posted April 01, 2012 04:29 PM            

This urge and my way of over-thinking everything has totally clouded my intuition and there's a constant war between what I think logically will happen, what I feel I want to happen and what I sense may happen. I'm going crazy!!!

I'd just like to know if it's SOON (so I can take a chill pill and just wait for it) or if it's not gonna happen this year I'd like to know so I can get this MANIA out of my head and focus on work and other stuff instead...

May I borrow some intuition from someone? Mine is broken! heeelp!!

EDIT: One question would be if mr Right is already in my life or not... Does anyone have any intuition about that? Thanks in advance!

posted April 02, 2012 01:25 AM            

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Originally posted by birdy:
What degrees is your ASC/DSC & Venus?

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posted April 03, 2012 09:50 AM            

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Originally posted by birdy:
Lunar Eclipse: 10 Dec 2011 18Gem10
Solar Eclipse: 20 May 2012 00Gem20
Lunar Eclipse: 4 Jun 2012 14Sag13
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/astrological-information/solar-lunar-eclipses.php

I wouldn't be surprised if you meet someone from now to June/Summer time.
Sometimes Eclipses- not much happens, but when it touches an ANGLE, I would pay attention. Look back at past eclipses and see how it worked out for you.

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Thank you so much Birdy! I haven't thought about the eclipses, but those looks interesting!

The first tarot reader I went to said I would meet the one during some sort of education/school/course or in connection to that sort of thing. I'm attending a short course currently (because of my work) and it's finished May 22. I don't know when I'll be doing that sort of thing next time! I mean, I don't want to attend some cooking class or whatever just to fulfill the prediction.. The course I'm on right now wasn't initiated by me, and I think that's the plan... I just wish I knew... :s

posted April 04, 2012 02:02 AM            

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Originally posted by birdy:
Well lets look at your SR, and progressions/transits.

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Birdy! I love your patience with me! Thank you!!! I have looked at my solar return and it seems quite accurate so far in terms of a lot is happening (in a good way) work-wise, and I'm also in a period where I'm very much into spiritualism again and trying to sort out my emotions.

My charts are always very different depending on which house system I use, so I will link both Placidus and Equal.

These are some things that comes up:
- Solar Return Ascendant in Gemini
- Solar Return Sun semi-square Solar Return Venus
- Solar Return Sun sextile Solar Return Jupiter
- Solar Return Sun trine Solar Return Saturn
- Solar Return Sun semisextile Solar Return Uranus
- Solar Return Sun conjunct Solar Return Neptune
- Solar Return Sun sextile Solar Return Pluto
- Solar Return Moon in Pisces
- EQUAL HOUSES - Solar Return Moon in the 10th House
- PLACIDUS - Solar Return Moon in the 11th House
- Moon conjunct Mercury
- Moon opposition Mars
- Moon semi-square Jupiter

Maybe you can see anything important that I may have missed here? I'm not an expert on SR charts...

posted April 04, 2012 02:14 AM            

Saturn in the 5th denies superficial interactions, and causes delays in love matters. So I think once Saturn is off your natal venus, and out of your 5th, you will find your love life picking up.

Im really curious to see your next SR. I get a feeling something is going to show.

Whoever you meet, there will be a spiritual connect, karmic past life connection, but there can possibilities of deception. Maybe even emotional deception, where one person hides their feelings.

posted April 04, 2012 02:36 AM            

The man you are anticipating to enter your life will not be what you are excepting.

Your first encounter may be casual such as a friendly greeting. Do not expect the gazing into the eyes or feeling an instant connection experience.

Your relationship will develope over time You may be too keen and focused on looking out for the special One that you may dismiss him all together.

posted April 04, 2012 03:43 AM            

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Originally posted by birdy:
I think meeting someone at a university/school/some sort of class is possible this year. The thing is this SR doesn't say a relationship developing. Im guessing transit wise, Saturn is still in your 5th, correct?
My feeling is you might meet someone somewhere, but wont be significant to you possibly till some other time. Maybe in the next SR, it will show it developing. So you might meet someone, but it grows slowly.

Saturn in the 5th denies superficial interactions, and causes delays in love matters. So I think once Saturn is off your natal venus, and out of your 5th, you will find your love life picking up.

Im really curious to see your next SR. I get a feeling something is going to show.

Whoever you meet, there will be a spiritual connect, karmic past life connection, but there can possibilities of deception. Maybe even emotional deception, where one person hides their feelings.

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I'm hoping for a spiritual connect, something that stands out to me so I can be 100& certain that he is the one. I usually analyze things too much so I doubt everything. I just want to make the right decisions! I met someone that felt karmic on september 30 last year and I know he doesn't show all of his feelings. I don't see it develop much at the moment though, but on the other hand I'm very impatient and he is very slow and says "everything has its time and place" (pisces mars, cap sun, scorpio venus, sag moon, sag asc). At first I thought I'd marry him, but time has made me uncertain and I'm about to give up on us.

I have Saturn (R) in house 5 natally, so I've had a fair share of delays and obstacles in the matters of the heart...

Here is my solar return chart for 2013/2014.. Thank you for your help Birdy, much appreciated!

posted April 04, 2012 03:53 AM            

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Originally posted by Waterlilly:
Hello Nyah

The man you are anticipating to enter your life will not be what you are excepting.

Your first encounter may be casual such as a friendly greeting. Do not expect the gazing into the eyes or feeling an instant connection experience.

Your relationship will develope over time You may be too keen and focused on looking out for the special One that you may dismiss him all together.

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Hi Waterlilly! I know, and that's my problem.. If I can't recognize him - how can I be sure he's the one? I try to be open and not dismiss people even if they're not perfect according to my "wishlist", but on the other hand I don't want to settle for the next-best thing either. It's a fine line...

I'm just hoping for a feeling of just "knowing" that it's right so my scattered mind can be eased... I don't want to live with someone and continuously doubt the relationship, that would be such a nightmare and I've done that before already I want to make it 110% right this time. How do people do these things? I have a friend that knew that her husband was the one after only 3 dates.. I want that feeling as well! wow, everything would be so much easier and I could go aaaaaall in with that person!!! *longing*

posted April 04, 2012 06:46 AM            

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Originally posted by birdy:
Well lets look at your SR, and progressions/transits.

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Hi again Birdy! Here are transits and progressions!
And if relevant, my natal chart here:
Placidus: http://i385.photobucket.com/albums/oo292/Nyah_photobucket/j-natalchart.jpg
Equal: http://i385.photobucket.com/albums/oo292/Nyah_photobucket/natal-j-equal.jpg

posted April 04, 2012 07:37 AM            

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Originally posted by Waterlilly:
Hello Nyah

The man you are anticipating to enter your life will not be what you are excepting.

Your first encounter may be casual such as a friendly greeting. Do not expect the gazing into the eyes or feeling an instant connection experience.

Your relationship will develope over time You may be too keen and focused on looking out for the special One that you may dismiss him all together.

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posted April 04, 2012 03:50 PM            

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Originally posted by birdy:
Well lets look at your SR, and progressions/transits.

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posted April 04, 2012 09:22 PM            

Your progressions are very interesting. A NEW moon has already began the past year,
in your natal in ARIES. This is significant in terms of changes in your life.
A new beginnging has begun and will continue on till your progressed moon starts
waning, which wont be for a very long time...
Also Your Progressed VENUS is at the end of Aquarius about to go into
Pisces. First off, when prog venus changes signs, you WILL find yourself in a new
relationship or meet someone very significant. This happens a lot. Also it will conj your
natal SUN. This again shows a unique time for meeting the "love of your life".
Transit chiron conj all this, and your natal sun, although can be a purging of sorts..
it is also healing. The men in your life(dad, love, whatever) can heal you from
past hurts although you need to be aware, it can be very difficult to handle these
energies unless you're aware and prepared.

Overall I see good signs for what you want. Just have to be patient but with Capricorn
moon, Im sure you have patience for this.

posted April 05, 2012 02:06 PM            

Thank you SO MUCH for your time and effort, I'm really glad for your input in all this!

The next Solar Return looks indeed interesting and I feel hopeful about it, so thank you again! I was impatiently focused on here & now that I didn't think about checking out next year. I'm still uncertain about this guy I'm in love with but I guess time will tell. I checked his Solar Return for next year as well just to see if there were any hints... He's got SR Moon in Cancer, SR ASC (Gem) in natal in 7H, Ruler of ASC in 7H, SR Sun in 7H and so on. Well, I will keep you guys posted I guess, lol!

Birdy, why do you think he'll live far away from me? I always fall for guys from other countries I LOVE traveling, other cultures and to hear other languages! The guy I'm talking about here has some foreign flavor and he speaks a third language I don't know - that's like an express-ticket to my heart, lol!

The pregnant thing is just hilarious! The tarot reader I met 7 years ago said I should be careful because I could get pregnant when it's not planned. She also mentioned meeting someone and then get 3 kids in a row quite quickly. She also said the guy would be a scorpio... I'm stretching it but "my" guy has scorpio venus and he def acts a lot like one towards me...

Last year I went to another tarot reader and she got soooo many cards that represented children that she was like "are you pregnant?!!" and I'm like NO, I'm not even in a relationship! She laughed and said that I should be careful... lol!!! She told me I could stop looking for the One because he's going to find ME. She said he'll feel safe/secure/right for me. And that he'd be big?! whatever that means? heh.. She could have gotten vibes from a male friend who was there with me though, he's big and I think he loves me more than as a friend.

I'd like to get pregnant within 3 years (because of my age), but of course with the right guy! Anyhow, none of this is any problem currently since I haven't been near a guy in that way for quite some time now lol

My Cap Moon is patient yes, but more in terms of emotionally holding on even when I think I should let go... My Gem ASC on the other hand is shooting ideas every second on how things could/should/would be, analyzing everything to pieces. So, head vs heart! always!

posted April 06, 2012 11:27 AM            

LOL she said he'd be big? lol maybe she meant tall. haha

posted April 12, 2012 06:11 AM            

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Originally posted by birdy:
Well I think he'll live far away because
it's in your natal and in the SR, Ruler of DC,
is in the 9th. Uranus combined with the 9th house
energy leads me to believe he will live far or at least
a good distance.

LOL she said he'd be big? lol maybe she meant tall. haha

Anyways, Good luck and Im glad I could help.

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posted April 12, 2012 06:12 AM            

I've told you I feel like he's keeping me waiting and I'm not sure why he does this, but he doesn't let me slip away either. So, I asked some questions to sort things out once for all. He's been talking about future plans (kids etc) very early so I took him up on that. He said we should get to know each other better and take things from there. And that he'll give us much more time and effort from now on to really give it a chance. Great, that's what I want too! He said he has no worries about me being a great partner to live with and if things works out between us he can absolutely see us having kids quite soon. Wooah…

Then I asked him how many kids he wants (only because one tarot reader said I'll have 3, when I've always thought 2 would be enough)… He holds up 3 fingers! ok… and then I ask if he sees himself stay at home taking care of them a lot (also bc the tarot reader said the right guy will take care of home & kids while I work).. He replies that he looooves kids and they love him, so YES. haha, perfect! I'm not that much into playing with small children so that sounds just great The next thing that happens is that he pats my belly and says "I think it's a girl!"… and I'm like "oookey"… thing is, I've always imagined my first-born being a girl. So, all in all, he might just be the one - but this year will be about getting to know each other and kicking things off for real my next solar return. Maybe…

He wrote something very honest to me yesterday that I guess sums it up. He wrote (I'm translating so it's not exact but close): "I want to wake my strongest feelings for you!!! I really wish for that! You are like the best person imaginable…. or, well, 99% nobody is perfect, lol *jk* . But… damn, I really hope for it."
So, he hasn't fallen for me completely yet but he wants to. Honesty is good! If he makes time for us to see each other more from now on I don't think it will be a problem.. He will fall so hard for me yeaaaah ) lol

posted June 16, 2012 07:05 AM            

On May 16 I had a date with that guy again. It was nice and we talked a lot - and he said again that he won't be ready until.. well, next year or so when things cools down at work. I was like "yea I know, I have patience." But the day after I started to feel different. I felt I was not patient anymore and I realized he wasn't going to change. For the first time I really FELT I was about to let him go and that it was the right thing to do.

On May 19 I texted him asking if he wanted to grab an ice-cream. He was like "sounds nice but I'm on my way to a party in another town". I knew he was gonna say no because he's always busy, but at least now I've made one final attempt. After that I was rapidly closing the walls around my heart. On May 20 he was tagged in photos from that party and he was drunk and having his arms around girls. They're his friends but that was the nail in the coffin. No more of this **** and I wasn't even hurt - I thought he was pathetic! I'm SO glad I can see him that way now, what a loser he is to have lost me...

So, on May 20 - the day of the eclipse - I was like "wow, he really isn't worth me at all!! moving on!" No more false hopes and illusions, just a calm and clear mind. Hallelujah! not even heartbreak, just quietly moving on.

What has happened now is that a guy at work has told me he likes me a lot. He's a really nice guy but I don't want to fall in love right now. Main reason is that his ex tricked him so she's pregnant and he will be a dad soon... He's a Cancer Sun/Asc/Mercury, Cap Moon, Taurus Venus/Mars. I will just enjoy the attention he gives me but I will not get involved until we see how all that works out.

Keyword of the day: F*** love, I'm tired of trying!
I'll enjoy this summer with family and friends, and maybe some casual flirting!