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eyes_like_pisces
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posted May 07, 2017 02:16 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for eyes_like_pisces     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
On Wednesday I had a really nice day and found myself in a metaphysical store, inspiring me to want to reconnect with my spiritual interests. And I'd like to say I'm grateful to always have the LL community to come back to.

I have so many thoughts regaurding love and my love life floating around in my head. Which tends to happen everytime me and my S.O. have a "fight."

I've been with man for over four years. We met when i was ready to settle down. What i mean is I had been a parent for sometime and I literally had tracked down the guy that sounded perfect on paper. I was drawn to how trustworthy and full of integrity he seemed.

We've had our issues though. In the beginning of the relationship I saw just how insecure/jealous he could be. (Scorpio influences) Accusing me of things. Not pretty; but only a couple of occurances. Then slowly I started to learn about his quirks. Germ phobia, particular about his possessions (virgo influences). And its these things that have caused us, me mostly, major issues.

A number of people that I have confided in over these things have said he sounded emotionally manipilative, and suspicious.

So last night I had mistakenly gone through his bag of belongings that I had mistaken as someone elses and he seemed furious with me. Like I had violated his privacy nothing worth mentioning was found.

And these quirks just seriously make me doubt that we'll ever live together. Which in 4 years has hardly gotten any closer to fruition.

So I've sort of slowly lost faith in the relationship. I felt this way after the last fight which I had written about somewhere on LL. But I just can't seem to walk away. (His saturn conjunct my moon). I dont feel right about walking away ultimately over stupid "fights" reguarding things like say cleanliness or time management. Nor over my doubts abouts our future since we're no where near it. I can't imagine walking away because i went into this thinking "this is it."

And for the most part things are good between us.

The odd thing this weekend is, the day after this fight, I find out someone else might be interested in me that I would equally be interested in. This occurance - the timing of it etc - seems almost fated to me. And he seems to sweet/warm. Where my bf at times can be very cold.

Ive had to tell myself though that this guy right now is a fantasy. Everbody has flaws, I just don't know his.

And I could never see myself as walking away from a relationship for someone else. Makes me feel kinda of sick to my stomach. But he could be the one that got away kind of thing.

I just needed someone to listen.

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Randall
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posted May 07, 2017 02:20 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
*hug*

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eyes_like_pisces
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posted May 08, 2017 12:38 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for eyes_like_pisces     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thanks Randall!

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Randall
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posted May 09, 2017 12:39 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
You're welcome.

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posted May 10, 2017 10:43 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thanks for sharing.

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posted May 11, 2017 03:34 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Love is never easy.

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posted May 12, 2017 12:23 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Unevolved Scorpio and Virgo tendencies can be tough.

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posted May 13, 2017 07:33 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Or any Sign can be.

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posted May 14, 2017 01:59 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for eyes_like_pisces     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
You're awesome randall!

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posted May 15, 2017 02:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

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posted June 04, 2017 03:27 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for sugarflapjacks     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

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posted June 05, 2017 11:44 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
You can always retreat at LL.

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posted June 12, 2017 06:12 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for sugarflapjacks     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by Randall:
You can always retreat at LL.

Thank you, Randall.

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