posted August 18, 2012 06:56 PM            

for once i am requesting rather than trading/offering

readings have been suggesting i have pain to get the better of. and indeed i've just come back from the theatre where i watched a play that made me get it really bad again through certain similarities.

these moments come and go, when i feel hopeless and convinced that i ruined the possibility of my own happiness, and no other one that arises will be comparable. i have nothing to look forward to, i feel broken and all cut up. despite it being more than 2 years since the actual events took place.

i really have to know what i have to do to stop this. like, actually, in what spheres of life, in the company of what kind of people, doing what kind of things? recommendations to simply "move on" have proven to be futile, one cannot move on from the kind of stuff that happened to me.

would appreciate. might be able to trade, if there's such a need.

posted August 19, 2012 02:04 PM            

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BUT PLEASE have pity on me if you're still developing your skills etc etc etc. Because I'd take it seriously and who knows what. If it's too negative and happens to be wrong I'll end up buying a packet of amber leaf and by the time it's over i'll be hooked on smoking for good back again, which will be your fault. Basically, please, don't read for me on this one if you're not sure of your skills, I cannot risk. It's really serious, not a "why he didn't text me back" kind of question [not being dismissive of this kinda questions, of course][/B]

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