posted August 30, 2009 02:14 PM            

I didn’t look any more than briefly at the astro – Saturn/Moon DW is not a challenge I would be eager to explore, nor is the Venus-Uranus/Saturn conj…..
Your Saturn could provide him stability (should he need some) and that could be quite (unconsciously) attractive to him.
The Sun conj Neptune could be problematic in that you may not “see” each other as clearly as you might like.
His Chiron in your 4th could prove very unsettling to your values (as it has already) and to the deepest foundations of your being, if you let him in very far. If you just want to have fun with a good-time buddy, then go for it
But I feel concern for you when I think about the possibility of you getting deeply involved with this fella…..

I understand your loneliness – I’ve raised my kid alone for 12 years now
For at least the first five years or so after leaving my ex, I wanted nothing whatsoever to do with men. Gradually that wariness has moderated and dissipated, but I don’t want to make a bad choice again, not with a child who is my primary responsibility. So, as much as I deeply ache for a companion, someone to share life’s ups and downs with, I’m quite circumspect about choosing men to hang out with…..

The allure of someone who makes you feel beautiful is hard to ignore/expunge. But Mel, you **are** beautiful, and you need to know it every day, inside yourself <3 <3 <3

I think you know the right course of action already…..

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What is the Universe doing to me?? Teaching me to stay alone even if it makes me crazy.
I can't trust myself.
I think I will end up just being friends with him, which is fine... but is it wrong to dip my toes in a little and pretend for a while that I have something? It IS something. Can't I just enjoy having a "boyfriend" for a bit even if he is one big red flag? (Here's me with the bargaining and rationalizations, right?) Being completely honest with him about my feelings regarding the situation, of course.
Maybe this is a lesson to teach me to draw boundaries and just remain friends. I am remaining detached to an extent and have not given a huge part of my heart. I have felt fatalistic a bit about it for a while but the truth is, I can make a decision about how close to get overall. Right?

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posted November 15, 2009 11:15 PM            

try to be strong....... loneliness is just a state of mind.....u r lonely does not mean u need to fall for wht u r not comfortable

i am sorry i feel yr whole approach is self-dstructive......

well in any case its yr life....

posted November 16, 2009 09:20 AM            

Mr Drinks Too Much was before Mr Perfect, and I think Mel handled Mr Drinks Too Much ok, took some good advice from a good friend and that was the end of that. I think her consciousness of the fact that he drank too much was far from "self destructive". Better that than bury it and think it'll all be ok.

And as for Mr Perfect, well, some people turn out to be jerks. I don't see this as Mel's problem or anything she could have anticipated, just that some people will turn out to be jerks.

I don't see anything which states she thinks the Universe is doing anything to her at all. In fact I think Mel of all people is a believer that the Universe shows us things that we may choose to follow or not. I think I get a sense from her that she sees everything as a learning experience.

Maybe it's because the two threads are close to each other, Mel hasn't been around for a while and has bumped them to update them.

Don't worry about her, she's ok and fully realises her strength. Her strength is talking about intimate stuff like this. She's been alone a long time, but is ok.

Anyhoo! Yes, LTT I would second that.

posted November 16, 2009 01:45 PM            

thanks for clarification and explaining how she realizes her strength. and also I am not worried abt anyone, its a forum where e one shares their opinion - astrological hopefully

I personally, think that once in a while one shld step back from astrology and ask a common sense question, why I am attracting so many jerks all the time. and I also dont think talking abt personal stuff is an issue of strength or weakness, its simply a matter of personal choice and nothing more.

posted November 17, 2009 05:13 AM            

I was "alone" for 7 years. I finally decided to throw myself into some relationship experiences and kind of proved my own point that it takes a long time to get to know someone. That is all. Also, I do feel like the Universe brings things into my life and provides lessons for me... CONSTANTLY. All of the men I meet have certain energies that I am meant to explore at the time and they all teach me lessons I am meant to learn... even if the relationship doesn't last forever. I share here because all women go through similar experiences at different points in their lives and it is helpful to all to be honest and open about all of our silly little thoughts and dramas, as well as the wisdom we glean from them.

Btw... Mr. Drinks Too Much update. lol

So, I call him to apologize for basically being a rude witch to him one night when he called, when "Mr. Perfect" was here. (Did I mention Mr. "Perfect"'s insane jealousy? Why yes, I did.) So, I was curt, abrupt and rude, and very unlike myself and hurt Mr. Drinks Too Much's feelings. So, I apologized and he came over to watch a movie and he told me he LOVED ME and I told him that I loved him too, but in a caring sort of way and we could never have a "relationship" like that because...

HE DRINKS TOO MUCH.

The End
(and God bless him... cuz did I also mention he "drinks too much" because his little sister committed suicide a couple years ago?)

yeah
uh huh
life's like this
that's the way it is

you fall
and you crawl
and you break
and you take what you get
and turn it into
honesty

posted November 17, 2009 10:13 AM            

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I finally decided to throw myself into some relationship experiences and kind of proved my own point that it takes a long time to get to know someone. That is all.

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posted May 14, 2018 06:03 PM            

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Originally posted by Healing Mystic Melody:
Seriously! I love reading these. What a blessing.

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