posted December 17, 2009 08:35 AM
Hi
Relatively new around here and have lurked for a while but have only recently had anything 'post-worthy.' I thought I'd share some thoughts/feelings with you about a connection I have with someone - I wouldn't say relationship as both of us are in relationships with other people and we love them, however this guy and I have some history - we had a very brief relationship (6 months or so) years ago and recently got back in touch with each other via FB. We always had a strong hold on each other and a powerful attraction - first kiss was amazing! Anyway we've not seen each other for around 8 years however the old attraction is still there and we admitted as much to each other, but resolved to be friends so as not to hurt anyone. He said that he couldn't stop thinking about me and had confided in some close friends what he felt - said that he didn't want to hurt anyone but that he couldn't help the way he feels about me. He then told me though that if a 2nd chance came along he would grab it with both hands, but I think maybe this may have been said in the heat of the moment - he went a bit cool on me after a little while so can only assume he thought better of it and felt he'd gone too far which is fair enough.
The relationship before was quite tempestuous and ended badly but this time we've been all sweetness and light with each other which is lovely but I couldn't help a nagging doubt somewhere at the back of me that said "beware." That doubt faded as we carried on talking though and we'd agreed to meet up for a drink when I visit my mum who lives near him, although I got cold feet and decided to pull out of that. Didn't know if I could trust both of us to keep it platonic.
We spoke for a few days more and it was all very intense as we were clearly trying our best not to cross any lines but not wanting to cut contact all together. I offered to disappear for a while to ease things and he said he definitely didn't want that. That was last Wednesday and we haven't spoken since - ironically after saying all that, he went quiet on me so I just presumed he'd thought better of it and on Sunday I suddenly felt compelled to remove him from my friends list and there's been no further contact since.
I feel like there's a tremendous gap where it all was but that could simply be the fact that it was something exciting, flattering and heart warming and hey, I'm only human so I got sucked into that! ;D I do miss him though. Terribly.
I've posted our birth data below and if anyone has any thoughts I'd be really interested to hear them. I know we have some significant conjunctions (Sun/Moon, Sun/Pluto, and a near Sun/Asc although not a tight enough orb on that one I think) but I can't put my finger on what made me wary other than the memory of our previous attempt at a relationship. I also can't help 'knowing' on some level that it's not over and there's more to come. Ah well, time will tell. Thank you for reading and nice to meet you
Me
Sun Libra 11°33'36 in house 4 direct
Moon Capricorn 17°04'29 in house 6 direct
Mercury Scorpio 2°56'06 end of house 4 direct
Venus Scorpio 24°59'57 in house 5 direct
Mars Taurus 7°37'09 in house 11 retrograde
Jupiter Aquarius 2°21'25 in house 7 direct
Saturn Cancer 4°36'51 in house 12 direct
Uranus Libra 22°40'51 in house 4 direct
Neptune Sagittarius 5°18'32 in house 5 direct
Pluto Libra 4°34'06 in house 4 direct
True Node Capricorn 2°19'47 in house 6 retrograde
Planets at the end of a house are interpreted in the next house.
House positions (Placidus)Ascendant Cancer 23°00'30
2nd House Leo 9°01'44
3rd House Leo 28°32'46
Imum Coeli Virgo 25°12'59
5th House Scorpio 3°11'15
6th House Sagittarius 17°43'19
Descendant Capricorn 23°00'30
8th House Aquarius 9°01'44
9th House Aquarius 28°32'46
Medium Coeli Pisces 25°12'59
11th House Taurus 3°11'15
12th House Gemini 17°43'19
Him
Sun Capricorn 14°45'40 in house 4 direct
Moon Pisces 5°59'42 in house 5 direct
Mercury Aquarius 3°53'41 in house 4 direct
Venus Sagittarius 5°21'58 in house 3 direct
Mars Gemini 16°12'43 in house 9 retrograde
Jupiter Aries 15°55'56 in house 7 direct
Saturn Leo 0°41'03 in house 10 retrograde
Uranus Scorpio 6°33'07 in house 2 direct
Neptune Sagittarius 12°41'42 in house 3 direct
Pluto Libra 11°41'22 in house 1 direct
True Node Scorpio 20°06'38 in house 2 retrograde
House positions (Placidus)Ascendant Libra 2°57'27
2nd House Libra 27°12'39
3rd House Scorpio 27°36'48
Imum Coeli Capricorn 3°50'35
5th House Aquarius 9°40'01
6th House Pisces 9°24'40
Descendant Aries 2°57'27
8th House Aries 27°12'39
9th House Taurus 27°36'48
Medium Coeli Cancer 3°50'35
11th House Leo 9°40'01
12th House Virgo 9°24'40