posted April 24, 2014 10:17 PM
...of friendship that's obviously not working!!He's a wood dragon taurus, I'm a fire tiger pisces so big age difference.
For anyone that read through this i appreciate it. Sorry for the upset tone, I am frustrated but also venting, so I will be better after this but any, any insight or advice is appreciated!!
We never dated, we were just emotionally got intensely close because of events surrounding us/many coincidences (I'll spare you the story, too long) Then I was the one who started liking him but he said he wont date me due to age difference (which may be ******** he dated a woman a year younger than me before). So I accepted then went away, thought case closed, but I was wrong. He never let me go "as a friend" and always tried to get me back (in many ways, such as 'accidentally' seeing me somewhere etc), all the time he always have girlfriends too.
We had a big fight finally about this (him not respecting my feelings), then we both went away to other countries separately for a couple of months for work. No contact from me, in fact I deleted all his infos from anywhere. I thought it was over then. but 3 months later he texted me while drunk, asking if i'm ok to meet up. I feel bad and i thought I could handle it, so we did, had a good time, then he told me he has a new girlfriend he likes a lot (his age, same interests, same level income/intelligence etc, perfect match). I said good you deserve it, I was happy but I realized I couldn't handle it then I told him (amicably) that I appreciate him a lot but i still can't keep our friendship. I explained it from A-Z why this so-called friendship cannot work out, he seemed to understand this time but not actually agreeing, citing that never say never, we'll connect again in the future and can be friends blah blah but I put my foot down and ended it that night (plus he invited his girlfriend to see me near the end of our meet... which I think he secretly regretted since I made my decision that night and he had no time to argue my points.)
I thought again case closed. No more contact from me. Weeks passed, we accidentally attended a same birthday event in a busy bar. I didnt talk to him, busy packed bar, so it's ok to avoid anyway. Once i started talking to a guy, he came to us and asked if the beer on my table was his, which was obviously not... Then he went on to kiss my head and told me he knows im avoiding him, then he left. What was he doing? I resumed no contact. Out of the blue he sent me text weeks later, talking about some events happening in the city (that he thinks i'm involved in, which I was), then wanting to know how I was. I was confused so asked a friend what happened, and apparently he's been asking her about me, which made my friend questioned him back and made him promise her to not disturb or hurt me anymore which he agreed. But I guess he broke his own promise because yesterday he sent me text AGAIN asking me if i could come to his 50th birthday party in two different locations on different days. but this time he is more careful in phrasing it, telling me he understands otherwise, though it would be nice to see me...
He is still with his girlfriend.
Yes we connect really well, communicate superbly about anything and everything, even we admitted we secretly enjoy our arguments (even the big one, as weird as it sounded). We somehow calm each other nerves even if we don't say anything to each other. But the fact is I fell for him and he doesn't, so this will not work. Logically speaking, he's being way too stubborn for something that's just becoming more of a burden than anything else. This makes no sense. He is not that into me and I accepted that but why he keeps at this, like this?
Chart etc wise I think there's nothing special in our synastry or composite (though i am bad at reading them so if anyone can or would like to help me decipher, let me know), so I don't know why he can't let go, even though I was the one who's liking him.
I did not want to burn bridges but should I ? I still care about him, I just wonder why he's being so stubborn. I was hoping he would understand and then let me go, but I guess not.
Any insight or even if you'd like to laugh at this silly drama, feel free. THANK YOU for bearing with me. I'm spent!