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Topic: Hi Todd, May I Ask for a Reading Please?
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GemGemGem
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posted September 29, 2009 10:14 AM
 
After reading Lucia's thread in Astrology2 about a composite you read for her, it made me a little worried about my own relationship. Our composite has a loose sun/neptune square, but a tight mercury/neptune square. For some reason, I have never been sure of his motives in dating me. It's not that he's done anything in particular to make me suspicious, but I am just completely NOT his type at all. He is unemployed and a bit irresponsible at times, but I believe he has a good heart, and he makes me laugh and we have a good time. He has had his share of lots of women, and all of them are the complete opposite of me. I'm very, very, very conservative. I'm a divorced single mom, and I know I need to be very careful about who I bring into me and my daughter's lives, so sometimes I wonder and worry if he's sincere. He's been really great (so far) to me, my daughter, and even to my parents. He has always put in his share of the costs when we go out, and even pays for me sometimes too even though he is unemployed. When I'm with him, my doubts disappear but it's when we're apart that I start to wonder again about his motives. There seems to be quite a line of folks wanting readings from you, so I wanted to take my place in line and was wondering if you could take a quick look when you have time. I don't know his exact birth time so the houses may be wrong, but made an educated guess based on what I know of his personality.
Thanks so much! I really appreciate it! Gem Composite chart:  IP: Logged |
todd
Knowflake Posts: 124
From: Baghdad by the Bay
Registered: Jun 2009
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posted September 29, 2009 06:34 PM
hi gem
it sounds like you have already interpreted the composite for me LOL as the concerns you mentioned are also what i see as well as the attachment to him.with the moon opposed to the venus/mars midpoint,the emotional and physical chemistry is strong.jupiter is trine to the venus/mars midpoint and sextile to the moon.these symbols are in a complementary configuration which is often indicative of marriage,so the good feelings you get are very accurate.
the uncertainty you feel is alo represented.
chiron square to saturn in a composite is almost a game breaker as it shows a domineering and control impulse.in this situation satrun is quintilw to pluto and chiron therefoe forms a 20th harmonmic with pluto,these symbols are the primary symbols in controlling and domineering relationships and the quintile harmonic implies these tendencies are consciously applied.though jupiter is sextile to the moon,it is also square to saturn and opposed to chiron.
this can be a configuration of a need for tyrannical control and it also reflects economic problems.
the mercury /neptune square is also very suspect as it implies there is misrepresentation of overt deception.this can show a creative energy or a difference in cultural vales as well but in this case with the neptune/mercury midpoint opposed to saturn and square the other aspects of this configuration,it is difficult to not interprete this as deception about the financial problems.my opinion is that he has deeper financial problems that he is disclosing.
there are also many aspects that show a maniulative nature at work.the mercury/neptune square also has the mars/pluto midpoint inthe midst of the square.this now becomes a bit alarming because this shows deception and very selfish ,malicious intent.i use such a emotionally charge description because there are other aspects that reinforce the "moral" characterization i am making/just as the chiron/satrun square is by itself problematic ,the midpoint of saturn/chiron is opposed to neptune and incresae the selfish and malicious feel to the chart.
it think your intuitive questioning is a function of the moon/neptune midpoint square to the chiron/pluto midpoint and conjuct the jupiter/pluto midpoint.it seems you are sensitive to these potential problems.also your characterization of feeling differently when you are away from him is something i caution people about when there is a "mental" control in action. i do not see the placemnts that ar characteristic of "mental" control but the house placement are not known exactly.be that as it may, the fact that you used the identical phrasing that i occassional use makes me think that the placement i look for would be present if the times were accurate.
mars is opposed to the saturn/pluto midpoint,yet another indicationthat there as a selfish and domineering tendency here.
in addition the jupiter/neptune midpoint is square this opposition.this again can be an aspect of finacial problems or complexity, not to mention being deceptive in nature.
the mars/chiron midpoint is conjunct the sun,giving another aspect that correlates to self/and potentially abusive behavior.
there are two charts here ,one very loving and steady and another that is quite selfish and manipulating to say the least.
i think you are bringing this question up now because you are starting to sense the problem.and if this is a real probelm,you will start to see these dynamic in the near future,actually it seems these negative dynamics,especially the economic one will become apparent as the october wears on.
i would expect that his economic difficulties will become a subject of conversation.todd IP: Logged |
GemGemGem
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Registered: Apr 2009
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posted September 30, 2009 02:19 PM
Thank you Todd for that amazing reading! Honestly speaking, it's not really what a girl wants to hear about the man she loves, but then again I asked for it, and it's better than being duped and in the dark! LOL! Before I say anything else, I just want to say that I love this man very much, and it would be so hard for me to leave him if ever it came to that. But I know that I have to be responsible, and face the facts for my protection and especially my family's protection. Your reading prompted me to get a background check on him and I can't tell you I was thrilled with what I found out. I found records of court cases where debtors are after him for money. There were only case numbers, so I didn't get to see them in depth or whether they ever got their money. The thing is, he has told me already that he owes money to the government for back taxes that need to get paid. I've seen him go to his lawyer appointments and he is trying to fix the situation. He also told me he owes money for his student loans. That I'm not so sure he's being honest about. I think he owes money to these debtors but he's telling me its student loans to sugar coat it for me. Which is ok with me, cause I understand it's embarrassing and you feel ashamed to tell people. He has been honest (so far) about the fact that he is in debt. Luckily, the background check found no history of criminal records. Just of his civil suits for money. I'm actually relieved! LOL! All the good things you wrote in your reading too about the emotional and physical connection being strong is completely how I feel. We are very loving towards one another. I spent the night in the emergencey room last night for dizziness and nausea, and he was there with me, all night. I told him not to come, but he showed up there and stayed by my side. He laid in the hospital bed with me, held my hand. It felt real to me. As for the control and manipulation, I'm not sure if that is present or not. Sometimes i feel like he plays some mind games with me, then I'll play mind games right back. I always thought a little push and pull was normal, and each trying to get a little bit of an upper hand was all part of the game. LOL! Sometimes I do feel like he dominates and leads, but I'm ok with it cause I need that structure. I think they had Neptune in mind when they coined the phrase a "Fool for Love"! In our synastry chart we have a tight saturn/moon conjunction, and saturn/sun trine exact so I feel like it's hard if not impossible for me to break away. Todd, can you tell me what you mean by chiron/saturn square in composite would be a game breaker? Do you mean that's a break up aspect? You have an amazing gift. Thanks again for your reading!  IP: Logged |
todd
Knowflake Posts: 124
From: Baghdad by the Bay
Registered: Jun 2009
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posted September 30, 2009 05:08 PM
the chiron/saturn square usually shows a controlling nature.it tends to work negatively by emotional intimidation.even with a loving connection this aspect often reacts with cynicism,often back handed compliments or subtle belittling after emotional intimacy.it is very selfish and this is uaually the reason it is a "game breaker" as a relationship must be complementary to work.
this aspect also can create or engender feelings of low self esteem.
ont the positive side it can indicate healing emotional issues but this occurs in maybe 1% of the cases.usually the trine between these two gives a more effortless "healing" interaction.todd IP: Logged |
todd
Knowflake Posts: 124
From: Baghdad by the Bay
Registered: Jun 2009
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posted September 30, 2009 05:08 PM
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GemGemGem
Knowflake Posts: 80
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posted October 01, 2009 10:43 AM
Thanks so much Tod.
I will definitely be mindful of that energy.
I do find myself feeling emotionally abandoned by him sometimes, but then again I'm very emotionally needy and sensitive.He definitely toughens up my sensitive moon for better or worse. Sometimes I shed tears over his cool distance but I feel it's something I need in order to learn to stand on my own emotionally. I really loved your reading.
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