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Topic: The L words - Love and Loneliness
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Hera
Knowflake Posts: 58
From: the OR
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted November 12, 2010 01:16 PM
  
To be completely honest, I have long hesitated to request a reading, because I fear the answer (or the lack of one). I'm 27 years old and for the past 4 years or so I have been alone or unhappily in love and the future doesn't seem much brighter, either. In my daily life I generally try to keep my mind busy with my work or other duties and ignore this void, but every once in a while it becomes hard to bear. Now it's one of those times, probably because of Saturn opposite natal Sun. I ache when I see small children playing with their parents in the park or eldery couples holding hands on the street. Like I've done in the past when I felt like this, my thoughts go back to the person I loved more than life itself and still cannot forget. I think in the back of my mind I do know I shouldn't do this, but in a completely different corner lies the hope of a second chance. God knows I probably got what I deserved, I've made mistakes and so did he. Every couple of months we get together for a cup of coffee and I pretend my knees don't become weak and my heart doesn't beat faster. 2 days ago it would have been our anniversary and this sad break-up song that was playing on the radio made me text him and tell him that. His response filled me with painful hope that I'm afraid to give into. Thousands of fears and possible scenarious mix in my head and make me dizzy, yet alive again, awaken from a deep dark sleep. Could this be happening to me, to us? Could the prince ask his forgotten princess for a last dance, before the curtain falls and draws them further apart?------------------
*previously Izo* Every day is a battle with yourself, one you can never win, nor lose, nor abandon IP: Logged |
uranusingleton
Knowflake Posts: 37
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Registered: Sep 2010
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posted November 12, 2010 10:05 PM
Sounds like you have your answer.
Best wishes for you both!IP: Logged |
Diana
Knowflake Posts: 2350
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Registered: May 2009
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posted November 12, 2010 11:52 PM
You need to just ask him or take some sort of action, aside from sleeping with him, that lets you know what is going on, otherwise, you will be in this unhealthy limbo forever and will never meet anyone because of that.
Sorry for being so blunt!
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Hera
Knowflake Posts: 58
From: the OR
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted November 15, 2010 12:33 PM
I guess it was just too much to hope someone will do a reading for me. ------------------
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teasel
Knowflake Posts: 2681
From: Ohio
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted November 15, 2010 12:35 PM
I would try, but I'm not feeling grounded enough, and I'm not sure what spread to use, if a spread would even be needed... IP: Logged |
Peri
Knowflake Posts: 1848
From: 49N35 34E34
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted November 15, 2010 02:10 PM
Hey sweetie, don't ever lose hope   here's your relationship reading:Card 1, How you feel about yourself now
The Devil RX: When reversed, the card reminds us that any situation that may seem to be trapping us is an illusion; we always have options, help is always available. This card can also indicate fear and inability to let go. Card 2, What you most want at this moment
Queen of Pentacles: The energy of the Queen of Pentacles is normally quite archetypically feminine; hearth, home, motherhood. Card 3, Your fears, hopes:
Queen of Swords: Are you scared there may be another woman in his life? If not you might be scared to seem too forceful. Card 4, What is going for you
Temperance: Friendships, family, romantic partnerships, and work partnerships all need your attention. This is an important time to meditate and to listen to your inner voice for guidance, look at where you might be out of balance and then remedy this. Moderation is the way to go now. Card 5, What is going against you
Judgement: This can be a make-or-break period. This is a time to get very, very clear about what you want out of life and out of your relationships, and then take steps to make it come about. If you are seeking love a new relationship may come about in the near future, but you may need to take steps to make sure that you aren't leaping to conclusions (positive or negative) about your new love and/or vice versa. Slow and steady wins the race. Judgment can be a card about jumping to conclusions, decisions and judgments. which are too hastily made. If you are prone to such things, this is a clear signal to slow down and give things more thought and to give people "more chances." Card 6, Outcome
Nine of Pentacles: The 9 of Pentacles is one of the most uplifting and encouraging omens in the suit. This can mean that things in general will be going better than you thought possible, it is an excellent omen with regard to love, also. Enjoy this good energy, and share your happiness with others.
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Hera
Knowflake Posts: 58
From: the OR
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted November 19, 2010 10:01 AM
Thank you, Teasel! And thank you, Peri, for the reading! It is very fitting, except for the outcome card, which I cannot see happening. My love life is stuck and it seems that it's going to stay that way.  ------------------
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Hera
Knowflake Posts: 58
From: the OR
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 02, 2010 07:44 PM
Peri, I am hoping that 9 of Pentacles will show its beautiful face because I've done the unthinkable, I've spilled my guts and told him I still care for him a lot and asked if he wants to give it another try. I am waiting for his answer, but meanwhile the fact that I managed to get this out was a huge relief for me and I am feeling very peaceful right now (will probably go to neurotic very soon, but right now it feels good).
Thank you again for the reading!------------------
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Hera
Knowflake Posts: 58
From: the OR
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 04, 2010 03:01 PM
He rejected me. There really is no hope. ------------------
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Diana
Knowflake Posts: 2350
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Registered: May 2009
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posted December 05, 2010 12:52 AM
Aww, but at least you can now move on instead of believing mixed signals that are keeping you stuck. You could've done that for YEARS and that would feel worse when you found out you wasted all that time on an illusion. IP: Logged | |
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