posted August 10, 2012 05:25 PM            

Thank you!

posted August 10, 2012 05:41 PM            

are you full of confidance with a strong attractive appearance that draws people to you?

do you hide your tender emotions? maybe out of fear of getting hurt or that another wont understand the depth and power of your emotions?

are you strongly connected to your past? maybe even if you dont want to? was one of your parents strong and controlling in a way that made you feel a bit insecure or pewerless?

strong intellect? good at conventional thinking and innovative thinking?

very loving person but maybe problems in love life? do you have many admirers?

tendency to push your ideas onto others or ruin others ideas?

strong self exspression but may be doubt deep inside?

lets start with this and i will write more

for now tell me what you think about what i wrote

posted August 10, 2012 06:17 PM            

its 1 am here and i can berely see ^^

i think that if you will find your confidance you will be a very strong person...and attractive aswell....remember that "it" girls work for it....but the time they spend on being with others is nit taken on development and self-improvement....thats why "in" girls are often called bi**es

practical thinking does only go to handeling money and stuff....there are many people wit bright ideas that dont know how a book should be written....art needs its practicality too

do you have many friends? did you have a crush on a friend that cause you great pain?

you seem like an able person and your only problem (accepting yourself,loving others,art) is your confidance....if you learn to accept yourself you will be able to achieve very good things in life

i think that the person you will marry will be also somehoe connected to art....maybe a bit inhibited....maybe he will remind you of yourself before you got confidance and that will appeal to you....to help him develop

posted August 10, 2012 06:48 PM            

I agree finding confidence will make me stronger, indeed. It would make anyone stronger and I am finding it day by day, and am much more confident than i was several years ago (im not anywhere near as bad) lol
I think i'm on the "right
" path??" I see what you mean about the "it
" girls but thankfully i do not wish to be one of them, and i rather work on authentic self improvement, self development, spiritually, emotionally, and of course materially but i have trouble ..alot of trouble with the material world of thing.

I can never focus long enough to get things like that done. I am not too "practical" so I understand it must be learned.

posted August 10, 2012 07:01 PM            

unfortunally...i must go to sleep now and i will read your chart tommorow

posted August 10, 2012 08:13 PM            

The ascendant area of your chart has you in the imagery of having to jump on a trampoline to be seen.

You are under a heavy cloud/blanket of traditional/parental/familial influences that you struggle to appease whilst trying to be true to your nature and character.

Others will help you surface from the darkness of the blanket. Your ancesteral lineage is probably religious and heavily superstitious. It has bred a heavy atmosphere down through the family over the generations, and it doesn't seem to be either side of the family in particular, as both parents are under this grey drudge.

One grandmother especially has suffered terribly as she is a lot like you and I am thinking it is your father's mother. The imagery is that she has hooks in her legs, like fish hooks and the fishing lines travel into the earth and are connected to multitudes of fishes deep in underground waters and they drag heavily on her especially as she aged.

It's like there is a duty over the family members, spiritually. The way you ease the burden is by carrying it, with faith and respect, but you are not inclined to drop it or run away as you instinctively know that you have a responsibility. You will actualise your sunniness and warmth as you grow and mature. The responsiblity is about carrying your skin colour, your ethnicity, and eventually parenting. Your family line is strong and you will put little feet on the earth.

In terms of career, I think it will be slow, and the emphasis is on the community. You will build a career through communication and relationship with others. Others strengthen you as you strengthen them. Your personality can build community resources.

posted August 10, 2012 09:50 PM            

I can see the grandmother, she has short, straightish hair brushed back from her face and parted in the middle, she is creamy olive in skin colour, good looking, and fit, not heavy, not lazy.

The children seem to be your own, but if you can't have them, then I don't know how they are there but there are at least two and they are the doorway to many of your community connections.

The family background had a look of the sicilian type of family to me but I didn't mention it because I couldn't source the correct feel of place.

Ethnicity, in terms of cultural motifs. It's complex but feels like the responsibility is in the layers of your skin - like ingrained. The ethnicity is also in specific woven fabrics, colours and patterns, and use of corn.

Please do as you wish, as I don't understand the carrying of the burden/responsibility but it does have an ancestral connotation to it.

I can't describe the grandmother factor very well either, many things are so complex and hard to put to words, that's why images seem to work better for me, and I get the interpretation of the image by suggesting solutions in my mind until something fits, or I do small tarot readings mentally to try and understand what is being conveyed.

There is a combination of things that stand out about the grandmother. She had a favourite brother, she was separated from him, possibly by war or military stuff, and she was obligated to a marriage rather than be with/marry who she wanted to. There were big mountains and distance between her and where she wanted to go/visit - not far as the crow flies, but seemingly insurmountable to her because she was confined to place and unable to go anywhere without suspicion or people restricting her by their expectations.

Which ever paternal grandmother she is, I think your mother also knew her and had a deep bond with her.

When you feel especially down at times people in real life will come to your aid just at the right times and prop you up again.

I googled Belize and it said something about it being 'muddy waters' in Mayan. This is what the water under the earth symbolism is related to, and initially I was thinking of muddy waters, as would be where the earth has a lot of water in it.

Thinking now on it, you can qualify for some kind of grant, related to the cultural roots, but you have to do a bit of work to source the paperwork.