posted August 16, 2009 11:33 AM         

First off, here's my chart:

I'm afraid that I'm not very technical when it comes to astrology, just fascinated and kinda sold (and have been since the age of 14 - am 32 now)!

Here's the thing. Libra guy. Don't have his birth time so no specifics for him I'm afraid.

From the moment I met this guy, I knew something was up. I was actually quite wary to begin with. Something went off in my head to say "important, but trouble".

Wow. We ended up in a relationship. I ended a two year relationship to be with him, he had been recently separated from his wife who he has a two year old daughter by.

The relationship was INTENSE, with both of us declaring love within a month. Then something went wrong. He reacted to something I did by cutting me off completely. I was so very hurt. Fast forward a few months and that guy (I have to work in the same office too) has never left my thoughts. We cleared the air a short while ago and are now kind of toying with seeing eachother now and then. We're in touch via messages all the time.

I can't shake what I feel. I'm still crazy for him (he hints at the same) and it's driving me crazy. I'm so very scared of being hurt again, this guy has so much power over me. But his smile melts me and I can't stop wanting to be with him.

Any thoughts?!

posted August 17, 2009 03:42 AM         

Any tips on me versus the Libra man?!

posted August 17, 2009 12:59 PM         

My friend is a scorp with a dimple so big you could stick a banana in it. I'm always squeezin his cheek. I looked at his chart and he has 4 planets in Libra.

posted August 22, 2009 04:34 AM         

Waving back across the channel at wheels You wouldn't be actually IN Bristol would you? That's my home town!

So, a little update. Seen the man in question a couple more times after I posted this and I'm getting the feeling that I may have to let this one go. It really is causing too much pain

I don't think he's able to be there for me emotionally right now, maybe not for a long time. He just seems to want sex. I guess that ordinarily, that might not be a problem for me, but this time, I fell too hard to be satisfied with sex for the sake of it.

Why does this man have so much power over me?! My friends can all see what he's doing to me. I can step back enough to see it too but not enough to walk away. I feel like such a fool

There's a song he always plays when he's driving me someplace. Is this how he really feels about it all?! It makes me pretty tearful (Slipknot, making me tearful?! Get a grip, you loon!):

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can't destroy what isn't there

Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not care
I think I made it very clear
You couldn't hate enough to love
Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself

And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away, you're all the same
Angels lie to keep control
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care don't ever let me know
If you still care don't ever let me know