posted December 31, 2012 04:20 PM            

I moved back home and he's been nothing but welcoming and sweet, although things are kind of awkward since it really hasn't been established where things stand. I didn't want to have that conversation our first time seeing each other again, but he was hinting pretty strongly about basically building a future together.

BUT the main issue is that I guess we are both too impulsive or maybe Taurus mars needs regular sex, or whatever it is, we've both been hooking up with other people, and my ties are completely severed being that I just moved back home across the country, but his are still right here in the small town he lives in with mutual friends and road trips planned and all of that... (which I can't be upset about seeing as how I was doing the same exact thing, but I have no attachments here and that's not something I'm willing to become entangled in if he isn't willing to let go of other emotional investments he might have)

So for right now I'm just playing it cool and seeing how things unfold in the next couple weeks but I've waited a long time for both of us to be single and available, and I'm willing to give him the time and space he needs, but I really can't wait forever, and I can't continue to be so invested in something making myself emotionally unavailable to everyone else if this is ultimately just going to end as a fling. I know all the things I need to say I just don't know how I'm going to manage to bring this up without tripping over my words or having it come out completely wrong.

So I don't really know what to do about this, as usual lol, and right now I just feel numb towards the whole situation.

So I guess I don't know what a clear question would be to ask other than is this something that he really wants or will be willing to commit to? Should I continue waiting if he's not ready or just be done with this?

Any responses would be appreciated, thank you in advance