posted July 21, 2010 01:20 PM
So lately a profound understanding of love and frequencies have begun materialize for me.
I read this today on the StarGoddess website that resonated with me:"The final division of the soul that took place eons and eons ago could be likened to the separating of a magnet into two separate pieces. Each piece would be predominately one polarity or the other but a residual amount of its opposite essence would always be present within itself. So it is with the divided twin (soul). The masculine half�has always retained some of the original feminine energy that the soul first possessed while the feminine half still holds onto a part of the masculine essence it once was united with. Since that time we have roamed around in this incomplete state of being experiencing life after life and relationship after relationship until we decide we've had enough and want something more fulfilling. In order for that to happen each twin must first achieve a balance of masculine and feminine essence within themselves and bring that balanced energy to each other to complete the whole."
I find this amazing. Because for the past 3 years I have been working on balance intensely...And I have transformed completely from who I once was. My Ego is there, but I am learning the last of his ways and so he has little negative impact on the decisions I make in my life now. But this has been a hard place to get to...a broken heart was my road map.
I have been requesting to meet him for sometime now, since I understood the concept of soulmate/twinsoul I knew he was who I have been searching for. Which makes me realize that sometimes when we ask for things and they dont materalize it is directly linked to the amount of effort have put in and if we have done it whole souled. Because whole souled means you dont care if you meet them or not you are doing this now for the love of your Source and your inner go.
Its about this time you even forget about how bad you wanted to meet them.
We had a very profound conversation last night about how much we have healed in the past 10 years...it was our deepest conversation to date. No matter that it lasted for 6 hours! lol
So its clear that we have balanced our male and female Energy. I through an intensive study of Quantom Physics, Alchemy, Metaphysics, Astrology, Acting and Psychology. Him through at 7 year study of Psychology. He had to spend 5 years learning himself and basically profiling his own personality. Of course for me studying has been like remembering so it has not been hard at all. And as I take command of my past lives I understand why I am the way I am..and my most recent undertaking has been how to learn to control and manage this emotional life I have now.
The profound answer has been that
"Emotions are magical ingredients. The right blend provides the perfect effect."
Which is phenominal to me. Because before me stands this beautiful man. Who knows himself well. Knows his likes and dislikes and makes decisions based on them to produce harmony and decrease chaos.
He has a Capricorn Ascendant which gives him a quiet strength. This sternness animates from him that makes him feel edgy and street smart...and he is very no nonsense person in public. He is the man that I have to come back too and say "Baby its no big deal" if someone offends me, he instantly defends me and he lets it go because he reads something in my eyes that says its ok. And if my reasons for doing that are not strong enough he will override them. In this he is strengthening my connection to the Divine Masculine as my souls Essence now feels bathe in its sunlight...Ra's essence always reminds me of the Sun...just as the Suns rays reminds me of him...
I found this the other day:
""If the universe is an organism composed of living beings in all stages of growth, stars like our Sun are the visible raiments of bright celestial entities whom we may properly call gods. Far ahead of us in their spiritual evolution, they represent a certain class of beings whose inner aspects are invisible, just as the aspects that make and drive a human being are. The bright disk we see in the sky is not the true sun, but merely the visible effect of its energies on our physical plane. Similarly, electricity per se is invisible, yet we can see an electric spark because the passage of electricity through the resistance of the air makes its effects visible. The Master KH says:
The fact is, that what you call the sun is simply the reflection of the huge "store-house" of our System wherein ALL its forces are generated and preserved; the sun being the heart and brain of our pigmy Universe, we might compare its faculae -- those millions of small, intensely brilliant bodies of which the sun's surface away from the spots is made up -- with the blood corpuscles of that luminary . . . -- The Mahatma Letters, p. 164
We should remember that, in the initiation of daily experience, a portion of our spiritual heart is solar substance to which we shall return self-consciously one day. In our lives here and now, we can strive to identify with the solar essence of ourselves, keeping in mind that in the distant future, if we run the evolutionary race aright, we shall assume the tremendous responsibilities of our father/mother/elder/ brother (whatever the Sun symbolizes for you) -- and become a star ourselves!"
---Sunrise Magazine, Theosophical University Press"
Amazing right... so by finding the Sun in my self my inner god shines brigher and brighter and it is like the dawn of the morning on my soul...He said last night that he sees me as a budding flower and that my light has only begun to shine.
So profound his mind...AND his Spirit
last night he said the sweetest thing I have ever had someone say to me. We were talking about going out and I said thats one of those days that I would have to go home to keep from ruining your night...and he said then I would go home with you...and I said why and he said because my night would not be the same without, so I will save myself the torture of trying to make it the same and be with you.
This sums up the Energy between us. This has been perfecting itself since we met in March...but now I am starting to really be able to see how it works.
I know see it growing into its height and depth and I am amazed. Where I find myself Energetically is Shambalah...and I cant help but think is that why I met him in my dreams before I actually met him and he said "Welcome to Shambalah".
Now that my Tibetan past life has flooded back to me I know now know that I have a karmic tie to Shambalah, a gift earned from many past lives connected to Source and living as one. He has this same tie. For Shambalah is where we are when I dream of him.
Our Astral dates have become at least 3 or 4 times night. And recently we had the same dream. So we came to an understanding that our work will begin on the Astral first...and above so below.
Consider this info I have gleaned about twin souls in my studies:
More than likely you have come together before in past lives. And you may have crossed paths already in this life as well. If we are not ready though it will be electrifying and transformational but short lived unless we can keep up with the fast pace of the Universe.
Consider this as well from my own thoughts.
Wouldnt it make since for all our previous soulmate relationships to be a progressive movenment up the Chakra system. For instance opening our bottom Chakra would resonate with lower emotional based relationships in which guilt, anger and fear were all the foundation and initially these are at the beggining of our relationship experience.
I feel to that not all will be here to meet and work with there Twin Souls...this is a tall spiritual order...but I have been groomed for it. It as though my life has been building up to this moment and living in the now has become this amazing privilege and at the same time sustainer of balance in a way I never knew.
But I have had soulmate relationships each progressively getting sweet and of higher frequency each time til the last one was one of love just not of an unconditional nature and I would not accept it...and then Sean appeared.
So for those of us seeking our Twin Souls because this is our lifepath it seems that we would have a full or at least active 5th and 7th house by either personal planets Vertex or NN.
That being said an examination of his chart and my chart show that My Vertex is in the 5th and his in the 7th...I have a 7th house Mecury and Venus though.
His are empty. Conversely I have dealt with much more destructive relationships than him. He has really only had one partner for the past 18 years. I have had probably 4 or 5 that I had significant committed relationships with and considering he is 10 years older than me this says alot.
Clearly it is I who brings the Divine Feminine to the picture and he brings the Divine Masculine...within which each essence there abides a certain freqeuency that is indeed identical to the same frequency in the other. We both have identical frequencies existing in the opposite bodies of Energy.