posted May 13, 2012 06:15 AM            

Please allow me to vent a little coz I have 4 days until therapy and must let this one out. lol So, lemme start with the beginning. A few months ago, on a game site I go to, this guy approaches me out of the blue saying he's a friend of a friend and asked if he could be my Pince Charming (believe it or not, that's what he said). In that period of time I had just broke up with crazy Libra who used to stalk me on that site, so obviously I thought he was crazy Libra. I didn't respond very nicely, I will not give specifics, 'nuff to say I've got Mercury conj Mars in Aries . Surprisingly, the dude insisted so I checked his references with the common friend and received good recommandation haha. We exchanged emails and photos, and he came on to me pretty insistently but we only talked ONCE. After that, total silence. I think I wrote him a line after that, neutrally asking whatsup but no reply. He ignored me completely on the game site we met as well. So after a while, I deleted his email, photos, changed my username and totally forgot about him (I was pretty upset for some reason). That was in February, I think.

Sooo... all was good in the world. Out of sight, out of mind, all cool. Yesterday I had a trip in the mountains scheduled with my therapist and 3 other clients of hers (some sort of group therapy). My day begun poorly, I had to drop by the hospital to check up on a few patients, I was late and in such a hurry, there was some misunderstading and my boss yelled at me, so I was already pretty worked up when I got to the meeting place but somehow managed to be just 1 minute late.
I saw him from a distance and recognized him. Yup, the dude from the game site! I thought maybe I am mistaken, what would be the odds and WHY would he reappear in my life like this?? The game site where we met is national. Yes, I knew we lived in the same city but it's a pretty big city. Then, my therapist doesn't have a lot of clients because she also works as a nurse full time, so therapy is part time. I think like 10 maybe? What would have been the chances of him being a client of my therapist and also going on this trip??
I parked and told my therapist in secrecy that I know the guy. I didn't have the chance to tell her anything about how we met, just got the confirmation that it's the same guy I met a few months ago. Perhaps it would not be such a big deal to a person who believes in coincidences but I don't. So I was stuck on a trip with him. Goody. My therapist asked me if I was ok with that and I said yes though I knew the answer was no. Put on a straight face and went out to meet him. We both acted like it was the first time, but I know he remembers me. 2 cowards, I suppose. I thought time passed very slowly yesterday. I could not wait for the day to be over and go home and crash. Surprisingly, the dude was not a bad company, quite smart and funny, but in real life he wasn't so exuberantly charming and he didn't flirt with me at all. In fact, I thought he had a thing for this other girl. Whatever, what do I care?! I kept my distance and only spoke with him if I had to. Obviously my feathers were still ruffled from the stunt he pulled few months ago.
To the end of the day I became very silent and sad for some reason and when I took off in my car, I bumped it a little (no scratch though), and felt like a silly idiot since he saw that. heh. For some reason, while driving home, I started to cry like really really bad and I could not control it at all. And I don't understand, for the life of me, WHY. Why do I care?? Why did he get to me like this? Pretty sure he doesn't give a damn, so why do this?? I don't think I am attracted to him or like him that way, either, but why did I react like this? And why did the Universe send him my way again?? What was the message that I don't seem to get?

I actually now have his birthday, but not his birth year lol. I imagine he is same age or 1-2 years older than me. Asked the common friend but he doesn't know lol. But... red flag... he is a Bull. I have a pretty bad track record with Bulls, in the way that I tend to fall for them hard and recover very slowly. Clearly NOT what I need right now. Or ever.

Well since I cannot post the synastry/comp, I will post the first meeting chart. This is for the time we made first eye contact (from the distance), not when we shook hands (that was 5-10 min later). Any insight as to WHY this has happened is highly apreciated, as it sort of bugs me and I cannot be objective for now.

Thank youuuu!

posted May 13, 2012 11:15 AM            

I must say, that maybe the outburst of tears is just the final hurdles before you can actually move on and start a new chapter in your life.

altho the guy ruffled your feathers, maybe deep down inside of you, you wisheded he was more forthright and flirted with you or atleast gave you some positive hints that he was into you... wether or not you are into him, i think we all reach a point in our lives where flattery is much sought after by our ego. More so, after the few traumatic, life altering experiences you have faced.

Being down in the dumps, wanting to find love and be loved can be a rough. I know, been there, done that and yet we all learn something and survive to tell another tale

Chin up girl, dont stress yourself out by over analyzing this encounter... ife wants to get to know you better he knows where to find you.

posted May 13, 2012 12:18 PM            

It might be another year or two before love finds you again, and this time for good. in the meantime keep working on improving your self. mentally, emotionally and spirituality.

posted May 13, 2012 12:45 PM            

it just means the universe is making sure you are still alive and breathing... you are annoyed bcuz he is annoying in his approaches... not consistent.

But i dont think thats the point... i think the moment you let things go and stop over thinking you will open up new energy.

if he wants to be wishy washy in his approaches, let him... the moment you allow it to bother you, you block your progress. thats all

babe, its a test from the universe. are you ready to evolve into a wiser, improved you or are you still stuck on your old ways?

delaying progress and or not finding new outlets for your "obsessions", i know i have plenty of them lol you will continue to be stuck and play the same old dance and song.

posted May 13, 2012 12:58 PM            

I have an exact Moon-Neptune conjunction btw. The hardest thing about it is that it also sits on SN with 1 deg orb. So the pull towards daydreaming and self-delusion is very high with me and difficult to keep at bay. Sometimes I think I would do better with an imaginary partner than a real one lol. But yeah, I need to improve my ways and get ready for HIM. Hehe.

posted May 13, 2012 01:17 PM            

Now i asked what does Hera need...

for you I pulled the magician card.

you have everything you need, right in front of you, to create.

posted May 13, 2012 01:53 PM            

You can better utilize your imagination to imagine creative ways to launch yourself to the next level or help you focus on the life you want and how you will get there.

posted May 13, 2012 02:08 PM            

use your imagination to attract the things you want.

this is my favorite quote.

u attract what u want. Your energy will attract it.& the phone can ring & your whole life can change in a blink

posted May 13, 2012 04:04 PM            

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Originally posted by Junethird:
It might be another year or two before love finds you again, and this time for good.

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You know something June... In 2014 I am having a progressed conjunction of Venus-NN-Valentine and for a short while POF. Love cannot possibly MISS me then lol. I used to be all "why NOT me, what is wrong with me, why everybody else and not me" etc.... But truth is, if I was the guy *I want*, I wouldn't give me the time of day. Tough thing to admit, but true as hell. And it's not "why not me" because I had and still have opportunities for dates/flings but none are what I want. Because what I want wouldn't look twice in my direction - and that's how I would want him to be, to demand that I become the best possible person that I can be, to push me off my lazy butt to overcome all my limitations. And that man, right now, wouldn't be slightly interested in me. The Sag I dated last year was sort of like this (the one with the fake baby) - in fact he was the closest thing to what *I want* - but he had other issues that eventually drove us apart. At least I got a glympse of how it could be, which is still something. But he wasn't ready either

posted May 13, 2012 04:10 PM            

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Originally posted by Junethird:
ill send you an invite. email?

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Thank you, you're very sweet! But I linked my FB account to my official email addy and I feel very awkward about posting that one online. I'm going to wait for their invite, perhaps I am not yet fully committed to this. I am sure the invite will come when the timing will be the right one.

posted May 13, 2012 04:12 PM            

in a years times, you will find 'like'

in maybe 2 years 'likexlike= love' you are a bit behind so maybe 2.5.

it will be unexpected because you will be living your busy busy life. i dont think it will be a past love... but you will be comfortable with him, kinda like you know him, but impossible bcuz he will be a new person. your souls needs will match up nicely.