posted June 17, 2009 06:48 PM         

I also posted on astro.com because I couldnt post here at first but I was granted posting rights for here so I'm back with my question

A little background info. I am an Aquarius married to a Virgo. The relationship was a little hard a first but it has matured and gotten a lot better. I am very happy about that.

Now the main problems I seem to have are in my life and career. I basically have no idea what to do with myself.

I just finished my 2 year degree from college after 9 years of struggling to get a degree. Now that I have it I don't even think that is a field I want to pursue.

Also I've been working at a job on-call for the past 3+ years that I am not progressing in and that I really don't enjoy doing (it's not that I'm not good at it I just dont feel a passion for it). I currently work on-call as a substitute teacher assistant for children with disabilities. Unfortunately I have no clue what I would like do (I have various hobbies but I also get bored easily) so I can't leave and I need what little income that job gives me.

I just feel lost and I have no clue what I want to do with myself or do with my life. I was hoping that a chart reading would be able to provide some direction and insight to my life. I would be really greatful if someone can help me thank you.

posted June 17, 2009 06:49 PM         

I was also wondering where should I begin my reading if I want to learn how to read and interpret natal charts?

posted June 23, 2009 03:19 AM         

I am no advanced astrologer. However, I am attempting to interprete your chart a little bit.

Provided all your birth info is correct, with the exception of your Moon in Cancer in the 10th, all your other planets and Sun are concentrated in the lower half of your birth chart (while noting that your Chiron is in the 9th)- indicating a person who tends to turn inward, instead of outward.

Your Cancer Moon has multiple trines, however, it forms an opposition with your Neptune in the 4th- where Neptune is exalted, but also signifying chaos and mysteries surrounding your family and your origin.

Moon is the most elevated placement in your chart.

I've met two women with Sun in Aquarius and Moon in Cancer in my life. I am also a solar Aquarius, with Virgo Ascendent.

Transiting Saturn is currently transiting in your 12th house.

More sorting-out-confusion needs to be done. Would you like to share with us about your life journey a bit more, so the interpretations will be more helpful?

D

posted June 23, 2009 08:39 AM         

Your reply was very insightful. Especially the comment "indicating a person who tends to turn inward, instead of outward". I have always been very introverted. I have always had a hard time talking with people.

People have either thought me to be upon first meeting me weird, stuck up, or mean. This is because of my awkwardness at talking to people. I am also very blunt and to the point so that doesn't help a lot.

I believe this introversion is because of my mother and how she raised me. She was extremely extremely over protective of me. I wasn't really able to socialize with my peers unless it was in a school setting and I couldn't go out to play a lot. So I grew up playing video games and reading books.

I wasn't really exposed to anything else besides books and school. It was basically just focus on school and I wasn't encouraged to pursue any outside interests other than that unless it was school affiliated.

So now that I am older I don't feel I am well rounded at all and I have no clue what to do because I feel that my development in my youth was very lacking in experiences. I basically didn't get to try enough things to figure out what I would want to do with myself when I got to the point where I would have to choose something.

I feel like I am in a horrible spot right now.

posted June 24, 2009 04:42 AM         

Thank you for sharing more details about your life path.

As you may know, your Moon sign, house position and aspects to it also signify, among other things- your relationship with your mother.

Looks like your mother is one of the biggest problems you've had, and might still do.

Your chart shows an introvert who yearns for spiritual enlightenment rather than materialistic satisfaction. Maybe, just maybe- if finances allow, you can consider traveling to countries far away from home, to different continents, possibly on "Working Holiday Visa", allowing you to work while traveling. You do have Chiron in the 9th- albeit with unfavorable aspects to it. Should your life has been primarily focusing on books, school and video games, it is high time that you made a change. I'm not sure whether traveling overseas is fortunate for you or not, but this might give you plenty of opportunities to meet your fellow travelers from many parts of the planet, and you might change significantly after having done some overseas traveling.

However, I do realize that reality might not allow you to do so, since you are married- to a sun Virgo guy.

The chart interpretations are not yet over- there are many other much more professional astrologers than I here at LL, I do hope they will somehow come onto this thread and provide you more insight.

What does your Virgo husband do for a living, if you don't mind me asking?

I do see a T-square involving your Chiron, your Sun and your Jupiter, with your Sun being the point focus- usually we don't take Chiron into account when interpreting grand trines, T-squares or grand squares- but it is there in your chart, and it does signify that the problematic area you might like to work on is exactly your Sun- your life giver, the basis of your life force, your conscious, and how you present yourself to the world. Worth pondering.

Keep the faith, Sunkissie.

D

posted June 24, 2009 04:41 PM         

She isn't a problem so much any more since I live separate from her we have a wonderful relationship now. And as long as I don't tell her too much ie. get her too overly involved in my personal life there is no real drama and headaches.

Unfortunately due to my financial situation and the fact that I am married traveling to other countries to live and work aren't exactly viable. I was dreaming about taking a vacation with my husband though but that is when/if we ever get our finances better.

But I will definitely look into what you were speaking of about spiritual enlightenment above material things. It is odd but my husband and I were just speaking about that. We were also looking into books about enlightenment and I was considering taking up philosophy in college (dual major with math and economics) to help broaden my intellectual horizons and how I think and perceive the world around me.

My husband currently works as a security guard. His best friend, brothers and sister are in the military. He was going to join but decided against it. He was also considering becoming a police officer or a court officer. He hasn't fully decided yet.

I'm sorry but would you be able to explain this a little clearer to me "I do see a T-square involving your Chiron, your Sun and your Jupiter, with your Sun being the point focus- usually we don't take Chiron into account when interpreting grand trines, T-squares or grand squares- but it is there in your chart, and it does signify that the problematic area you might like to work on is exactly your Sun- your life giver, the basis of your life force, your conscious, and how you present yourself to the world."

I'm new to astrology so I didn't really understand what you were trying to say there. Also when you were talking about "your sun" in the above statement did you mean that being an Aquarius is giving me problems?

You also said I have Chiron in the 9th house but it has unfavorable aspects what could the fact that it has unfavorable aspects mean for me? And in what way is it unfavorable?

posted June 24, 2009 11:52 PM         

The 12 zodiac signs can be divided into four groups, according to their elements:

Fire: Aries, Leo, Sagittarius, which tend to harmonize with one another among the same element group, which is Fire- in a generalized sense;

Earth: Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn, which tend to harmonize with one another among the same element group, which is Earth- in a generalized sense;

Air: Gemini, Libra, Aquarius, which tend to harmonize with one another among the same element group, which is Air- in a generalized sense;

Water: Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces, which tend to harmonize with one another among the same element group, which is Water- in a generalized sense.

A trine is formed by two placements (NOT always with the same element) that are 120 degrees, plus or minus 10 degrees, apart from each other; a trine is considered a very favorable/good/lucky aspect.

When there are three placements, e.g. a woman's Aquarius Mercury trine her Libra Pluto within 120 degrees apart, plus or minus no more than 10 degrees, and her Libra Pluto trine her Gemini Jupiter within 120 degrees apart, plus or minus no more than 10 degrees, and again, her Gemini Jupiter trine her Aquarius Mercury within 120 degrees apart, plus or minus no more than 10 degrees- and the three planets forming a blue and tall triangle- which is an Air grand trine; a grand trine usually signifies good fortune, according to its element: a Fire grand trine may signify a highly instinctual individual, succeeds in her or his pursuits due to her or his spot-on instinct; an Earth grand trine may indicate a person whose gut feelings are strong, with usually good sense of financial matters; an Air grand trine normally signifies a native with superior intelligence; whereas a Water grand trine may signify an individual with powerful intuition, psychic abilities, occult gift and knowledge.

Grand trines may empower the native, but not necessarily making the native a good person.

To be continued...(I'm trying to avoid the hassle of the post not going through again due to its lengthiness, and this site has little tolerance for it sometimes)

D

posted June 25, 2009 12:07 AM         

However, the 12 zodiac signs can also be divided into 3 groups as follow:

Cardinal signs: Aries, Cancer, Libra and Capricorn- which usually, but not always, form a 90 degrees, plus or minus no more than 10 degrees aspect, an aspect of tension and tightened energy- a square;

Fixed signs: Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius- which usually, but not always, form a 90 degrees, plus or minus no more than 10 degrees aspect, an aspect of tension and tightened energy- a square;

Mutable signs: Gemini, Virgo, Sagittarius, and Pisces- which usually, but not always, form a 90 degrees, plus or minus no more than 10 degrees aspect, an aspect of tension and tightened energy- a square.

When there are two planets in your chart that form an opposition, and there is a third planet that forms a square to one of the opposition planet, as well as forming another square with the other opposition planet- you have a T-square. Not all T-square planets belong to the same Cardinal/Fixed/Mutable group. When you have a T-square, which you do have, Sunkissie- that means you have significant problems to work on, and the wide and rather flat triangle, which is the T-square, in your chart, the planet you should specifically pay attention to, is the planet that square both the opposition planets, and the planet on the tip of such a triangle, which is a T-square, would be the "point focus"- whose planet, sign, house position warrant special caution from you, and for you to concentrate on, because the point focus of your T-square is the area you should work on, or sort out most.

As for grand squares- if there are 4 planets forming exactly 2 oppositions and 4 squares with one another, then you would get a grand square there. The problem with a grand square is that there is no point focus, and the native spends most of the time experiencing trouble, because any given transiting planet or luminary (meaning the signs and the degrees of all the solar system's planets, Sun and Moon are in at this moment, as in today, right now- that means "transits") will form either a square or an opposition to at least one of the native's configuration of her or his grand square; therefore, the solution is to find the planet among the grand square, the one with the greatest number of good aspects, and work on that planet.

To be continued...

D

posted June 25, 2009 12:19 AM         

Chiron is an asteroid, not a planet, thus depending on the given astrologer/chart interpretor, asteroids such as Chiron (where you are wounded, where you have the potential to heal others, and where you cannot heal yourself), Lilith, Juno, Eris...are interpreted differently by different astrologers/chart interpretors.

No, your Sun sign being Aquarius is not "the problem"- otherwise we might say all solar Aquarians (and I am one of us) have the same issues. That is not the case. Each of all the 12 Sun signs natives have their problems, as well as their talent.

What I was trying to say is that, there is a square (90 degrees apart, plus and minus no more than 10 degrees) between your Aquarius Sun in the 5th, and your Taurus Chiron in the 9th; while there is also a square between your Sun and your Scorpio Jupiter in the 2nd. Then, there is an opposition between your Jupiter and your Chiron- thus forming a Fixed T-square in your chart. Bear in mind that not all T-squares, grand squares or grand trines can be simply categorized, as there are times when at least one of the planets involved does not belong to the same group or element.

To be continued...

D

posted June 25, 2009 12:34 AM         

Don't worry, Sunkissie- there are many people with at least one T-square, often with more than one. I have two Mutable T-squares myself. I've seen more T-squares in other people's chart, the greatest number I've seen so far is 6 Fixed T-squares in one birth chart. You only have one, and technically, some astrologers might not even interpret your Chiron, Sun and Jupiter as a T-square- it all depends on different astrologers.

As a matter of fact, when I mentioned your Chiron having unfavorable aspects to it, I was referring to exactly your Sun and your Jupiter, which, together form a T-square with your Chiron. But don't panic- whether this would be counted as a T-square or not (Chiron as an asteroid, not a planet) will depend on various astrologers, and I'd say many of them would not take your Chiron into consideration.

Being Aquarius is not what gives you problems, Sunkissie. Don't worry. There are a lot of Aquarians out there, I'm one of us. Like I said earlier, each Sun sign has its own shortcomings, as well as virtues.

Google astrology websites, see if you can get yourself better acqainted with the symbolic meanings of each zodiac sign, each of the 12 houses, and each of the solar system planet. You might like to focus on your Sun in Aquarius in your 5th- in which case, your Sun's ruler is Uranus, and the ruler of the 5th house is Leo, whose ruler is the Sun- meaning your Aquarius Sun in the 5th is at its rulership/at home/dignified- signifying "strengthened". However, the Sun, representing your Self, life force, your conscious...are what you should try to work on and eventually, discover what your passion of the lifetime is, and you will be more focused, no longer afraid of having no clue about what you want and what you want to do with your life. I know this might not answer all your questions, as I myself is not an advanced astrologer; but I will try my best to answer any question you may have in mind.

Spirituality might be the key.

It is good that your husband and you have been discussing spirituality. That might be what you will be good at in the future. I'm not you, I can't possibly know how you feel. But I'll try.

D

posted June 28, 2009 01:53 AM         

I hope you are doing well.

I didn't mean to scare you with my interpretations- especially concerning the fact that you have Moon in Cancer- there are a lot of fears, insecurity and worries. My underdeveloped analyses might have made you feel worse than better. If that were the case, I am sorry.

Here's a astrological website that has been recommended by another LL member, Peri:

http://www.grupovenus.com/main.htm

I haven't checked out the site myself yet, but I am going to in a minute. Best of luck, Sunkissie. I hope you will find this site coming in handy.

D

posted July 08, 2009 04:28 PM         

I have just been contemplating what you said and taking time away to take a look at my life and what direction I would like it to head in.

I kinda feel like I am at a crossroad and its a little scary for me. I don't want to make the so called "wrong" decision. And that in essence is preventing me from acting. I know not acting because of fear is bad I'm taking time to reflect so I can get over my fear because I feel if I act while I am fearful I will have regrets and I don't want that.

posted July 20, 2009 01:05 AM         

Sorry for replying very late.

I wish you all the well wishes, love, faith, hope, light your way.

Being at a cross-road of your life can be deeply painful- dreading on the next step, the next direction...

The advantage you may have, Sunkissie, is that chances are you will hardly ever act impulsively.

However, when there is no action taken, nothing gets done, and that's also a problem, too.

I would imagine that you may use the power of your Cancer Moon, combined with your Aquarius Sun, and maybe look into spirituality, as we both mentioned earlier; also, increasing your frequency of interacting with other people might be the key- what age group do you interact with best? Adults? Senior citizens? Adolescents? Children? Very young children? Perhaps working with people, a job that has to do with interacting and helping others, given the age group with which you communicate best- just an idea. Don't let your insecurity, apprehension and fear take over you. By learning astrology, with healthy perspectives (e.g. no fatalism!), you will eventually get to know yourself better, and come to realize what's best for you in regard with your career, and what you want to do with your life in general.

Blessed be!

D