posted October 19, 2012 06:56 AM            

So I had saturn in libra giving me a hard time in relationships, family and everything else. Now I have finally got to a point where career is ok, but the place and area in UK I am living in is not.

The university environment is not conducive to meeting guys who are serious...the guys my age at least. I have worked hard on WHY my last relationship was the way it is, dealt with family issues and come to terms with it. So why then, if I am being good, healthy, I feel so conflicted? My job is good but feel I have no where to turn to reach a better future. Am doing qualifications and extra things to make sure I have some options but when it comes to men, it seems saturn lessons are tied up now. The stories have ended from those specific connections...but feel like giving up.

Its not enough...to be successful and work hard(how else do I pay my bills??)but I deserve love and happiness too.

It was interesting Ian Thorpe, the Aussie swimmer was discussing depression in his autobiography. I had mild depression this spring (last winter too) and sometimes wonder if these feelings of worthlessness or giving up come from that too. Naturally I am an optimist...

posted October 22, 2012 01:35 PM            

What do you mean you have no where to turn for a better future? There is always the option of getting a better job. A career is much easier to have, as you know if you work for the qualifications, etc., there is always a job waiting for you somewhere.

With a guy, we're dealing with people and we can never know what goes on inside other peoples' minds. Give it time and focus on yourself. I know it's cliche, but don't be miserable about the fact that you're single. It's better to be single than settle for someone who isn't compatible with you. The most important relationship in life is the relationship you have with yourself...If your bond to your psyche is strong, you will exude that confidence, and you don't need outside validation to be happy.

Much love.

posted October 22, 2012 04:17 PM            

Thank you for your kind words. I realised that depression does not always go away. Naturally I am a fighter and optimist but those moments of darkness or thoughts that drag you to a place where you feel helpess are bound up in that.

I made a vow to myself to begin to enjoy life again, take each day and enjoy and have fun. I have been serious for past year and half dealing with heavy issues but have come through that (yes moments do linger) and as soon as I changed my perception, things started to happen. I connected with two interesting guys (who I would not have perhaps normally noticed...)and have been asked out. So its a start for sure. I remind myself we are on this earth for a reason...

Sparkling

posted October 25, 2012 08:15 AM            

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Originally posted by TrueTaurus:
SparklingSag,

I sympathize. It is only recently that I have stopped being depressed (never thought that'd happen for me). But my anxiety is still there...Sometimes when you deal with these things for so long, it might be wise to seek professional help. I did, and it has worked miraculously. Now it depends on the biological makeup of the person, but I've been very fortunate. I wish you the best, and seek help, whether it's a someone to talk to, holistic, or meditation, etc.

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Hi TT

Oh I have had therapy for past year and half. I think it was lingering anxiety or depression symptoms that come and go. I see my therapist when I need to so am doing very good actually but it is learning to control and deal with the symptoms when they come.

I am going for a date tonight! So things looking up...