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Topic: Why can I be so shy?
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Pure
Knowflake Posts: 56
From: London, ENG
Registered: Apr 2012
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posted May 23, 2012 05:20 PM
  
When I first meet the vast majority of people I can be so ridiculously shy and I'll usually stay that way for at least the first few weeks or months of knowing them. Then something will randomly switch one day and I'll come out of my shell like BAM WOOO!!! It's so annoying because I want to join in with conversations and things they're doing but I just CAN'T, something psychologically stops me. And it's embarrassing because they always mention it to me as well. Is there anything in my chart that signifys this? If I photoshop it out will it go away in real life to?   IP: Logged |
sweet-scorpion
Knowflake Posts: 253
From: PA, USA
Registered: Apr 2012
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posted May 23, 2012 05:35 PM
Saturn in H3 is a big indicator for this one. Having Saturn in relation to Mercury or in Mercury's house, or both (I have this too, don't feel bad) makes one inclined to only speak when they feel it's necessary; to say words that are concise but have a lot of weight to them; to be wise when speaking but not speaking in an extremely fast or animated way UNLESS the ASC is more outgoing like Leo or Sagittarius (in your case it is Sagittarius, so this is most likely why you eventually just explode out in communications after getting over the Saturn hurdle). One other thing I noticed is you have Chiron sandwiched between your Sun and Mercury, making slightly loose conjunctions to both. These planets fall in your 10th house of social standing and the outside identity. This could be a factor to why you are shy. Having Mercury conjunct Chiron means your deepest wound and ability for wisdom is connected to all that is mercurial within you, your ability to speak, write, communicate. Having this in the 10th means that you might feel you are unable to communicate as vividly and effectively with peers, colleagues, in the work place, etc. etc. I think that this is a huge reason you feel quite shy around others and afraid to speak to them. Another is the Sun-Chiron conjunction in the 10th. A core part of your identity, the Sun, carries the Chiron wound in terms of you relating in a serious way to other people. With friends and groups you might find that you are lacking in presence some way. Quite often this is totally in your imagination. The wound brings out these fears of rejection in the outside world and dims the Sun's light. You really need to trump Chiron here in your 10th, to feel like you can allow yourself to harness its wisdom versus its wounding 'why me' quality in the social and professional circle. Chiron also adds wisdom and depth to what it touches. So instead of feeling depressed and dimmed, and verbally self conscious, allow yourself to come out and shine and say things that carry a greater weight instead of waiting weeks and months to do it. You will find yourself more accepted than you will anticipate.  IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae
Knowflake Posts: 258
From: Venice, California, US
Registered: Jul 2011
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posted May 23, 2012 10:52 PM
Yep. Sun-Chiron, and Pluto in the 12H, in shadow. You don't feel your own power - or, really, the ability to access it - easily. Sun-Chirons tend to be very sensitive, and painfully afraid of rejection - whether or not it's expressed. Your luminaries being in Air tend to balance things out - at the very least, allowing you to be self-aware and go, 'WTF?' as you have now.Adding to that, the fact your Mercury is also conjunct the Sun-Chiron tends to bring that insecurity into the cerebral realm, too. Ever think of using some colour therapy or similar techniques to highlight and emphasise which planets of which you'd like to better harness the energies? Even for just when socialising? -A.
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RunAroundScreaming
Knowflake Posts: 3905
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Registered: Oct 2010
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posted May 24, 2012 07:52 AM
Great insight! You both said everything I was going to point out, haha. Awesome.IP: Logged |
Doux Rêve
Moderator Posts: 1799
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posted May 24, 2012 01:02 PM
You're young.You'll grow out of it. IP: Logged |
Pure
Knowflake Posts: 56
From: London, ENG
Registered: Apr 2012
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posted May 25, 2012 04:51 PM
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Originally posted by sweet-scorpion:
Having Saturn in relation to Mercury or in Mercury's house, or both (I have this too, don't feel bad) makes one inclined to only speak when they feel it's necessary; to say words that are concise but have a lot of weight to them; to be wise when speaking but not speaking in an extremely fast or animated way UNLESS the ASC is more outgoing like Leo or Sagittarius (in your case it is Sagittarius, so this is most likely why you eventually just explode out in communications after getting over the Saturn hurdle).
Damn you Saturn.  Lol! The universe is currently in the process of placing very extroverted people in my company for a short period of time, a few hours - a week. A few of them have been the type that are in constant need of verbal stimulation so I've been forced out of my Saturn comfort zone. I'm actually quite sad that I'm never going to see some of them again because they were definitely characters!
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Originally posted by sweet-scorpion:
Having Mercury conjunct Chiron means your deepest wound and ability for wisdom is connected to all that is mercurial within you, your ability to speak, write, communicate. Having this in the 10th means that you might feel you are unable to communicate as vividly and effectively with peers, colleagues, in the work place, etc. etc. I think that this is a huge reason you feel quite shy around others and afraid to speak to them. Another is the Sun-Chiron conjunction in the 10th. A core part of your identity, the Sun, carries the Chiron wound in terms of you relating in a serious way to other people. With friends and groups you might find that you are lacking in presence some way. Quite often this is totally in your imagination. The wound brings out these fears of rejection in the outside world and dims the Sun's light.
This! When I compare myself to others in regards to speaking and writing I feel so inferior, so in turn I don't even bother most of the time because I'm so afraid of saying/writing/doing something "wrong" and having them dislike me. quote:
Originally posted by IndigoDirae:
Sun-Chirons tend to be very sensitive, and painfully afraid of rejection - whether or not it's expressed.
Very true. Like I mentioned before I'm scared people will dislike me if I say/write/do something "wrong". Deep down I think I know I probably wont do anything "wrong" but I struggle to get past the "what if?". Large groups and public speaking are probably my worst nightmare. quote:
Originally posted by IndigoDirae:
Ever think of using some colour therapy or similar techniques to highlight and emphasise which planets of which you'd like to better harness the energies?
I tried googling colour therapy but nothing very explanatory came up. I'm very intrigued though, how does it work? quote:
Originally posted by Doux Rêve:
You're young.You'll grow out of it.
I very much doubt I will unless I make a concious choice to, which I am. It would be so easy for me to just continue being this way because it's all I know how to. IP: Logged | |
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