posted June 19, 2011 03:00 PM            

Neuroscientifically speaking, fear and anxiety, any form of suppression of emotional or physical pain strengthens the emotion or pain. It's there to tell you something is wrong, and if you keep ignoring it the pain will run your life. You've got a challenging chart, which will cause a lot of difficulties that I don't feel like I can talk about as my experience in astrology is rather limited. Your pluto opposition is rather intense. However, Buddhists always say you can make huge leaps spiritually with severe and persistent pain. The learning curve is much higher. Suffering is like the element that polishes the mirror of compassion.

Having read a lot of neuroscience books before this, I really liked Daniel Siegel's the Mindful brain which catalogues different aspects of mindfulness (secular aspects of buddhism) in an intra and interpersonal context as well as what it does to the brain.

The main things are acceptance, compassion(for yourself AND others), awareness, being. I have pluto opp moon (a little different) and that drives me crazy. My empathic friend said I am excessively hard on myself. You can't fix what you can't accept. A part of you will always distort the reality with fear.

posted June 20, 2011 12:21 AM            

I appreciate your advice and I think on the subject of emotions one can’t put a finger on it and say this will cure your distress, but certainly Buddhist philosophy is one of the philosophies that I respect and adhere to and I believe that practicing meditation, chanting (in my case), and “mindfulness” will bring peace to mind. I believe that everything happens in the mind and/or the will. It’s rather tricky.

It’s been a while since I've read Buddhist books too. I believe that this tendency of mine, of being swayed by my emotions, getting carried away and obsessively thinking about such things that don’t matter, over analyzing can be controlled, but I feel like it is a life long battle. My chart is an obvious example of the ‘craziness’ I go through, but much of the pain as been overcome such as depression and extreme shyness. But even so, my understanding of the human condition makes me a tad pessimistic in life. I try my best to be optimistic and “relax.”
Oh I agree that the learning curve is much higher. I’ve been told that I am very mature for my age, an old soul.

*Suffering is like the element that polishes the mirror of compassion.* This is very true too.* I feel like I am a very compassionate person, but sometimes it creates problems in relationships because I expect the other person to do more, feel more, or be sensitive to me much more than they are because to me, it’s comes natural and to most people it does not.

The secular aspects of Buddhism really interest me, and after having studied philosophy for a couple years, I’ve noticed a lot of similarities between the western and eastern philosophies, especially with existentialism and w/ Aristotelian ethics.

I had an epiphany today. I feel like I need to accept my weaknesses, in the process of becoming the best I can be. I’m not all strength and wonderful or positive. I need to remind myself that if people don’t like the real me then it wasn’t meant to be. Like Marilyn Monroe once said, "I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

What do you mean by being ungrounded by kundalini…I’ve heard of kundalini yoga, but I don’t know what it means.

posted June 20, 2011 12:37 AM            

I have an extreme case of a see saw chart. Taurus sun opposite my moon, Jupiter, and Pluto, then I have the opposing stellium in both the 12th and 6th houses. It’s a weird chart.

I am very analytical but at the same time I am very spiritual and absorbing of vibes and affected when the moon phase change. Remember the full moon in Capricorn w/ the eclipse recently? I could not believe how sleepy I was…Let me tell you, I hardly did anything that day but was so exhausted.

posted June 20, 2011 01:05 PM            

When they did mindfulness inventories the aspect that most strongly correlated with non-reactance or emotional stability while under duress was self compassion. I like neuroscience because it beautifully illustrates lessons of why we are here (we function best while working towards eudaimonic goals, being compassionate and loving), but I do not adhere to the mind being the all.

Sorry if I'm rambling here, just felt the need to say this. I prescribe to jnani ideals or how they describe enlightenment more in the Nyingma sect of Tibetan Buddhism. It's similar to zen but I don't think the emphasis in Zen communicates it as well and it diverges some. It's hard to describe but it's more of a no mind philosophy where the brain or thoughts act as a filter. I understand that that sounds crazy, but it is a huge reason for why we meditate. Nyingma is the sect of Tibetan Buddhism where the Dalai Lama has gone to seek teachings and he is of the competing Gelug sect. It's recognized as having the most advanced teaching, and they hold their female teachers as equals.

posted June 20, 2011 01:52 PM            

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Originally posted by TrueTaurus:
Hey Ami Anne, thank you for doing that. =)

I have an extreme case of a see saw chart. Taurus sun opposite my moon, Jupiter, and Pluto, then I have the opposing stellium in both the 12th and 6th houses. It’s a weird chart.

I am very analytical but at the same time I am very spiritual and absorbing of vibes and affected when the moon phase change. Remember the full moon in Capricorn w/ the eclipse recently? I could not believe how sleepy I was…Let me tell you, I hardly did anything that day but was so exhausted.

It’s a blessing in the sense that I have an uncanny ability to know how people feel and understand human beings’ feelings, etc., but other times it’s way too overwhelming and I don’t want to feel. I want to enjoy life w/out thinking about the deeper meaning in life (which I do everyday without fail).
Another thing is being very outgoing and talkative, and the next I am reticent, kept to myself, quite, and moody, not to mention socially awkward. People tell me I am attractive and I’m not stupid so it’s not any of those things that make me a social outcast, but I am inherently a loner and very shy. I need LOTS of time relaxing at home.

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Very interesting explanation of the see-saw chart.
I am getting the sense of it and it IS a see -saw.
You are up on one side and down on the other at alternate times.
I can only relate by the various"modes" I have.I can be in a water mode--Cancer/Scorpio or an Air mode--Gemini
i can flip in and out of these but yours seems much harder cuz your WHOLE chart shape is of such.
Mine is just different elements and signs.

posted June 20, 2011 07:26 PM            

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I had an epiphany today. I feel like I need to accept my weaknesses, in the process of becoming the best I can be. I’m not all strength and wonderful or positive. I need to remind myself that if people don’t like the real me then it wasn’t meant to be. Like Marilyn Monroe once said, "I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

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Yes,I am getting to this ,too.This is a basic level of self acceptance.
I will look at your chart and see what else we can talk about

posted June 20, 2011 07:34 PM            

OK So you never got your chart up right?
Is it someplace on LL? If not, I will just deal with these facts for the moment.

Sun in 12th in Taurus.Moon in 6th in Scorpio. Cancer Rising
Lots of introspection here--like MUCHO.
These are all "inner oriented, feeling oriented, internal looking placements.
I see what you mean.

Did you write your other placements somewhere.I am getting confused cuz I am doing many charts lol

12th house--right away is painful. The sun does not like to be here cuz it is turned inward to such a degree that it is buried under water you could say.
It is more deeply buried than the 8th house which is buried enough.
I have an 8th house Sun. We are late maturing.

With the 12th house, you are a very sensitive, spiritual person. You may hate being in the direct spotlight.
You may feel it is unseemly to have an "ego". You should be better than that,more "spiritual".
Is that true?

posted June 20, 2011 07:38 PM            

The 6th house wants to be of service to others so it is a good outer oriented placement I think,by house.

However, the Scorpio moon is deep and simmering.
The 12th house sun is so,so otherworldly that it is hard for you to just be a "normal" person and go to a party and just "be"

The Cancer ASC is a very sensitive ASC.I like it very much.
It is very sweet and tender. It can be shy and retiring ,a little.but it is a sweetheart when it feels safe to come out of it's shell.

We have to look at other placements to see HOW you can balance these!

I don't know how to do the charts.Ask Avocado to post it or read the directions and see if you can lol

posted June 21, 2011 04:57 PM            

I want to see what your Mercury is doing?
Ok Girlfriend
Let me look and see what I can find.You tell me if I am right/wrong
Always just be honest

posted June 21, 2011 05:20 PM            

Aww Your 12th house.It looks painful JUST to look at it lol

posted June 21, 2011 05:24 PM            

For good news,you have Sun conjunct Jupiter.
The bad news is it is in the 12th house.

I will look at your chart little by little.
Respond to me as you are and we should be able to find some helpful things.

God, who made the charts imo, NEVER left anyone high and dry
There are always Saving graces--ways to transform your chart energies in to good for you and others!!

posted June 22, 2011 06:01 PM            

*Oh my---Your deepest emotions fight with your mind.
Your deepest emotions fight with your drives
How does this feel? Can you identify with this?*

I don't know how this plays out. It might manifest in the way I communicate though. I have a weird tendency, possibly unconscious way of saying things that I don't mean. For example I would say the opposite of what I had intended to say or thought in my mind. It's really weird. And when I'm not comfortable around others, my low confidence shows in my speech because I stammer. I also noticed this happens when I'm very tired. When I have lots of energy it's reflected in my confidence and I'm like a different person. My mental capacities and ability to process is ALOT better when I'm not tired.
Maybe that's the manifestation of the Mercury Square Moon and Mars.
Another thing is that I am very blunt. Often times, in relationships with men I am too blunt and I come off as mean. At the moment I don't give a **** and say how I feel.