posted April 17, 2008 11:55 PM         

did you have some sort of death of someone very special growing up? I suspect possibly your mother.
"I felt like my mother had died for me. When I was small I felt like my mother had died because I felt so detached from the mother I had because of the circumstances from above."

Your childhood was likely very chaotic or just very unusual in some way. It was different.
"My mother used to beat me. I was verbally and physically abused by my mother. Both my parents used violence to make their points or to harm me. I grew up feeling lonely and unloved."

Your relationship with women can be very distant and cold, is it hard to form friendships with women sometimes?
"Yes, because of the circumstances above I am unable to feel close to women because I never felt close to my mother. I felt detached and unaccepted by her so that shaped the relationships that I had and have with women. I can't find myself relating to them or feeling warmth towards them because I never felt this from my own mother as I was growing up."

Did you come from a rich/welloff family?
"We grew up poor, but as my parents sent money to my country we grew up with many items in El Salvador that other children wish they had. When we came to this country my father and mother were working making about $50,000 combined income in the 80's So, we never starved or needed items, but I didn't grow up rich. My parents saved all of the money that they could in return we didn't get a lot of luxuries in the US."

For you to be emotionally happy, you need money/possessions, otherwise you become insecure.
"This is true. I feel that I need to have money and certain posessions. Money means security for me. I feel good when I go shopping or when I purchase items online. It's therapy for me."

You're probably attracted to strange, unusual men, probably very intellectual types. You need a talker for a partner. You are attracted to strong physiques, dramatic, regal men. They might be cocky, but very affectionate. I think you might be attracted to an exotic, foreigner type, or you might end up with one.
"Gosh, I've been with my boyfriend who is from Honduras. There is a man who I am in love with but, recently got married he's Jewish and is intellectual, strange, and cocky. He has a sense of regalness about him. As a matter of fact today I saw a man that fit this description to a tee and I had to *sigh*. I do feel that I need intellectual and strong men. I usually tend to attract strange me who other women would probably not look at twice, but I find a certain sexyness and attractiveness to them."

Your friendships are very important to you, and you probably have many friends.
"I believe that I do have a lot of friends. Though, I lack true honest best friends. I tend to stay away from these kinds of friendships and look for friendships without commitments. This causes too much drama for me."

Traveling, education, are things youre very interested in. I see you possibly being some sort of writer, maybe a poet, fiction, or writer in general?
"I love reading, I love books, sometimes I even write short stories or poems. I want to travel very soon. Possibly Hawaii or Mexico."