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GalacticCoreExplosionV2
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posted January 04, 2022 01:09 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosionV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Nm. Like a Mandala carefully crafted by a Buddhist monk, it is then just swept away.

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posted January 04, 2022 02:55 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Eternal Energy     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Your birthday is in a few days, maybe you should focus on that! At least for now... What do you think?... Come on, you can't miss your birthday!

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posted January 04, 2022 12:56 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosionV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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posted January 04, 2022 05:22 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Sauerkraut     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
can very much relate. dont think knowing if its real or not, changes anything much. seems unconscious feelings stay. the times when i wanted nothing to do with him and didnt even think about him consciously, situations in life/with people, appearance/mannerisms of people.. intense dreams, etc. would remind me all the f*cking time. LIKE WHAT IS THIS SORCERY. seems like letting go is key, but it is almost impossible - to not be "allowed" to forget and to not be obsessed over it is a super fine line to walk. even if they come around, it doesnt really make it easier or less painful unfortunately.

wrote a bunch of stuff in response to you in the other thread over the past week or so but it got too journal-ly and ended up scrapping most of it. dont think it would help relieve any of the pain anyway. i have read a lot of your other posts about her. i understand and agree that it feels like the worst pain.

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posted January 04, 2022 10:53 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosionV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

I understand what you mean, but for a Capricorn with strong Virgo, Jupiter, and Mercury, the idea of being majorly self deluded is pretty distasteful and upsetting in and of itself. But yes, even if I knew beyond a doubt, with complete certainty that we are indeed twin souls, that she does have deep feelings for me, etc, there would still be some pain because we are not together in the physical.

Spiritually I know that doesn't even matter, because at a more expanded consciousness level, we are together/completely connecte, but of late I have a hard time tapping into/feeling that. Perhaps because of how little I'm focusing on spiritual attunement in general lately and more focused on the material.

Anyways, I really appreciate your reply and sharing some of your own experience with all this. From what I remember reading previously, it sounded like you in an active, relationship/connection with the person you feel very intensely about, presently?

I may re-post what I had earlier wrote and leave it up for a few days.

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posted January 04, 2022 10:56 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosionV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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posted January 05, 2022 10:41 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Sauerkraut     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by GalacticCoreExplosionV2:

From what I remember reading previously, it sounded like you in an active, relationship/connection with the person you feel very intensely about, presently?

hmm not in the standard sense. we talk to/see each other sporadically - definitely not at a normal frequency one would expect anyway for such a connection. [edited out] we want to see each other but there really is too much going on, externally and internally. we barely text each other as it is.

general breakdown of our ridiculouship:
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some of what i wrote this past week:
dont think any human in their right mind would consciously choose this type of connection, this "[w]tf journey" (if it is one), on the chance that there could be a merge.

he is in my life and i deeply appreciate it however i am on my own most of the time. not a normal any kind of-ship. he more-so helps me evolve because he exists within me. it is more of an unconscious help rather than a conscious deliberate one (or so it seems). his mere existence triggers me to heal, to look within for solutions. the desire to merge is multi-layered and tortuous - i want to merge with him at all levels because i feel source energy that is most like mine flowing thru him. carnal desire and pain become the motivators on the path of divine purification. and only when purification is reached, will there even be a chance to reunite. and in time, we intertwine to heal and purify each other on the path back. but is this real? what is really real?

in flesh, he is much much more withholding than i am. he has a capricorn moon in the 12th, square to pluto. mars conjunct saturn, square sun. vesta conjunct an aqua asc. i am in a dance with a reserved, skeptical, stressed out erratic boulder that NEEDS space/alone time - in which external factors make almost non-existent and is also not consciously prioritized. however hidden under that exterior is someone who is exceptionally considerate and thoughtful - something i did not see perhaps because i was too impatient and a bit selfish initially.

thru certain conflict, it has become increasingly obvious that we BOTH need a lot of space/freedom and dont like feeling controlled or pressed - or else implosion/explosion happens - old self would have called it "commitment issues", current self calls it individual sovereignty. both of us would have to let go of all expectations of what a relationship is suppose to be like for it to even have a chance in the material dimension. this is only a working theory/solution anyway as our connection is in a state of perpetual flux and we have not had the time to put things into perspective lately.

we have come to value each others processes. from a superficial observation, it still seems quite chaotic, uncertain and unhealthy. while the undercurrent is actually quite stable, dependable and healthy. he might not respond to me for a week or address a glaring issue between us or try to mend a conflict.. but when we do connect and i bring things to light in a non-aggressive way, he acknowledges matters of concern thoroughly, indirectly reveals reasons for certain behavior and shows consideration in his actions.

he has always been more allowing of my space and freedom, a need that was camouflaged by my fears. he was someone who didnt get mad at me for responding on my own time, someone who didnt treat me like i owed him my time or energy. someone who respected my boundaries before i knew how to respect them myself. i reflected in kind until it became habitual.

(will probably delete or edit out stuff/no quote please)

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posted January 05, 2022 10:52 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Sauerkraut     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
thanks for re-posting. obviously different journeys but similar in some ways.

i get it about the self-delusion. personally i do not look at synchronicities anymore as they are happening all the time for everything, ime. focusing on that stuff really throws me off balance mentally.

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posted January 05, 2022 07:32 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosionV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
That really sucks about your partner's brother--I'm sure that really upsets and stresses him out quite a bit on some level.

Holy Cheese and Crackers and Mary, Mother of Christ that sounds like quite an intense roller coaster ride. Don't think I could have survived such a pattern personally--would have probably had an emotional-mental breakdown.

Haha, the ridiculouship...

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posted January 06, 2022 08:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Sauerkraut     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
that seems very unbalanced for sure, plus social media and most external displays of character tend to be veils anyway. she is on the younger side too and that probably plays into her current experience a good deal - especially when christ consciousness is activated with an undisciplined mind. since the ego is broken down during such an intense experience and an ego is very much needed to survive in this dimension, an undisciplined mind will more than likely reconstruct an ego that will be quite unhealthy. definitely one that will not be able to hold or maintain the powers that were bestowed during the experience. agree - fully containing simultaneous existence of the differing realities is an ability not of this dense world.

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posted January 06, 2022 08:11 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Sauerkraut     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
have a good recharge on your "vacation" (and birthday), Galactic.

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posted January 06, 2022 09:25 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosionV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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posted January 07, 2022 08:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Sauerkraut     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
keen dream interpretation. makes sense. yes honoring and protecting self-energy is especially important for [currently] off-centered sensitives (and humans in general). something i still forget to prioritize but there seems to be reminders abound, positive and negative.

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posted January 08, 2022 11:37 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosionV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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