posted October 10, 2009 11:04 PM         

This story is something that I have carried inside of me, and is now being written to serve as a warning. It is easy to confuse feelings of lust for feelings of love. This is precisely what happened to me, and with negative spiritual consequences. My intuition is generally pretty good, but feedback on this would be very appreciated.

Here it goes.

A year ago, I met X. When we locked eyes, it was as if a flash went through my body. My knees almost collapsed. He told me that he felt the same way. Without stopping to think, or assess the situation, I jumped into dating him immediately, wondering what that connection was.

Everybody, just because you feel a connection with someone doesn't mean it is a good one. This one turned out to be a powerful reminder of that.

As we started dating, I noticed that we did not connect on levels outside of physical and emotional. My intuition came out powerfully around him, and in retrospect I know it was God warning me to stay away until I chose to listen.

Spiritually, he is someone who I discovered to be overcome of fear and negative energy. There was a dark side to him that he refused to acknowledge and control. Signs started appearing everywhere. I started getting visions and nightmares of snakes attacking me. Around him, I suddenly felt the urgent need to visualize building walls that reflected away his negative energy. These urges and sensations became more frequent, and I didn't understand what it meant until one day, I was able to step around a snake, and saw that it was his face behind it. The snake had half consumed his spiritual side! I ended the relationship as soon as this happened, and any connections with him. Once I did that, it felt like a veil was lifted and a wave of relief washed right over me. For weeks afterwards, he still tried to seek me out mentally and I would have to either kill the chord connection, or visualize grabbing a sword and chopping off the head of the snakes. Eventually, he gave up.

This is the first time I ever admitted this to anyone or anything. I am convinced that if it wasn't for my Christian faith, I would still be in a relationship with him-miserable and wondering when it would get better. I say this simply because prayer helped me to keep my mind clear and to be receptive to signs sent by the universe.

The reason why I am writing this, is because I have noticed that there are many lonely people in this world. We all are seeking that connection with someone, and when we find it, we hold onto it just because it is one without examining it to make sure that it is a good quality one. To serve as a warning.

posted October 11, 2009 01:50 AM         

What do you think is the reason why you attracted this kind of experience? I don't believe in accidents, and I believe that every person who appears in my life comes bearing a "gift" for me. And they also come with a mirror to show me what I need to discover about myself.

Are you familiar with the parable The Little Soul and The Sun?". I love the ending of that story:

"Always remember," God had smiled, "I have sent you nothing but angels."

posted October 11, 2009 08:59 AM         

I do not know what the purpose of these kind of events would be. Sometimes I think it was a test of some sort. It could also have been that he was looking for someone to psychically feed off of (I was constantly drained around him, and could never explain why) and I happened to be in the right time and right place.

What I do know is that it taught me a really powerful lesson in the importance of discerning exactly what it is that we are feeling when it is there. It also taught me a lot about myself, what I want and don't want in a relationship. It's taught me to appreciate certain qualities I took for granted before-qualities I know I need present in a spouse that I spend a lifetime with.