posted March 12, 2009 07:23 PM         

just f---ing lie to me

and tell me i am going to meet someone

please

posted March 12, 2009 10:27 PM         

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i want to die

just f---ing lie to me

and tell me i am going to meet someone

please

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Steve,

Is this a cry for help?

You are worthy.

Do you see it as a lie?

You are going to meet someone, if you leave your computer and visit a different place.

That person you meet might bore you.

Or taking you by surprise.

Are these all lies?

You are going to meet someone.

If you meant meeting someone online...

Well, here I am!

Salvation is in your own hands, only you can be your own savior.

Keep it up!

D

posted March 13, 2009 12:10 AM         

You poor little lamb chop, this need for love is really taking a bite out of your hide isn't it?

I did a quick Tarot for you.

3 cards

1. Situation as it is

Queen of Pentacles

Briefly: You are on your way to fame and fortune.

Full Meaning: The picture on this card shows a beautiful woman wearing lovely clothes and a crown on her head, placed on top of lovely beaded headwear. She holds in front of her a large pentacle and her hands are slim and well manicured. She wears a special ring, which has a large oval stone set in it, which is possibly a ruby. There are mountains in the background, similar to those in Hawaii. There is foliage around her and nuts growing on these. Generally she has blue eyes, though could have any eye colour. If you are this person, you are on your way to fame and fortune. You may come into a windfall, marry well, or somehow stumble upon a unique way to increase your income. You will be well liked by your friends and loved by your family and husband. You are serious, yet vulnerable. You are calm, yet can be set back by those who stir conflict around you. The comforts of life are important, more so for your own peace within your own mind knowing that you have what you need. If you are not this woman, then you will meet someone like her who supports you in many and varied ways. If you are a female, this woman will become your most ardent fan and friend. If you are a male, this woman may become your lover or your wife. Cherish her, for she is loyal and affectionate and has your best interests at heart.

2.Course of Action to be Taken

King of Cups

Briefly: A proposal or proposition.

Full Meaning: This card shows a man dressed in armour. He is holding a cup, as if offering it to someone on front of him. In the background is a blue sky, a river and some mountains and lush green trees and grass. It appears to be a Spring day. The man is clean shaven and good looking. He wears his uniform proudly. If this is you, then you may be about to propose to the object of your affection. If this is someone you know, then you may be on the receiving end of a proposal or proposition from this man. He is affectionate and caring and offers his pledge with sincerity and love. There could also be a new job offer and this may also involve a place at a distance.

3.New Situation that Will Evolve

Two of Swords

Briefly: There are decisions to be made.

Full Meaning: To draw this card shows that there are decisions to be made. However all the facts may not be in at this point in time. There could be something about to crop up that you are not aware of and it may come to light later. Often something is not seen in the clear light of day or there is an unknown factor involved. Time is often of the essence and it is usually worth waiting it out for awhile to see what may arise to clarify the issue. Making a decision with all the facts is much easier than with only half the information.
Sometimes this card can indicate a problem with the eyes. Maybe an operation will be required, an injury may occur, or glasses need to be prescribed, or new glasses or some other matter involving the eyesight.
If this card is not you, or is unlikely to represent any situation directly involving you, then it is possible that it may relate to someone close to you. They may need your insight, or wisdom to help them sort out a dilemma they are in. There may be a situation where someone has to choose between two differing options and is not sure which is the most appropriate one to select.

So in a nut shell this is telling me A. The first card is showing the type of woman you desire in your life & B. You are so ready for someone that you have permanency on your mind even though you are still single, you want to settle down & C. There are unknown factors at play in the immediate future of which you need to think carefully before taking on a life partner, but I think it won't be long before you are aware of it.

I could be wrong of course but I seem to be very in tune at the moment & when I have time tonight I will sit down & do a full spread as this might clarify a few things. So in the mean time "chin up" babes. It will happen, I told you that before didn't I?

posted March 14, 2009 01:54 AM         

Bunnies, thank you.

"You were blissfully happy up till ten weeks ago."

Hmm... I was happy for maybe a month,
when I thought I had found someone special.
Before that, it was a decade and a half of depression,
give or take a few short vacations here and there.

"Something ended thereabouts like a death to you."

Sort of. Yeah.

"You are currently calm on the outside but feel as if all your investment in something was a waste of time."

I'm not especially calm on the outside.. well, maybe, compared to how I feel inside.

The second part is pretty true.

The rest sounds fairly specific, which is good.

I'll let you know how it all turns out.

Thank you so much for taking the time and energy to do this.

And for giving me hope.

posted March 14, 2009 02:06 AM         

Hanged man
Knight of Wands
8 of pentacles

Things feel forced and too hard. You're feeling self-sacrificed in some way. Possible burn out of emotions - they've run high and now they've kind of drop-kicked you. It's temporary.

Page of Wands
10 of Wands
4 of swords
Queen of pentacles
6 swords
6 pentacles

Someone in the past, immediate past (female), has done a number on you and it seems like things are again in burn-out mode. You're being asked to let yourself recover. IN a way, it may feel like the universe is forcing you to be still. It feels forced because you fight it sometimes - so it starts to hurt. I know it's hard, but try and get some emotional distance, because you're going to be getting a lot more perspective in the coming weeks and this is a period of emotional preparation. Your own emotions are like a burden right now. Give yourself time, if you can, to regenerate.

You do meet someone new in the early part of summer (don't get me wrong- you meet others before then, but this one sticks out more). Try and pace it slowly. It looks like a potentially good relationship. The connection is slow at first, but this is a saving grace of sorts, because it gives a window of solidity to use.

posted March 19, 2009 09:30 PM         

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you want to write to me, D?
we can see what's behind that door.
i'm curious.

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That sounds like a good idea. But only here at LL instead of via email- what do you think? Steve, you are far better-read than I am, I interact with others on largely my own experiences, rather than what I've read, as I'm not that well-read. We can talk about life. Sorry I cannot provide you any reading, as I don't do readings these days. But if you are still curious, and if you still want to write to me, then hold on, do not let yourself go, or talk about group suicide (on another thread at LC), for goodness' sake!

It takes your inner strength to get out of the dark hole. I've been there. Rather than exterior forces, it's the interior ones that matter. Get well soon.

D

posted March 19, 2009 09:41 PM         

"You're on your own."

That's everybody's sage advice, lol.

People are f-cking cold.

And I have a lot more to say about life experience than i do about books, D.
Arent you the one who's mostly been posting long excerpts from books lately?
I'm pouring my soul out every day on these boards, if you want to get in on it.

posted March 22, 2009 01:44 AM         

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