posted November 27, 2013 09:10 PM            

Today fishy came to me he said
"I'm not ready or willing to let this end between us, and I KNOW your not either"

I told him, are you sure you want to have this conversation?
He said yes I am...

I told him, I just can't go through this again, that I don't deny the desire and the wanting to, but my head just saying nah girl, don't do it...
I told him, the feelings are still there, but the ego is in the way..
He asked why, I said 6 months ago you told me you had to walk away, and you did..
You just can't come back, it doesn't work that way..
He said but your suppose to always be there for me..
I thought that it was a given. (Really?????) he laughed.
(He said it in a joking manner, but he was serious)
I said I just can't right now, maybe later things will change, but right now my head is just saying it's not a good idea..
When you said you were walking away, I said ok.. I'm not the type of person that will come after you, I will let you go,if that's what you want..
He said look when I said that, we were arguing. And I got ****** off, so I told you I was walking away..
I told him, but you can't un say it, plus you did walk away.
He said, I never walked away.. We got into an argument and we both stopped speaking for a month..
Then we made up, but still had hard feelings between us, but now everything is going really good between us...
So now I'm telling you I'm not ready to let this go..
I said I just can't... I can't do it...
I told him he hasn't earned the honor to have me back.
(Ok so that's my Leo talking) lol
He said ok.... I understand..

I said are you sad, he said no, I'm cool..
I said gee at least tell me your devastated and about to cry or something..
We both then laughed, and then changed the subject..

He said you know when ever I feel down or upset, you just seem to call me and make me laugh, you have a way a just making me feel better

That's that, well for now...
Only I know he won't give up....
This is honestly the most difficult relationship ever...

posted November 28, 2013 11:17 AM            

((( Lioness )))

Hang in there.

I hope you'll feel at peace about this all, soon.

posted November 28, 2013 01:23 PM            

How is he like you?

posted November 28, 2013 02:00 PM            

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Originally posted by Lioness:

How is he like you?

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We have the same way of suddenly changing directions for no apparent reason (the reasons are there, people just don't see them), and take for granted that the turmoil doesn't change the general outlook of the relationship.
My gosh, it's soooooooo me lol

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Maybe you can explain, what the heck he's doing.. Lol

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posted November 28, 2013 02:08 PM            

Moon
Trine Jupiter

Merc/sun
Sq Uranus
Opps Saturn

posted November 28, 2013 02:22 PM            

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Originally posted by Lioness:
Venus Sq Pluto
Sextile Uranus
Trine Saturn

Moon Trine Jupiter

Merc/sun Sq Uranus
Opps Saturn

Mars Trine pluto

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No Neptune aspects?

I have Pluto trine Mercury, opp Venus and sq Saturn
Uranus trine Sun trine Saturn
Neptune trine Moon, sq Sun, sextile Mercury

Do you know why he told you he had to go away?
I think what he tells you/doesn't tell you could be the key.
If he's like me, the outer planets lose a lot of grip when forced to verbalize.
If not, they can poison the relationship cyclically FOR-EVER. As long as the (bad) feeling is secret it will keep coming back again and again. Sometimes I forget about stuff and everything's fine, and then something reminds me of it, and back to Trouble - Day one.

posted November 28, 2013 02:51 PM            

We were having a disagreement the day he said he was walking away.. But neither of us remember what about..
He doesn't even remember he said that...

posted November 28, 2013 02:51 PM            

We were having a disagreement the day he said he was walking away.. But neither of us remember what about..
He doesn't even remember he said that...

posted November 28, 2013 02:57 PM            

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Originally posted by Lioness:
Oo up yeah forgot
He has mars sextile Neptune..

We were having a disagreement the day he said he was walking away.. But neither of us remember what about..
He doesn't even remember he said that...

He said, if I said that, it's cuz u said something that would cause me to say that... IMO..

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posted November 28, 2013 03:11 PM            

No we don't remember, he said he's thinking about calling the cell transcripts and looking.. Lol
But it wasn't over a text... So neither of us have a clue..

We were going through a period where we would disagree once a week, and stop talking.. Then talk again..

posted November 28, 2013 03:41 PM            

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Originally posted by Lioness:
It's been really rocky between us for the last year..

No we don't remember, he said he's thinking about calling the cell transcripts and looking.. Lol
But it wasn't over a text... So neither of us have a clue..

We were going through a period where we would disagree once a week, and stop talking.. Then talk again..

At one point I got so angry at him, I totally lost it, and went into fu mode...
At that time we didn't talk for a month...
We made up, but still had some hurt..
Just recently have we been getting along alot better.

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posted November 28, 2013 04:29 PM            

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Originally posted by dadoo:
You sound very pacified, though.
You must have been through a lot to have reached such detachment.

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Ahh hon.. You can't even imagine..
It's been going back and fourth like this for 4 years now...

posted November 28, 2013 04:49 PM            

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Originally posted by Lioness:
Ahh hon.. You can't even imagine..
It's been going back and fourth like this for 4 years now...

He just called me wanting to do something tomorrow, but I said no, I can't I have plans...
Even though I don't..

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