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Topic: Would like to reflect and share my troubles
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eyes_like_pisces Knowflake Posts: 448 From: mpls, mn, usa Registered: Feb 2013
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posted May 07, 2017 02:16 AM
On Wednesday I had a really nice day and found myself in a metaphysical store, inspiring me to want to reconnect with my spiritual interests. And I'd like to say I'm grateful to always have the LL community to come back to.I have so many thoughts regaurding love and my love life floating around in my head. Which tends to happen everytime me and my S.O. have a "fight." I've been with man for over four years. We met when i was ready to settle down. What i mean is I had been a parent for sometime and I literally had tracked down the guy that sounded perfect on paper. I was drawn to how trustworthy and full of integrity he seemed. We've had our issues though. In the beginning of the relationship I saw just how insecure/jealous he could be. (Scorpio influences) Accusing me of things. Not pretty; but only a couple of occurances. Then slowly I started to learn about his quirks. Germ phobia, particular about his possessions (virgo influences). And its these things that have caused us, me mostly, major issues. A number of people that I have confided in over these things have said he sounded emotionally manipilative, and suspicious. So last night I had mistakenly gone through his bag of belongings that I had mistaken as someone elses and he seemed furious with me. Like I had violated his privacy nothing worth mentioning was found. And these quirks just seriously make me doubt that we'll ever live together. Which in 4 years has hardly gotten any closer to fruition. So I've sort of slowly lost faith in the relationship. I felt this way after the last fight which I had written about somewhere on LL. But I just can't seem to walk away. (His saturn conjunct my moon). I dont feel right about walking away ultimately over stupid "fights" reguarding things like say cleanliness or time management. Nor over my doubts abouts our future since we're no where near it. I can't imagine walking away because i went into this thinking "this is it." And for the most part things are good between us. The odd thing this weekend is, the day after this fight, I find out someone else might be interested in me that I would equally be interested in. This occurance - the timing of it etc - seems almost fated to me. And he seems to sweet/warm. Where my bf at times can be very cold. Ive had to tell myself though that this guy right now is a fantasy. Everbody has flaws, I just don't know his. And I could never see myself as walking away from a relationship for someone else. Makes me feel kinda of sick to my stomach. But he could be the one that got away kind of thing. I just needed someone to listen. IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 07, 2017 02:20 PM
*hug*IP: Logged |
eyes_like_pisces Knowflake Posts: 448 From: mpls, mn, usa Registered: Feb 2013
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posted May 08, 2017 12:38 AM
Thanks Randall! IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 09, 2017 12:39 PM
You're welcome.IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 10, 2017 10:43 AM
Thanks for sharing.IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 11, 2017 03:34 PM
Love is never easy.IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 12, 2017 12:23 PM
Unevolved Scorpio and Virgo tendencies can be tough.IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 13, 2017 07:33 AM
Or any Sign can be.IP: Logged |
eyes_like_pisces Knowflake Posts: 448 From: mpls, mn, usa Registered: Feb 2013
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posted May 14, 2017 01:59 AM
You're awesome randall! IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 15, 2017 02:08 PM
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sugarflapjacks Knowflake Posts: 273 From: southeasternseaboard Registered: Sep 2013
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posted June 04, 2017 03:27 AM
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Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted June 05, 2017 11:44 AM
You can always retreat at LL.IP: Logged |
sugarflapjacks Knowflake Posts: 273 From: southeasternseaboard Registered: Sep 2013
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posted June 12, 2017 06:12 AM
quote: Originally posted by Randall: You can always retreat at LL.
Thank you, Randall. IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 05, 2018 09:03 AM
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Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 07, 2018 06:08 PM
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posted November 12, 2018 02:40 PM
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Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted November 25, 2018 03:05 PM
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posted December 20, 2018 06:11 PM
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posted January 23, 2019 02:12 PM
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posted February 18, 2019 11:54 AM
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posted March 27, 2019 03:38 PM
Hope things are better.IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 120775 From: From a galaxy, far, far away... Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 20, 2019 11:55 AM
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