brings... it is so wonderful, and I hope it is leading somewhere prosperous.

I wish all of you Love.. as this love makes me want to give away all the kindness in my heart. I love all of you.

Love Is All

Here is my birth info to assist you. And oddly enough, there was an exact birth date written in the book that was quite enough information to create a basic birth chart for the fictional character, so I pulled one out of the same site, but only the ascendant is most likely incorrect. I just assumed it was Libra after studying his character for awhile.. and assuming he was born right before midnight.. So don't take anything to do with his ascendant seriously.
The chart on the top is mine and the one below is what I could make of his.

posted November 07, 2008 08:33 AM         

I am not making light of your fascination (although I do tease my sister!) but just illustrating how one can become entrenched in a character from a movie.
But you feel it on a more metaphysical level and that's intriguing.

Do you think it could be a past life recollection of a similar character and it's stirring a repressed memory?

posted November 07, 2008 02:42 PM         

I would give a heck of a lot to feel that level of passion for anybody (real or imaginary)

And anyway who's to say what's real and what's not. We are all just perceptions.

posted November 07, 2008 04:08 PM         

on the other hand he may be a messenger telling you someone who shares the qualities that touch you is on his way...

posted November 08, 2008 03:20 PM         

A few years ago I had been writing a story (actually it felt like I was just scribbling down what I saw in my mind, more like a theatre play), and after that friend had read it she told me that it felt like something that had actually happened. A story that had been kinda "floating in the ether only waiting to be told".

Some other readers of my story have suggested I should be watching "Queen of the Damned", cause my male protagonist reminded them of Lestat (like the protagonists of at least 2 other stories. lol), as he was played in the movie (which has not much to do with the book as I know now).
And I hadn`t even heard about Lestat back then, when the first remark was being made about my character resembling Lestat.
I hadn`t seen the film (the first one) nor read the book nor read anything about it at all.

But I was pretty shocked when I saw STuart Townsend as Lestat, cause it was so close to the character of my own story. It was really creepy. Not just the way he looked, but how he moved and so on.

The resemblance to my "inner image" was striking.

So, I`m definitely sure that you can fall in love with a character of a novel or a film. And I think your explanation may be right. That this character is like the literary form of a real human being that once has lived and that you knew and maybe loved. I can definitely see that being possible.