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Topic: I was about to dance for my twin flame until!
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whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 14, 2016 12:10 PM
  
I was about to be with my twin flame until some guy I was interested in showed me this:https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=aVevvbFNKiY "Do you think I'm a clown," he asked? And handed me his phone. That morning I had woken up and was ready to dance, until my roommate's boyfriend emerged from their room. I was dancing to bounce by Solace. And when I heard him exit, I quickly stopped. Some conversation transpired, but he left the room quickly to relieve himself. I could tell because he wasn't in the restroom long. And when he emerged his face was red.
He had been showering me with attention, and I tried to ignore, as I was fearful that my Roommate may discover.
I had feelings for him. I did. But not as much as my twin flame. Then my world shattered, I felt so bad later that night. And then I started trying to impress him and lead him back to my roommate, but then I got scared to be with my twin flame and went back to him. The Pity and guilt had me want to start again with him. That morning I had gone out to breakfast with my boyfriend, and didn't until later that night get the memo of what he meant by this song and those words. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 14, 2016 12:26 PM
I sent him 2 messages he never read to try and explain it to him, and I think he still hopes. He didn't even read them. But he posted since, and about stuff I was interested in. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 14, 2016 12:30 PM
I was going to dance for my twin flame until my best friend started taking a romantic interest in me. I had no idea why. My BF was asleep, and he showed me an anime pic of two cute young teenagers nuzzling each other. He put on this song;
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ytBR7ET_6uU
I didn't know how to tell him "no" and I got a little dazed by it all, I had never really had a cute encounter like this. It was cute, but I knew it would never go anywhere. Still I felt bad, and maybe encouraged because of this. I felt bad because I had been on that opposite end. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 14, 2016 12:34 PM
With the first, I never have alone time with him to explain. But he always try's to grab my guineas and play with them, and impress me. He's kind of nerdy. My current boyfriend I would consider more a Geek lol...I know this is terrible.
But a nerd to me is like the Wannabe version of a Geek. Lol.
You know those guys who love superheroes and have a million random facts. But he also is a very good psycho analyzer better then me. Or I thought so anyway. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 14, 2016 12:57 PM
I was going to dance for my twin flame, until I told my current boyfriend the truth. And began to cry hysterically, when he started to weep. I felt horrid. Absolutely horrid.
I felt so sorrowful.
I cheated on my current boyfriend with him.
But he has a drinking problem and I got my boyfriend to pray for him yesterday due to this. Does that sound strange? IP: Logged |
Randall
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From: Saturn next to Charmaine
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 15, 2016 04:01 PM
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whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 18, 2016 02:33 PM
I also said some bad things. What I meant when I looked at him with raging eyes and said that to his face was when I was looking for something at his house. And I received some unwanted act. In my mind at the time, this act justified a few things. Also another act that had to do with me doing some laundry. but I think it was because I really wasn't expecting it as I had never had that kind of attention before. I yelled that word out at his Uncle out of frustration.
Should have been honest that night.
I thought he would hate me. And I am sorry. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 18, 2016 02:42 PM
And I said to my friend that he did. But I knew he didn't believe me to begin with.
And besides, My friend forgets things. Why? Because I'm an idiot. And I was angry. But now I stand up and take responsibility IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 18, 2016 04:05 PM
But maybe I did for other reasons too. I don't know, maybe in the back of my mind I thought that I would never see him again. And I was content for that at the time. I knew nothing would have ever come about legally. Knew that for a fact. But I wanted to slander his name to ruin him financially.
And I am sorry for that. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 18, 2016 04:09 PM
But I didn't go out and tell a bunch of people that. I only told my one friend. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 18, 2016 04:13 PM
He told me I didn't have it that bad. But I saw the same in him because everybody loved him. And no one could have given a **** about me, accept for Brian.IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 18, 2016 04:16 PM
While I picked up his messes at the apartment. Caring for my intoxicated friend who chose him over me. When he got dropped off at the house for the drug sales he did for him. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Knowflake Posts: 3282
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 18, 2016 05:01 PM
Reason I wanted to get pregnant is because a baby would have made our families accept each other, and accept us. It would have worked for him that way anyway. Because we have the same views on family. IP: Logged |
Aubyanne
Moderator Posts: 6419
From: Tinseltown, Hollyweird, The Multiverse
Registered: Sep 2014
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posted June 09, 2016 03:01 AM
What does 'twin flame' mean to you, whitewitch?IP: Logged |
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