posted January 26, 2011 01:45 PM            

Okay here goes: I'm a 30 year old woman in midst of personal break down.

I feel like my world is crumbling around me. I don't want to get too deep or too emo with my plight, but its pretty deep. Its a long story as to what I am experiencing, so I will try to be as brief as I can so I won't bore anyone.

I am divorced. I've lost the love of my life after 10 years. No, we did not have the perfect union, but we were okay. We weathered through many a storms and such but managed to stay together. Now, we are no more. I am heartbroken, sad and besides myself that I've lost him. I know time will heal this wound, but I am such a state about it, I lose my appitite everytime I do. I've heard from my sisters he has moved on, and all in all I hope he is happy, but I feel deep inside he is my soulmate. But what can I do, not much. I feel crazy thinking that one day we will reunite, but that my utter faith always fooling me.

I feel like I have no direction, my job sucks, I have no friends, and I feel unmotivated to do anything. Life is starting to become harder by the day. I try to tell myself things will get better, and god wont give me anything I cant handle, but...I AM SO OVER STRUGGLING!

So in relation to all of this, I have tried to get a few readings for insight as to what I should do, alas...no one has come through. The readings I've had, they have been lackluster, and very confusing. It seems like I canr get a straight answer, and if I do, they ask for more money. it's a shame. but again, what can I do? nothing.

I come here to ask if anyone can grant me a free reading and shed some kind of light on my dire situation.

Here is my birth info, if needed?

4/21/1980
mpls, mn
2:26am

ANY replies will be appriciated.

posted January 26, 2011 04:45 PM            

The first card asks you to see that there's a purpose in Everything. Your divorce is one of those life challenges set before you to increase your faith that God, will take care of you. The conflict card is "Acceptance," which just means you have got to accept things as they are, not as you want or wish them to be...

You have GOT to find a way to laugh! ALLOW it. Ask your spirit to present opportunities to laugh, and seek them out. Watch a funny movie if that's what it takes.

There WILL be a new opportunity on your horizon if you can just let it all in...I see this card as being about your career. It will be an excellent distraction, and I feel like it could come sooner than you think.

Talk positively. It looks like you've gotten into the habit of making everything out of your mouth negative. I know you are going through the worst time of your life, but unfortunately, it won't help to keep verbally going over it. Try instead to speak from a point of view that's more hopeful and positive. Particularly at work, since this is a situation you want to change. It's difficult to get out of a situation while complaining about it, and i think if you bless it by being positive on the job, you could find your way out of that job - maybe even through a contact there. You never know...

Okay, this is getting long, so I'll summarize a few last points - the gift the universe is giving you is an opportunity to stand in your own power. Take the trip you've been thinking about going on, and be your own best friend, watching what you say about yourself.

The final outcome card is creativity. Are you an artist deep down? Explore it!!!!

I hope this helps....It's probably everything you already know, but if that's the case, then be happy you know inside what you need to do!

Best of wishes, let me know if this helps...

posted January 28, 2011 07:58 AM            

You are in a downward spiral and although you desire improvement, your thoughts and actions prove otherwise. Each negative thought that you have is crippling. I'm not saying stop it completely (although I would love for you to) but LESSEN them. Look at the blessings you have in your life and feel grateful and appreciative. To be appreciative is to be Godly and you are very disconnected from God and love.
The key is to plug into God (as you know God) and love (which is God). It is there and waiting, the sooner you take a deep breath and quiet yourself to receive this, the better things will be

Hopefully sister Ami can also shed more light on this.

You are in my prayers